hashbrown and a glass of milk

lolly was meowing outside my door. It was 7.36am. I pulled and rolled myself in my warm blanket. damn it felt so good. I don't remember when was the last time i washed it. errr.. lolly shut up! I just want to enjoy the cool morning weather,the soft breeze and sleep in a bit. Lolly was not cooperating. Okay, okay you win lolly. She must be really hungry. I opened the door and she rushed in and jump into my bed. Oh, she just want to join me in bed. ok fine.. We slept in a bit.

Hashbrown and a glass of milk. Thats what i had this morning. last night. and yesterday for breakfast. and infact for the past one week! pathetic. who cares?? i just loove hashbrown.. because.. its potato! anything potato goes. I'm Miss Potata. Ok mom was away for hajj and left her lil girl alone. Ahahaha.. I am sill survived. Been cooking once or twice for lunch but sometimes i'm just too lazy to cook for one.

I'm logging off now. I will try to write again. Have not been active blogging but i've been thinking about it everyday. I guess i kinda lost the rythm. i miss you.. dear blog.

EXHIBITION NEWS!!

IMPORTANT NEWS!!!

unfortunately my RED Ribbon exhibition is POSTPONED to next year. to my friends who has been waiting for this.. and asking me about the exhibition, i am so sorry for not informing it earlier but due to some problems on location and sponsor, it has to be postponed to a new date. Sorry friends, thanks for the support. I feel bad about it but I will keep it updated!

night traffic

dusk in subang on a pedestrian bridge.
the sky is already dark and it seems to rain tonight.

IE ruined my day.

I've been designing my website and learning while developing one is not a very smooth workflow. But i managed to learn image ready and wow, can't believe designing layout into html could be thiiis simple!

I am using mac and rarely use Internet Explorer (erm.. just recently installed IE 5 browser as i am very much satisfied with safari and mozilla) Yes, mozilla this and mozilla that for my search engine and testing platform.

As for a beginner in image ready and not a website developer as in career wise, i am quite satisfied with the look of www.fatiniz.com ON MOZILLA and SAFARI! Until one day, i visited friend's office and used her browser.. well, i had no choice but IEing stuffs. I was surprised to see how my page looked on IE. and most of my portfolio slides are not working the way i wanted it to be!!!! IE shucks!! (it should work as in slide transition rather than opening each images in another page!!!) but i guess i've got no choice but to redo it and make sure i test them on IE. And i feel sorry to those who still uses IE (i know a lot of them still do) You might want to consider a switch.. so peeps, mozilla it is!

sad sad sad...

gloomy as i am.

gloomy, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

where goes the sun? bring me rainbow and make me smile.

bond of love

Syakirah & Fairizat Solemnization, Masjid Damansara 02 November 2007.
Stay Tuned for reception end of January 2008.

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Mendadak Dangdut - Movie Launch & Press Conference

No i wasn't there for the movie. Not my kind of genre though but i was hired to cover the event. Credit goes to those gorgeous actor/actress in this movie, TT Kamal and Dwi Sasono.

Thanks jo (4u2c) for the opportunity.

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My RED RIBBON Exhibition.

life has been tough and tougher for the past few weeks. New job is squeezing every bit of me. Time has never been this short. I am chased by datelines, client's deliverables and.. foremost..my first exhibition project with Nikon Malaysia in conjunction with World's AIDS day which is going to be held in December. I had sleepless nights, nightmares and hardwork of collecting materials and sketching ideas to be poured into this project. Friends .. sorry for my long silence.. I am tied up. I've never been this occupied my whole life. This is one important milestone in my life. The most awaited and dreamed thing that grows bigger and bigger in my bubble of dreams.

I shall not talk more about the exhibition. More updates from time to time. But i am driven, motivated, and anxious about it. As for now.. lets keep it low.. shhhh..

sad moment for lolly

it was a tough time for lolly and even tougher for me. A day before raya i decided to get lolly spayed. Sooner or later we are going to send her so why not now? I left lolly at the vet to the surgeon and it was a sad moment for me to hand her over to the operation room. She was calm and quiet as if she understands and accept that this might be the best for her.

The doc told me it might take 3 hours as this is lolly's first period cycle! damn, i didn't know female cats do have periods too! (will it bleed like us women? ahh... else they'd have to wear pads! how cute! ok, i'm talking shit now..)

