Whacky Bunch of KL Flickrites

Whacky Bunch of KL Flickrites, originally uploaded by Asrul Hazimin.

here fishy fishy!! damn i look horrible in this. who doesn't? it was funny, we had fun.. so what?? and asrul, don't mind me curi this photo to blog? you did a cool whacky job!

a tribute.. to furbol.

once upon a time about a year ago, Ms L found a kitten. She was lost and helpless. Ms L decided to bring her home and gave her food and shelter. Ms L is such a cat lover. I've never seen anyone except for (jamil-the cat lover) who loves cat more than she does (yeah, she used to have more than 10 cats some time ago). She named the kitten.. "furbol".

As time goes Ms L and furbol became good friends. She'll be there when Ms L comes home, she will accompany Ms L and went for a bus trip to Johor to Ms L's hometown. Don't ask how, but furbol was such a behaved feline. She will sit on Ms L's lap for a 5 hr journey without making a fuss. (and.. yeah she holds her pee and poop until they reach the destination).

After about a year, furbol gets bigger and realised that she somehow owns the freedom. So, the lil freedom she needs was actually permitted by Ms L. One day, Ms L went out with her fiance for dinner and came home a little late. She realised something happened to her beloved friend, furbol when she came back. There was blood on furbol's leg and she walks weirdly. Ms L gave me a call and asked me whether there's any vet that still opens at that hour. I called my niece who also owns a cat and according her, vets in Uptown closes a lil late. The chance was quite thin, we had a backup plan and one of furbol's regular doctor returned Ms L's call and generously willing to treat furbol's condition. Looks like furbol was hit by a car and it hit right on her pelvic area. The doctor said if furbol pees normally the next day she will be ok.

The doctor gave her painkillers and insisted furbol to be caged so she could rest. Being an active cat she hates to be locked in a room. Ms L thought within a couple of days furbol will be back running and jumping.

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After a few days, though Furbol's leg wasnt recovered completely, she was already up and about. But on the 8th night after the accident, furbol's gotten weak. She didn't want to eat and she lied down in the toilet on the wet floor. (thats kinda weird because cats normally love warmer area, as i always see them underneath cars). So, we detected that furbol was internally heated and she might be dehydrated. So, last night Ms L called me and she was at the same vet. Deep down inside i knew that furbol could not hold that long but i did not want to say that to Ms L. Ms L still had faith on furbol. When Ms L looked at her eyes, and furbol looked back at her without a focus on her eyes. She lost the eye focus, she was dreamy (maybe a part of her soul was already somewhere else). The doctor decided to bring furbol to his place and dripped her. It was midnight and Ms L went home with anxiety. She felt so lonely without furbol even for a short while. Ms L still did not think about losing furbol as her hope was too high for furbol's survival.

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Monday, 6.45am. My cellphone rang that woke me up from my dreamland. Ms L called me with tears. I knew something's not right somewhere even before i heard Ms L was sobbing. (she won't wake up this early. And if she does, she won't call me this early). In the wee hour of the morning about 4.40am, Ms L received an sms from the doctor... furbol didn't make it. I was speechless but tried to calm her down. Furbol's body will be collected from the vet today at 11am after the doctor cut her body to diagnose the cause. She broke down in tears and it was actually worse than when she broke up with one of her ex sometime ago. Furbol's always been the reason for Ms L to come home (as Ms L is not staying with her family here..).. and knowing there's no sweet furry reason anymore.. that just make her sad. I am sorry for the lost, sister. I hope furbol may rest in piece among the other charming cats on the other side of the world. And to Ms L, you've been a loving and a responsible guardian to this beloved lil furbol and you've done everything you could to save her..

A tribute to furbol..

saturday madness.

I decided to do something fun yesterday. I thought i need to get a lil "exposure". So socializing that was. No, i didn't go clubbing. No i didn't shake my bootie on the podium. Nah.. nah i didn't attend any orgy party and get boozed.

