back in action.

Ok, where do i begin. I guess i just don't know how to blog about personal life anymore. Everything is just about work. After the robbery, I had not been shooting that much. Being cameraless was such a pain! I really hoped i didn't lost my eye for photography.

Got myself new gears and forked out my savings to start all over and pick bits and pieces along the way. One thing i bear in mind, things happen for a reason. Maybe thats a payback for things i did wrong in the past. Well, enough said.

My trip to singapore was an enjoying one. A bit tired as it wasn't totally leisure trip as i was on wedding assignment but it felt good to finally be in singapore again after ages!

Here's some shots from the session.

my DUMB day.

darn! my $200 flew outa my pocket today for something very unnecessary. I've been trying to login to my streamyx account for few months and it failed me every time. I thought it was my router faulty since the adsl light wasn't blinking. I did some tests and diagnose (a skill that i don't have anymore - troubleshooting) but it still fails me. Then i decided to get a new router because the line i used to curi (from one of my generous neighbors which has no WEP) was no longer detectable.. ahh.

I got myself a nice sleek solid black linksys cisco router with built-in antenna. Since i'm not that techy anymore, i did a shortcut by asking the salesman to install the setting to my router (so i can just plug and play when i reach home) gosh, i'm a big fan of 'plug and play'.. then i took it back home and hope high as mountain and EXTRA confident i could see the google logo when i click on my mozilla browser. Bummer!!!!! same problem showed up...

I called streamyx call center and after few minutes of diagnostic and troubleshooting guided by the technical person.. hehehhehe... the password was wrong all this while!!!! i feel DUMB.

hair day

i am in a good mood today eventhough my head is burdened with issue and problems.

a friend told me how his hair could affect his day. his whole day routine. completely. i didn't quite give a damn about that. well i thought its only gals and their bad hair days.. well i felt so relieved today after having a haircut. After a disastrous so called transformation at a salon couple months ago, i've been keeping this dead-locks in a bun whole day, everyday.. until today. I did chop off about 4 inches today and surprised how free and easy i feel now..

thats how hair can give impact to your mood.

traumatic experience

The experience I am about to blog today is my worst experience i've ever encountered. I decided to blog it out rather than telling the whole story again and again for the nth times. Yes we are traumatized and hope you will take extra cautions whenever and wherever you are.

The incident happened last Tuesday (7th October 2008) at around 0820 at my very own resident in subang jaya.

To be exact i was still rolling in my blanket in my PJ smsing a friend feeling so lazy to hit the shower. Mom was at the kitchen and dad was outside about to go to work. I heard someone at the door knob trying to open my door. It is a routine that my mom usually wants to use my bathroom to shower. Without any suspects and doubt i approach the door and open. My vision was still blurry, i saw a figure of a guy i don't know infront of my door. In split seconds he turned his back and saw me. I quickly shut my door and locked it. He forced to open, I was breathing heavily. My mind couldn't focus and compute what's going on at that time. My hp was still in my grip. Things happened so fast and my door was kicked from outside and with 2 kicks it was opened. An indian guy (mid 20s, medium sized about 5'5" height) entered aggresively with a rambo knife pointed at me. With a lisp malay language he meant well to ask me not to move, and squad down. He took my hp from my hand. I don't remember anything but I was shaking and crying. i dared not look. I did not know what happened to mom and dad downstairs but i heard them uttering. I knew he was not alone. After a while mom went up to me and hugged me. Mom was trying to talk to him but i know at that time when they say something they mean well. He sweared to my mom. I heard the word p****mak strongly uttered to my mom. At that time he became more aggressive and start taking out his pistol. I didn't know he had a gun, it was hidden in his shirt. God knows how i felt at that time. I told my mom to obey before he decided to harm us. Another chinese guy entered my room with a gun and start digging and messing the room. After few minutes, they took out bunch of stuffs from my room and locked us in my bathroom. As it is an attached bathroom we managed to go out via other door after making sure they were not around. After a while, we came down and saw my dad unharmed (alhamdulillah).

He threatened my dad not to make a contact with the police for half an hour else there will be a 2nd trip. They took my dad's car and the house keys and go. Fortunately they didn't take my car. The car keys were just right on the sofa but as i'm only driving myVi, they only interested in my dad's brandnew camry. So i brought my parents straight to the police station and lodge a report.