At about 5pm i received a call from the surgeon and lolly was successfully spayed. Damn it cost me $275 + the vaccine. But its ok as i'd do my best for the best interest of her. Lolly's condition was sad enough to witness. Her long fur was shaved and the stitch is clearly exposed. The doc put an Elizabethan Collar around her neck to prevent her from scratching the wound and she was still under anaesthetic - semi conscious. I carried her and put her in the carrier and brought her home. She was damn weak! She can hardly open her eyes, so i let her sleep as much as she requires.

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Its been 2 days, lolly is still in a very weak condition. She's not eating nor drinking. I am beginning to worry like mad. Tried to feed her food in small portion but she refused to. I am praying to GOD so my lil lolly will wake up healthy by tomorrow else i gotta send her again to the vet and get her dripped. :(


oh by the way, selamat hari raya peeps.. :(

stressful lolly

stressful lolly, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

its mating season. she's horny and being grumpy. She started making weird noises and it put me awake the whole night! I didn't know handling one horny pussy is harder than i thought. Then we decided to send her to the vet to get neutered.

jolly lil lolly

jolly lil lolly, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

close up of lolly.. my baby..
a very playful 10mth old kitty. she loves to curl around my leg and running around the house like a mad pussy!

My new man..

I gotta a gift from heaven. Yes, I'm talking about that cute lil kitty - Lolly. Lolly was one of the good thing that came into my life this month. And No, I am not blogging about her today. I am talking about the white box with a red circle on it. A "man" that stole my heart and been on my dream-list this year. A man..frotto. Whats the big deal? Some other people might be lucky enough to get things as they wish. But i have been procrastinating it after one sad stories to another. Sad broken tripod stories.. thats it. I guess its time to stop the episode.


So I went to J One and met Jason. He recommended me 488RC2 series with 360 rotation ballhead.
There goes my $640. Just for a tripod. Some might call it insane. But I know how much it worths.

galfriend moments

yes, i'm a sucker for japanese food. Mrs L and I decided to berbuka puasa at sakae sushi. A place used to be our catching-up spot. We just love the ambience. Mrs L and I had so much things to catch up. I'm glad i'm still able to hang out with her once in a while. Being a wife shouldn't stop one to see her girlfriends. It feels good. And it felt even better when the food arrived. It left us with a moment of silence.

I had the soft shell crab for starter (a must have!) and a bento for main dish (which i forgot to capture it. was too hungry at that time.). The mouth watering teriyaki oyster with garlic rice Mrs L had was a worth menu to try. Macchaa ice-cream (green tea) was a good closing. yyyyyyyyyuuuuuuuuuummmmyyyyy!!

behind the scene.

Its 2 months before the scheduled day of my exhibition. I've been sketching up ideas and concept for my series. Yes its going to be a series. But the subject will not be disclosed as for now. Brainstorming is what i have been doing. And preparing 10 masterpiece in less than 2 months is ain't easy. Been cracking up my head day and night and it even haunts me to sleep. But somehow the adrenaline rush is a good sign. I am excited and nervous at the same time. And what worries me now is i have not started shooting. The idea pours like rain, but to get the subject ready isn't my control. Only if i could make them come to me and my shutter will start working.

Today, another lady the last chosen ones was in The Sun - Juliet Lai. And it made us 4. (i wish i could call it the Fantastic 4.. but i guess i'd rather have a different name.. hahah. sounds very perasan!). Its going to be the very first exhibition for all of us. Everything is still new. Yet we already exhibit our stuffs online, but this is somehow different.

I will just go with the flow and be myself. I am not trying to impress anyone because what i am going to exhibit is something that portrays my interest, passion and niche. To convey a message in a piece of image is very personal to me, very individual and takes emotions and feelings to be involved around it.

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here's are basically what happened when 4 photographers are being shot. He (the photographer who is supposed to shoot us) end up mentioning "since all of you are photographers, why don't you guys shoot each other?" and i end up shooting juliet and majidah. Han shot me! My kebaya went up and i looked horrible squatting to get the right shot. (no i won't post the pic here)

Guess what?? its waaaay wayyy harder to keep the photographers still in front the glass. We were laughing, giggling and making weird pose.

my photo flew to france

I came back from the bank and saw something jolting out from my home mailbox. A big brown envelope with unfamiliar writing and unfamiliar stamp on it. A mail from france.