This is more positive than that..and i had a great time! met bunch of new people that speaks the same language, share the same views but with each own's way and shooting someone's nostril is not a sin and kicking someone's butt is not asking for a punch back on a face!

here i was..

take it izzi, people!

tadaaa! we are the flickr cup cakes!

mr and ms crumpler

asrul was spreading the fisheye disease. toldcha about aiming kazz's nostrils!

anna, me and riz had a tounge disease.

the spring rolls were nice! but i thought buffet supposed to be "EAT ALL YOU CAN"

me and eka making nasty faces! but guess i was nastier and kinkier..

okay johan, i won't reveal who's butt was getting kicked!

magnus with his BIG evil laugh!!


someone thought marshmallow was a guy! but none of these guys are one! naah.. guys, good try.

you guys rawk! and kudos to group admins and those who made it a success! looking forward to the next one.

Don't leave me, saturday!

Saturday is supposed to be THE most awaited day (oh well for those who works 5 days a week!). And i have THE most solid reason to sleep in lil bit more. So its a payday for me (pay my lacked rest) I can say, i sleep only 3 hrs every night in average. And i know it is not healthy and i do feel the impact every now and then. And its not pretty to see eyebags and dark circles.. breakouts and stuffs due to lack of sleep. I have been procastinating my exercise these days. Every week i make a vow to do something during the weekend but yet when it comes to saturday, i will do the same thing and let the next saturday be the exercise day. It feels pretty to stay healthy. But it takes a lot of discipline and self awareness to do so. I love myself when i used to treat swimming as my routine workout every saturday. I hope i still remember how to float. ahaha..

It was 9.30 am, i was rolling myself in a blanket.. and let myself pampered and kill the guilt for a bit. But as the clock ticked to 10am i realized my body could not sleep any longer. It was bright and i shouldn't waste my time in bed all day. It'll make me sore and slows down my brain cells. So i decided to wake up and a serious house chores is just what needed. I remembered bringing home a pile of documentations from work last nite to be entertained. "Entertained"? ahahaha.. (trying to make it more interesting). But it should be done later.. I need to give a good impression to mom.. or atleast make her feel i'm here at home and ease her stress. Nothing much i could do but atleast make the house look pleasant and comfortable to be in. And mom didn't look quite healthy today. Maybe she feels far-hearted for me being home late every night. Maybe she feels that i don't spend much time with her these few days. Well, its not what i am happy to do. I do stay at home but as a matter of fact, being locked up in my room in front of my mac does not considered as staying at home to mom.

So it goes my saturday morning. A morning inwhich i'm supposed to relax has become a morning of chores. Well, i don't complain.. instead feels quite productive! I hope i'm not too tired to proceed with my work later. Ouh my body sores.. my neck and my back stiff again. I seriously need to get a new bed and a nice pillow... and a complete routine of calcium. I guess i should go out to groceries and stock my refrigerator with fresh milk. I think i should do it now. ( oh am i finding excuses to sneak out and forget about my works for a while???)

These are the painting i bought in bali. thought of hanging them as my center piece.. but until i get a new bed i'll just put em on the floor. Well, when it comes to art, there's no rule how and where you wanna put it.

hope your saturday is better than mine. cheerio people!

if it makes you happy..

if it makes you happy.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

another "when emotion speaks" project. A self expression and mind blogging flavor of the week.

when you feel 247 is not enough..

so much things to do so lil time.. :( for the first time in many many rare ocassion i wished there's 10 days in a week! don't ask why but i have been penetrated with jobs, opportunities, commitments, attentions and people from 360. Sounds like a positive thing but that is super tiring when i am lacked of sleep and rest. And the worst part is i don't know how to manage that. Yeah, its true i should take one day at a time. But what if in ONE day you try so hard to do atleast one thing right but you end up doing nothing. So it does not make me a hero of the day.. instead zero accomplishment. And its best described in malay proverb.."Yang dikejar tak dapat yang dikendong tercicir plak tepi highway.." and that frustrates me anyway!