According to my dad, he was in his car warming up the engine with the gate open before he was approached by a gang of 4 with guns and knives. He was helplessly asked to unlock my house. They talked nicely and slowly to my dad to make it less suspicious. My dad went back into my house with the gang before calling mom who was currently in the kitchen. The gang were smartly dressed that mom couldn't tell they were bad people before seeing pistols and knives pointed at my dad. One chinese guy stood by the main door, 2 other chinese guarding my parents while 1 indian went up to my room.

Wondering what are the total losts ?

My dad's Toyota Camry 2.4
Mom's jewelleries (the one she inherits from grandma). She's very sad about it.. and i feel so sorry for that.

My stuffs :

-macbook
-d80 + 85mm f1.8
-d300 + 17-55 f2.8
-sb800
-sb600
-my watches
-sony ericsson hp

I basically have nothing left as a photographer. All was stolen and the sad thing is i don't even have my stuffs insured. It seems like the whole office was robbed. I am now picking bits and pieces to start my life back.. i leave it all to the police to arrest the culprits. I hope they will enforce tighter rules and punishments and conduct regular patrols to guard the area.

But we are thankful that no life is harmed, yet we are still traumatized with the incident. We are currently not staying at the house for the time being untill we gain our confidence and feel safe again.

According to the police, car rob cases is quite common in my area, but encountering gangs with pistols is something quite new here. I am sad to say that people are becoming more daring these days. Robbing is becoming one of the way to survive as what the robber told my mom.. "makcik, kita juga mau carik makan.. kalau makcik duduk diam diam, keluarga makcik selamat.." while pointing a gun at my mom.

To friends and families, neighbors that i never bothered to say hi.. thank you for your support. Seeing news everyday makes me feel even unsafe. Crimes can happen anywhere, anytime during broad day light even a place you so called .. home sweet home..

the sinful image.

i decided to take a time off from my work and show off some skills. I'm kinda bored with the same old menus for berbuka. Chicken, beef.. nahh! Not today.. This special sambal from the inhouse chef (moi) definitely gonna be the main attack for break fast and sahur..

Wokay, enough bragging.. But I am hungry now :P

Selamat Berbuka Puasa!

updating life

Its been a while.. oh well its been ages since i put something here months ago. Well, am not hiding.. still around but a lil bit busy capturing life. I was travelling quite a bit.. tiring but enjoying every miles of it. Am losing weight (i hate it!!) due to my scope of work. Less sleep, social life, entertainment and love :( But lets make other people happy first, i know my time will come very soon. I am not complaining but i know GOD is fair. I feel blessed to being able to channel my creativity with the skills HE mould in me.. I may not be the best recipe.. but am improving my own mixture to become better and better..

I won't be updating here as frequent as before.. let say last time i did blog 2-3 times a day.. (used to) but now it may be 1 every 3 months?? Hmm..Time flies.. and i wonder where do the minute and hour go? Well, i guess it goes to here.

These are from a nice night out with some friends at the Sunrise Jazz & Rythm Fest tonight. Its been a while since the last time i went to any live performances.

..and my photo flew to jakarta!

I am not actually a big fan of financial report, stock market and banking magazines. But now, it can sit beside my favourite genre of magazines.. 'Preferred' the collaboration magazine of CIMB Malaysia and Bank Niaga Indonesia can now sit beside my Digital Camera magazines collection :)

3 of my gamelan collections were featured in a section of this premiere issue 2008. It was no big deal.. but the DHL package i received this morning made me smile..









The same photo also featured in a French magazine couple of months ago. Check this out :) I don't know what is so special about the photo :) but i'm blessed...

here's a link to my gamelan photo.

what the........?

i was doing my late night assignment. Nothing interesting on tv. Mom was watching drama after another. I just need the sound of tv to keep me awake. Its 12 midnight, I was too lazy to go upstairs to switch chanels on astro. So there i was on 9tv watching the horniest lame classical movie.

I am a HUGE fan of P Ramlee's movie. But this movie drove me nutsss!!! This is the worst P Ramlee's movie I've ever watched. Sorry Tan Sri, I can totally accept your jokes in your comedy... but this is definitely a NO-GO. Sarimah were made to look kinky and horny in an innocent way. Tell me which malay movies show ladies in just panty and bra or sheer nighties walking in a room with horny dialogues?