Yes, this photo i used to shoot sometime ago was featured in a french instrument magazine called "Rythmes & Sons". Forget about reading it because i don't understand a word. But what i understand is © Nur Fatini Zulnaidi printed by the picture. wink wink...

here's a link to my gong photo.

my love, my baby you.

Letting go the one you love is the hardest sacrifice among all. But it may be the best decision to make. It hurts when you are embraced with the memory lane. A year full of good/sad/adventure/ moments together makes me realized how much he has done to me. I will always love you, I will always remember you. If situation permits, we are definitely gonna see each other again... my heart, my soul.. 18-200 VR.

... any takers out there? i'm leaving him for a 17-55 f2.8. Email me for details! hurry. serious buyer only!

The Sun shines on me

The Sun And Me, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I think i have a reason to feel good this morning. The Sun shines on me today.
Doing what i love the most. And I am finally free from any strings. I am free. Even though it sucks every juice out. But i appreciate and treasure this blood and sweat.

I chose to shut my ears, close one eye and pursue what i love. Doing it for fun is so much different from doing it for money. But the buck you earn out of doing what you love its priceless. Not much to make you rich, but the experience and satisfaction is indescribable.

I put my heart and soul into it. And beginning to love it each day...

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click here for the sun online (the url valids today only). Or you can download large size by clicking here.

the musician.

tribute to a friend. a very talented artist + musician.

ekaputra prasetya abdul jabar. (sorry i blew it)

vintage volvo

persetankan late submission for theme "50".

shot taken at client's resident in serendah.

sahur bloggy - day 4

I installed Adobe Lightroom yesterday. Been wanting this software for some time. Loading and editing photos in bulk of multiple clients is such a pain in the *** if you don't use the correct workflow. And my butt was in pain downloading, sitting for hours loading files. Not forgetting, flooding my mac with redundant copies. Hardisk becomes overloaded due to cross applications usage. I'm not going techies here, but i think lightroom has the features i'm looking for. It makes my life easier and handling files is faster compared to my traditional workflow.

Lightroom brightens my world! It makes me awake since sahur!

read more about the software here.

client.bestfriend.sister.

thank you for the opportunity to capture your big day.
you are a sister, friend and also a client!

"semoga berbahagia ke anak cicit!"

view photos here

The Gift II

And this is the real gift for me. 3 weeks ago, it was dusk and drizzling. I just got home from work and stepped out of my car and this poor lil kitty running and curling around my legs. Poor kitty. She was cold and hungry.

It was semi dark and i thought she was cute so i picked her and stroke this lil fluffy until i realized her body was full with mytes and mange. Then i put her down and went inside. She followed me and kept meowing maybe asking for food and shelter. Out of sympathy, i fed her and let her eat at the porch. I did not have any cat food at the time so i mixed fish and some rice. She didn't want to eat it at first so i just left her outside.(maybe this ain't no ordinary kampung cat!) Half an hour later i peeped through the window and the plate was empty but she wasn't there. She must be really hungry.

The next morning before i went to work, i saw that happy tummy slept at the corner and when she saw me, she keeps meowing and curling around me. I guessed she might have been abandoned by her owner. This is no ordinary stray. I was already late to work but who cares, i need to feed this fluffy thing so i went to the grocery nearby and bought a cat food.

At that moment i realized this is where she wants to be and destined to meet her new guardian here at my place and i decided to treat her disease and adopt this poor lil kitty. Its Ramadhan and its the best time to make good deeds not only to human, but.. cats too!

Now its been 3 weeks having her with me. Feeding Iams is never a mistake, she's soft, healthy and the veterinar keeps her mange at bay. Mytes and mange is dissapearing. She's now one happy healthy persian you can never imagine was once an abandoned diseased kittty.

Presenting.. loly!

sahur bloggy - day 1

Its 5.32am and i am waiting for subuh. Today is my first sahur for this year.. It is so pieceful and calm at this hour.. I can hear nothing but the sound of my airond and my keypad while i'm typing this.