I need to work harder.. yeah i am positively sure i can do something out of my shutter clicking and earn some extra cash. I have received quite a number of requests for photography related stuffs. Its the matter of willing to take it or not. And that "willing" is very much depending on whether i have anough time to do it or not. All this while i have been turning off so much opportunities due to my current situation. Being tied up in some other commitment and you keep losing new things and opportunities. Quitting a job is not a wise solution. Unless i'm born in a tycoon family where i could open a business just to kill my time. ahahahha... but is that what i want to do? NO. even if i'm born as one!

My boss came to me and we had a conversation whether i am comfortable with the project. Maybe i am not being productive enough these days. YES. Not productive that is. I wished i could be the way i used to. Maybe i am just tired of proving and giving enough impressions. The unworthy feeling disturbed me and dragged it all down. The question now is whether i WANT to do it.. the boss is right somehow. I need to do something before my reputation 's scratched. Can't i be good at 2 things at a time? I am trying hard to juggle various things carefully to keep everything's on air. Work and career is something crucial in everyone's lfe especially when you are reaching this age. But another side that needs attention as much as you could ever balance. Personal, family and relationship.

Sometimes i am tired of becoming a subsets of everything that surrounds me. Can't i be 100% myself and worry not of other entities? But having not to disclose anything or everything and being careful enough with every single steps i take is so damn tiring. (don't understand? well don't have to. Boleh bikin pusing dong!). Well as long long as i know i'm not h y p o c r i t e, i can live with it.. People will keep talking and judging behind your back or right into your face, but i will just smile and whisper to myself.. "... i know what i'm doing.. and shut the kcuf up!" Listening to jazz is what i am doing now.. religiously! and that soothes my ear and calm my heartbit down.

I realized that when you want something so badly, you need to struggle shit your ass off of it. Things don't come easy. My blood, my sweat, my tears and my agony are for something thats worth striving for. I hope i don't fall and and bleed too much in chasing my dreams.

happy color

happy color, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

let the color of emotion outshines,
i shall scream my lungs out and feel free,
i shall put my bare feet on the ground and let it swing by the rythm,
i shall smile from the heart again,
and color the world with my laughter,
thats when the rainbow starts to unhide its beauty from a stormy rain,
and the birds will start chirping and sing without fear,

i shall color my monotonous life with happiness,
..and make the world a better place to be..

omong kosong.

Health has not been on my side for the past few weeks. From a slight fever, to a bad cough that caused me sleepless nights. From the eye infection to stiff neck that made me walk like artoo detoo in star wars for few days. I guess the year of pig has not been a good year for most. I'm not the only one. Bunch of people from the office, friends and relatives have been complaining about their bad state of health. I guess the world is too tired with people like us.

Realize it or not, the calendar is moving towards the 3rd month of the year.. and i don't see much progress nor self development which i can be proud of. Lazy is the best word to describe my year of pig. My motivation at work has dropped tremendously this year. It sometimes makes me realise that IT is not where my heart want to be. I've been thinking a lot about doing my own artsy stuffs.. i don't imagine something BIG at the moment, but enough for me to do my errants every month, pay my car, credit card and loans, gas for me to move about.. i'll be content at the moment and the most important thing i can pursue my passion without guilt. My brain will freeze for any other thing than artsy fartsy stuffs. Now I realised that this is what i'm good at and this is what i should pursue back then. But i am not regretting the path i chose. What would we human do without the knowledge of IT?? So, I am now concentrating on my dream which I can put as "A Beemer running on a Kancil engine." very slow moving.. dream big with less effort. not good. And i need a push factor to force me in a good way to pursue what i want to do.