It was all Dr Rusdi's fault that made me watch till the end.. say, no kudos for Dr Rusdi but thanks for making me stay awake!! lol.

i need a dose of...

ooh.. its been ages and ages since i posted any good mind stimulating blog. Yes, my previous post navigate you to my new blog so called blog.fatiniz.com. But i guess its mainly for business and show offs. hehhehhe... I can't be writing about who i hooked and make out with last night at the.. erm.. shall i disclose it here? hmm...

Life has been pretty hectic. I have basically no entertainment as i normally work my ass off during the weekends. And I do go out for movies if i don't have any jobs on weekends. I have less friends now.. i guess everyone seems to be complaining about it.. especially the single ones like me. My good, better, best, bestest friends are all married, with kids or atleast pregnant!

So i guess its time for us singles to flirt. ahahah... its been ages since i've been actively flirting. Did I? oh well.. so i guess its not wrong to flirt rather than concentrating too much on work and relationship matters.. sometimes. No?

New home

I am working my ass off to my new sanctuary. Bigger.. better.. Feel free to visit here.

lil hideout

Backpacking alone is not bad at all. Especially when you are a young single lady like moi! Why? hmm.. you'll know later. Well there's pros and cons but travelling alone is about meeting new faces and mingle around. When i decided to pack my bag, i had a very limited money, energy and zero expectation. I brought no food, no camping gear.. just a few clothes to keep me dry for a few days. Its more like go-with-the-flow kinda trip. So the best thing to do is to bring no other. just me! I need to be closer to the nature after a quite some time leaving my steps in a jungle. And Taman negara is a place i always wanted to go. So i guess i just have to trust my gut feelings and go.

But too bad, I am too tired to blog about this lil adventure of my journey now. More stories and photos coming soon. I need some manicure/pedicure and a massage now!

Shout Out!!

my neck needs a new yellow strap

i usually have a list of wish when the new year comes. And i do have a non-stoping list for 2008 too. But to keep it short for now.. I WANT D300!!! I HAVE to buy it by this year. I repeat. D300.


whats yours? *wink*wink

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i need a holiday..

hashbrown and a glass of milk

lolly was meowing outside my door. It was 7.36am. I pulled and rolled myself in my warm blanket. damn it felt so good. I don't remember when was the last time i washed it. errr.. lolly shut up! I just want to enjoy the cool morning weather,the soft breeze and sleep in a bit. Lolly was not cooperating. Okay, okay you win lolly. She must be really hungry. I opened the door and she rushed in and jump into my bed. Oh, she just want to join me in bed. ok fine.. We slept in a bit.

Hashbrown and a glass of milk. Thats what i had this morning. last night. and yesterday for breakfast. and infact for the past one week! pathetic. who cares?? i just loove hashbrown.. because.. its potato! anything potato goes. I'm Miss Potata. Ok mom was away for hajj and left her lil girl alone. Ahahaha.. I am sill survived. Been cooking once or twice for lunch but sometimes i'm just too lazy to cook for one.

I'm logging off now. I will try to write again. Have not been active blogging but i've been thinking about it everyday. I guess i kinda lost the rythm. i miss you.. dear blog.

EXHIBITION NEWS!!

IMPORTANT NEWS!!!

unfortunately my RED Ribbon exhibition is POSTPONED to next year. to my friends who has been waiting for this.. and asking me about the exhibition, i am so sorry for not informing it earlier but due to some problems on location and sponsor, it has to be postponed to a new date. Sorry friends, thanks for the support. I feel bad about it but I will keep it updated!

night traffic

dusk in subang on a pedestrian bridge.
the sky is already dark and it seems to rain tonight.

IE ruined my day.

I've been designing my website and learning while developing one is not a very smooth workflow. But i managed to learn image ready and wow, can't believe designing layout into html could be thiiis simple!

I am using mac and rarely use Internet Explorer (erm.. just recently installed IE 5 browser as i am very much satisfied with safari and mozilla) Yes, mozilla this and mozilla that for my search engine and testing platform.

As for a beginner in image ready and not a website developer as in career wise, i am quite satisfied with the look of www.fatiniz.com ON MOZILLA and SAFARI! Until one day, i visited friend's office and used her browser.. well, i had no choice but IEing stuffs. I was surprised to see how my page looked on IE. and most of my portfolio slides are not working the way i wanted it to be!!!! IE shucks!! (it should work as in slide transition rather than opening each images in another page!!!) but i guess i've got no choice but to redo it and make sure i test them on IE. And i feel sorry to those who still uses IE (i know a lot of them still do) You might want to consider a switch.. so peeps, mozilla it is!

sad sad sad...

gloomy as i am.

gloomy, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

where goes the sun? bring me rainbow and make me smile.

bond of love

Syakirah & Fairizat Solemnization, Masjid Damansara 02 November 2007.
Stay Tuned for reception end of January 2008.