Had a stiff neck when i woke up yesterday. I wasn't expecting its gonna prolong to today. It got worsen when my mom woke me up this morning for sahur. Erkh i hope it gets better after swallowing 2 tablets of panadol.

The azan has just aired. And i always wonder why each time azan, my neighborhood dogs howl? and they keep silent again after azan ends like now.. whenever i think of it on normal days especially during maghrib, my hair stands and it gives me an eerie feeling.. but they say syaitan and evlils are chained during ramadhan, so my eerie perception changed. I guess the dogs are just distracted with the loud speakers.. They are trained that way to secure the house.. ahhhh... lets forget about it.

I'm gonna pray and sleep this stiff neck off. I'd like to wish all of the muslims out there "Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak" and thank you for all the smses and wishes!

ps: come to think of it.. why do they howl instead of bark?

the gift.

the gift., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

oops! no, not mine.
this cute lil baby girl was my Aqiqah client last saturday. More photos here

putrajaya at night

putrajaya at night, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

shot taken after the grand finale of the MIFC. I'm too shy to load my crappy fireworks photos, so this is the after effect of the night. Looking good with the blue laser light, while i was enjoying the night breeze.

I kinda love KL (minus the heavy traffic after that!)

menembak malam.

Rasa ganasla pulak title tu. And erm.. sounds like KL menjerit or Rempit type of movie. Ahahahahha.. anyway, thanks to lanun darat kepala bulat for this snapshot. Nice focus. edited by moi.

the angry tree

the angry tree, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

oh yeah, i was sad, pissed and angry when i shot this. It was supposed to be a night of soulful colorful fireworks. but bummer to me. i broke the tripod a minute after the event started. 2 of my other buddies were enjoying the shutter release and enjoy the view at the same time. it was meaningless to me. I just kept my camera aside and try to enjoy the scene. But it wasn't as satisfying as being able to capture it through the viewfinder.

I must visit putrajaya again. Atleast i still have until 2nd September. My friend tried to console me by letting me use his tripod. And it was too late. No more fireworks. What i've got was this static tree which i guess he'd be laughing his ass off looking at the whole scene. But i think atleast its a not-too-bad shot.

more stories on Malaysia International Fireworks Competition (MIFC) here.

he's back! he's back!!!!

I'm the happiest girl on earth today. My mac is back. With his new life. Brand new. plus a new keyboard top courtesy by mac malaysia which worth $500++ FOC! The guy at the shop was even curious why Mac Malaysia was being so generous to me. My white keyboard top had a lil scratch and dirts on it. (how do you expect it to be pure white all the time?) and thats the reason why they replaced my not-so-clean white top to a new one! The service is superb!

Lesson learnt and to share..

1) get something which offers superb after sale service,
2) if its gonna screw.. make sure it screws before the warranty expires (even a minute to expiry date),
3) keep and check your expiry card once in a while.

and that is why you should switch to Apple! Apple rocks my world!

My Best Friend's Wedding

lisabliss, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

looong hectic+enjoyable+melodramatic+fun+memorable weekend is the best to describe my last weekend. hectic? the awaited date of my best friend's wedding had finally ended. Yeeah it was my best friend's wedding!! enjoyable? how does it feel to be the bride's maid of honour cum photographer for the remarkable date! fun? definitely it was! thanks to my friend whose kind enough to cover the wedding when my task is more needed to be beside the bride. I owe you millions, dude. melodramatic? my dear dear Ms L, condolence to your bro-in-law whom just passed away about 2 weeks before her wedding day. You and your sis are one tough sisters! life goes on, ok? The whole invitees in the mosque who witnessed the solemnization were in a moment of silence after the father of the bride suddenly burst into tears during his thank speech after the event completes. Everyone was sobbing and hugging while giving condolence and supports to the family members especially the sister. May he's blessed in heaven. Amin.

Ms L and Mr F.. you are one couple made in heaven. They look so divine in white humble kurung and baju melayu. Masjid Sultan Abu Bakar was the location of the solemnization. The gloomy sky seemed to be the witness of tears of joy and sadness. I would say the wedding itself shows a symbol of family ties, love and bond of not only one family stronger but two families together. The moment of joy, happiness, tears, commitments, efforts, collaborations, share and care between family and friends. Thank god it went smoothly even though there was a moment of panicking when we made the tok kadi to wait. Everyone was antsy, anxious and stressed-out. But alhamdulillah, on the 18th August 2007, 5 Syaaban 1428, located in Masjid Abu Bakar, the blessed couple is successfully wedded.