I have not been talking my heart out in text form for sometime. Blogging about things that does not make any sense to other people (sometimes it doesn't even making any sense to me!). Whereelse, I've been uploading lotsa those in photos and imagery form. That'd be one source of expressing my feelings too! But i do miss blogging about simple stuffs like "a guy with boxers vs briefs" or "my zits" or "the t-shirt that betrayed me", or "the cute guy i met in the train", the list goes on..

Now i am going to talk about simple thing. My life has already been burdened with complicated things so why not make this tiny lil story sound big and important. I broke my bed today. (Oh come on, its not what you think it was) but the bed seriously need a fix. I don't think mr calcium could fix my backbone if i still sleep on my broken bed. So, in a mean time, i'd rather put my mattress on the floor and make sure my backbone is on a straight posture every night. It does feel way way more comfortable than i thought! (no wonder the japanese practise it!). And yes, the very same broken bed caused me 2 days of mc due to stiff neck. Its too painful to even talk about it.

14 February, so called a V day. I don't quite celebrate it.. but anyway friends... thanks for the toughtful wishes.. roses and dinner. I don't know what would i do without my friends.. And to some friends who are still single like me.. put your worries behind.. its not that bad anyway! There's still so much love to give and receive. Make love not war.. (erm.. not make love simply to anyone!)

Ouh my blog entry this time does not have any theme or specific issue to talk about. This is what happened when i compress rojak pasembor, a steak, dim sum and tandoori into one big bowl! I hate it when i lost my rythm to express things. But i'll be back on track. I think this year is going to be the year of discovering my inner capabilities and share my creativity. It sounds small but it does give a Big impact to me.

the world needs someone like me.. and someone like you! and that makes the world go round. cheerio people!

Persetankan Post#2- Usang

My 2nd post to Persetankan with topic "Usang".
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ish! BABI betul!!!

when i was in bali.. babi seems to be quite famous everywhere..
not only for the food, but a salon? definitely makes me think twice to enter.
just sharing this rare scene..something we don't see everyday in malaysia.


wow.. babi sounds very special at this restaurant.


need a haircut anyone?


this shot i managed to shoot from the car on our way to ubud.

pabila bedok berbunyi..

pabila bedok berbunyi.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

we were driving around KL and within split seconds i took out my camera and shot this from the car. Eka was driving and me being a co driver i get more chance during the slow traffic. The sky was indeed beautiful that day.. The moment i shot this it was not even azan yet, but the moment i load this pic the azan suddenly aired at my neighborhood. ironic..

Persetankan Post - Usang

Its been a while since i submitted any of my photos
to Persetankan.
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heartless soul.

heartless soul., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

sometimes i wonder if the shadow has soul,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow has feelings,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow could think,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow could speak,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow could see,
what happens if the shadow decided to leave me?

-when emotion speaks..

A "vel" day out!

I woke up as early as 4am for this event. I've always wanted to attend such event thats been awaited not only the Hindus, but as well as the tourists and photojournalists around the world.

It was definitely a new experience to witness the procession of vel kavadi along the route.

I felt nervous, eerie and fascinated with the scene. But with total respect towards culture, i managed to face my fear and be apart of the crowd and took some shots of the festive scenes.

The devotee must have super massive strength to bear such pain.
But once he entered a trance, no pain, no blood and no scars will be left behind.

Besides constant praying, fasting, the devotees also sleeping on floors and
abstaining from any entertainment towards the journey of the their sacred festive season.

Even the child shave their heads to undertake their pilgrimage
with their parents along the route while performing the vel kavadi.
I managed to capture this shot of a baby's head being shaven off while passing by the route.
Kids just don't fancy a haircut!

The lady devotee was very much into her sacred moment while carrying a pot of milk on her head.
Regardless the noise, the massive crowd and flashes of photograper around her,
she was still in her own world of procession that brought her into trance.

click here for larger versions, and here to wiki more on thaipusam.

floral parade putrajaya

putrajaya mosque, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I went to a floral parade which was held in putrajaya last saturday. Woke up as early as 6am! It better be good! It was a good weather. The sky is so blue but i know it would be a hot sunny day later in the noon.