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For photography service on solemnization and weddings, contact me via : fatiniz@gmail.com

Mendadak Dangdut - Movie Launch & Press Conference

No i wasn't there for the movie. Not my kind of genre though but i was hired to cover the event. Credit goes to those gorgeous actor/actress in this movie, TT Kamal and Dwi Sasono.

Thanks jo (4u2c) for the opportunity.

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For photography service on events, contact me via : fatiniz@gmail.com

My RED RIBBON Exhibition.

life has been tough and tougher for the past few weeks. New job is squeezing every bit of me. Time has never been this short. I am chased by datelines, client's deliverables and.. foremost..my first exhibition project with Nikon Malaysia in conjunction with World's AIDS day which is going to be held in December. I had sleepless nights, nightmares and hardwork of collecting materials and sketching ideas to be poured into this project. Friends .. sorry for my long silence.. I am tied up. I've never been this occupied my whole life. This is one important milestone in my life. The most awaited and dreamed thing that grows bigger and bigger in my bubble of dreams.

I shall not talk more about the exhibition. More updates from time to time. But i am driven, motivated, and anxious about it. As for now.. lets keep it low.. shhhh..

sad moment for lolly

it was a tough time for lolly and even tougher for me. A day before raya i decided to get lolly spayed. Sooner or later we are going to send her so why not now? I left lolly at the vet to the surgeon and it was a sad moment for me to hand her over to the operation room. She was calm and quiet as if she understands and accept that this might be the best for her.

The doc told me it might take 3 hours as this is lolly's first period cycle! damn, i didn't know female cats do have periods too! (will it bleed like us women? ahh... else they'd have to wear pads! how cute! ok, i'm talking shit now..)

At about 5pm i received a call from the surgeon and lolly was successfully spayed. Damn it cost me $275 + the vaccine. But its ok as i'd do my best for the best interest of her. Lolly's condition was sad enough to witness. Her long fur was shaved and the stitch is clearly exposed. The doc put an Elizabethan Collar around her neck to prevent her from scratching the wound and she was still under anaesthetic - semi conscious. I carried her and put her in the carrier and brought her home. She was damn weak! She can hardly open her eyes, so i let her sleep as much as she requires.

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Its been 2 days, lolly is still in a very weak condition. She's not eating nor drinking. I am beginning to worry like mad. Tried to feed her food in small portion but she refused to. I am praying to GOD so my lil lolly will wake up healthy by tomorrow else i gotta send her again to the vet and get her dripped. :(


oh by the way, selamat hari raya peeps.. :(

stressful lolly

stressful lolly, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

its mating season. she's horny and being grumpy. She started making weird noises and it put me awake the whole night! I didn't know handling one horny pussy is harder than i thought. Then we decided to send her to the vet to get neutered.

jolly lil lolly

jolly lil lolly, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

close up of lolly.. my baby..
a very playful 10mth old kitty. she loves to curl around my leg and running around the house like a mad pussy!

My new man..

I gotta a gift from heaven. Yes, I'm talking about that cute lil kitty - Lolly. Lolly was one of the good thing that came into my life this month. And No, I am not blogging about her today. I am talking about the white box with a red circle on it. A "man" that stole my heart and been on my dream-list this year. A man..frotto. Whats the big deal? Some other people might be lucky enough to get things as they wish. But i have been procrastinating it after one sad stories to another. Sad broken tripod stories.. thats it. I guess its time to stop the episode.


So I went to J One and met Jason. He recommended me 488RC2 series with 360 rotation ballhead.
There goes my $640. Just for a tripod. Some might call it insane. But I know how much it worths.

galfriend moments

yes, i'm a sucker for japanese food. Mrs L and I decided to berbuka puasa at sakae sushi. A place used to be our catching-up spot. We just love the ambience. Mrs L and I had so much things to catch up. I'm glad i'm still able to hang out with her once in a while. Being a wife shouldn't stop one to see her girlfriends. It feels good. And it felt even better when the food arrived. It left us with a moment of silence.