My dear friend, i am sad to let you go.. but i am a thousand times happy to see you in a hand of a good man. May your life is blessed with happiness and beautiful kids soon.. i love you!



More stories on her reception at Rumah Limas Danga Bay soon.

oh no!

He had a minor stroke last night. And now he is depending on the life support machine. oh, i can't live without him. My life now is depending on him.

I managed to send him to the hospital today. It feels so sad seeing him being wrapped and according the doctor he has to be sent away for a further treatments. I can't imagine spending my day routine without him.

Yes, my mac needs a new battery. Fortunately my warranty is still valid and expiring in 4 days time. Hope MAC Malaysia is kind enough to give him a new life.

I am sad.

not that balai - tribute to uncle teh

it was a few weekends ago when a friend invited me to an art exhibition for notthatbalai located at tempinissatu. There are a few art performance, visual arts and musical collaboration by a few artists, but one particular section really caught my attention. An inspiring talk by Mr Teh on his inspiring stories of his journey of life. There's no such thing as an instant success. It might take half of your life or maybe whole of your black hair before it turns grey and smell victory. A speech that tells me that dreams can turn reality if you are really into it. And it takes a lot of effort, sacrifice, blood and sweat to live in your dream.

So, to uncle teh.. you inspired me..

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tortured

tortured, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I was going environmentalist. Shooting couldn't be better in my flip flops and capri pants. The jungle trekking area was shaded with large trees thant only allows spots of rays coming down true the giant trees.

It took me awhile to capture and appreciate this rotten leaves. But the ray that falls on the rotten edges looks dramatic.

A friend told me how come i always have things to shoot. I told him if you look hard enough, there is a lot of things around you we can appreciate and i am practising my eyes to see things in a different point of view.

30 minutes contemplation.

sarong photo girl., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I have 1 hour before we go to Midvalley and buy a wedding gift for a colleague's wedding tomorrow. SO, let me kill my time to blog. Damn.. where do i start now. So much things to blog so lil time. Had nasi lemak so called rendang ayam this morning and i am still full. What can we get later for RM170 (money pool collected from my department). Someone suggested a baby stroller. LOL. Well, since this friend of ours already made a clear statement on getting preggy on her first night.. Baby stroller would be a cool thing to consider.

I am being a cool biatch and extra rebellious today . Wearing jeans.. or denim is a NO-NO here even if its during dress-down day like today. I just don't give a farting shit anymore. Sack me if they need to. I went down to the pantry with my "don't give a shit" look. Had my nasi lemak and did notice the one kind look as if you are wearing a red undies on top of your blue tight pants. (only superman is officially allowed to do that). As my strong and rebellious instinct forced me this morning, I DON'T CARE. After my happy moment with nasi lemak, we walked out the pantry and guess who i bumped into? Tan Sri ***! erk. fart. Within my 4 glorious years working in *** i have never seen him in flesh. (only in the company profile under the Board of director section) .. and all of the sudden there were other bosses i occasionally seen seems to pop out walking around in the office like what happen in a cheap movie scene (in which when the movie director says "ACTION", everyone seems to crowd the frame from GOD knows where). I still put that dont-give-a-shit look and just act like a visitor. lalalalal.

Life has not being really productive lately. Motivation and morale bar has turned critically red. Lots of insecurities and confusions going along my way. Finally the company is offering me to a permanent post. Unfortunately, its still not good enough for me. Of course, with a number of years working my ass off i deserved something more than that. Its time to move and dig for other opportunities elsewhere. I'm not going to sit and complain. I guess its time to achieve the satisfaction of working rather than working for the sake of earning. Without doubts, it is hard.. (way way harder than i thought) but everything's got to change. And the only person who could drive me to change is myself. I will be officially leaving this company in September. What will happen next? I am not sure myself. Maybe got married to a rich guy? (ahahaha.. dreaaam on!) Having my own studio with my own galleries on my own wall of fame is still my dream i need to pursue. Yes. It's time to leave.. For now lets go to Midvalley and find the wedding pressie, girls!!!!