I had the soft shell crab for starter (a must have!) and a bento for main dish (which i forgot to capture it. was too hungry at that time.). The mouth watering teriyaki oyster with garlic rice Mrs L had was a worth menu to try. Macchaa ice-cream (green tea) was a good closing. yyyyyyyyyuuuuuuuuuummmmyyyyy!!

behind the scene.

Its 2 months before the scheduled day of my exhibition. I've been sketching up ideas and concept for my series. Yes its going to be a series. But the subject will not be disclosed as for now. Brainstorming is what i have been doing. And preparing 10 masterpiece in less than 2 months is ain't easy. Been cracking up my head day and night and it even haunts me to sleep. But somehow the adrenaline rush is a good sign. I am excited and nervous at the same time. And what worries me now is i have not started shooting. The idea pours like rain, but to get the subject ready isn't my control. Only if i could make them come to me and my shutter will start working.

Today, another lady the last chosen ones was in The Sun - Juliet Lai. And it made us 4. (i wish i could call it the Fantastic 4.. but i guess i'd rather have a different name.. hahah. sounds very perasan!). Its going to be the very first exhibition for all of us. Everything is still new. Yet we already exhibit our stuffs online, but this is somehow different.

I will just go with the flow and be myself. I am not trying to impress anyone because what i am going to exhibit is something that portrays my interest, passion and niche. To convey a message in a piece of image is very personal to me, very individual and takes emotions and feelings to be involved around it.

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here's are basically what happened when 4 photographers are being shot. He (the photographer who is supposed to shoot us) end up mentioning "since all of you are photographers, why don't you guys shoot each other?" and i end up shooting juliet and majidah. Han shot me! My kebaya went up and i looked horrible squatting to get the right shot. (no i won't post the pic here)

Guess what?? its waaaay wayyy harder to keep the photographers still in front the glass. We were laughing, giggling and making weird pose.

my photo flew to france

I came back from the bank and saw something jolting out from my home mailbox. A big brown envelope with unfamiliar writing and unfamiliar stamp on it. A mail from france.





Yes, this photo i used to shoot sometime ago was featured in a french instrument magazine called "Rythmes & Sons". Forget about reading it because i don't understand a word. But what i understand is © Nur Fatini Zulnaidi printed by the picture. wink wink...

here's a link to my gong photo.

my love, my baby you.

Letting go the one you love is the hardest sacrifice among all. But it may be the best decision to make. It hurts when you are embraced with the memory lane. A year full of good/sad/adventure/ moments together makes me realized how much he has done to me. I will always love you, I will always remember you. If situation permits, we are definitely gonna see each other again... my heart, my soul.. 18-200 VR.

... any takers out there? i'm leaving him for a 17-55 f2.8. Email me for details! hurry. serious buyer only!

The Sun shines on me

The Sun And Me, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I think i have a reason to feel good this morning. The Sun shines on me today.
Doing what i love the most. And I am finally free from any strings. I am free. Even though it sucks every juice out. But i appreciate and treasure this blood and sweat.

I chose to shut my ears, close one eye and pursue what i love. Doing it for fun is so much different from doing it for money. But the buck you earn out of doing what you love its priceless. Not much to make you rich, but the experience and satisfaction is indescribable.

I put my heart and soul into it. And beginning to love it each day...

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click here for the sun online (the url valids today only). Or you can download large size by clicking here.

the musician.

tribute to a friend. a very talented artist + musician.

ekaputra prasetya abdul jabar. (sorry i blew it)

vintage volvo

persetankan late submission for theme "50".

shot taken at client's resident in serendah.

sahur bloggy - day 4

I installed Adobe Lightroom yesterday. Been wanting this software for some time. Loading and editing photos in bulk of multiple clients is such a pain in the *** if you don't use the correct workflow. And my butt was in pain downloading, sitting for hours loading files. Not forgetting, flooding my mac with redundant copies. Hardisk becomes overloaded due to cross applications usage. I'm not going techies here, but i think lightroom has the features i'm looking for. It makes my life easier and handling files is faster compared to my traditional workflow.

Lightroom brightens my world! It makes me awake since sahur!

read more about the software here.

client.bestfriend.sister.

thank you for the opportunity to capture your big day.
you are a sister, friend and also a client!

"semoga berbahagia ke anak cicit!"

view photos here