Parked the car a bit far from the parade. The morning walk was good.. the sky and the lake look so calm and blue. I took a few shots of putrajaya.. The parade started at about 8am but the people was already flooding the area. We missed a good spot. It was quite frustrating that i don't get a good view of the floral cars..

It gets hotter and hotter and we were tired, frustrated and dehydrated. Decided to leave early before everyone starts leaving. Here are some shots i managed to shoot.

when i was in ubud.

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when we were in bali

i was in bali for 4 days. Definitely not sufficient to get to know the whole bali.
Bali is too awesome not to visit. A friend once said to us, "you will visit bali atleast twice in your lifetime". At that time i thought he was over exagerating it. But being there for less than a week, i already planned for my 2nd visit. Bali is full of heritage, culture, arts and history.

We managed to spend 2 nights in kuta and one night in ubud. One of the must go place that
we missed was Tanah Lot which is remarkable for its beautiful view of sunset. It was quite a big dissapointment for someone who loves the sunset. The weather was not so good to capture the sunset as it was cloudy for few days. So, we had solid reason to proceed with our plan B.

I had so much fun in Ubud with my best friend. We didn't plan/book the hotel ahead. Just redah and we managed to get a nice place to stay nearby Monkey Forest for Rp.50,000 (approx.RM20!!) We saved on the accomodation and decided to rent a sepeda motor (scooter) for Rp60,000/day with full gas. I've never been riding for more than 1km all my life so this is going to be an adventurous joy ride for me! Yeah it was too adventurous to tell.. from riding under heavy rain.. to a minor accident which is too funny to disclose.. i would never trade the experience we had with anything else!

i have more to write but yet so lil time to blog out.. more of bali photos will be uploaded soon! stay tuned!

my magik date.

I am tired.. but i do feel like blogging something short, simple and sweet because today is my BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!! yayyyy!!! but geez, how fast time flies and i'm already 29! But i am proud of the number!! I am matured, hip, happening and still don't look like my age! (ahahahhha... come on! gimme a chance to brag today! you can puke later!) I want to feel good, need to feel good and i AM feeling good today!

Nothing much on the list, just a better prospect in my career, earn more and be a renowned photographer! (ahahhaha..dream on girl!) but one thing for sure, whatever fate GOD has written in my book, i just want to die as a happy/content woman!

On a contrary, as per my earlier blog, yeah i just got back from Bali.. a great holiday i just needed at the spot on time! Stay tuned on my bali travellogue soon...

1428 Gifts.

Oh.. it was one hell of a day.. I was feeling grumpy for tiny reasons early today.. i was tired, hungry and pissed!

1) It is HARD to get a taxi when you need one! the cab customer service sucks BIG time!

2) the train was not too pack but not many seats left. I was squeezed in a middle of two Plus sized passengers. I had to stand up to dig my hp in my pocket. I hope i didn't offend. No sarcasm intended. I feel like a small ham sandwiched in between fat bread!

3) the one who stand nearby me had a friggin stinky breath! I was grasping for a fresh oxygen each time he yawns! gosh!!!! GOD knows how i can't bear with stinky people. There's ranges of self hygiene product such as listerine and deodorants! Be considerate..

I guess i was just stressed out with work. Unsettled things makes me stress! But regardless these tiny lil matters, i have Solid reason to smile now...tonight.. tomorrow...

1) I just got my own wheels today. Yeay!!!! Finally i accomplished my 2006 resolution. Something which is just cute for me. Not a big fancy car.. but enough to give me the mobility i've needed badly. I drove my neighbor to dinner with the plastic still covered! sorry about that! ahaha...

2) I am leaving to Bali tomorrow. Double yeay!!!! The holiday i've always wanted! And this was supposed to be my 2006 escapade too!

I would consider these as a birthday present i got myself. I earned it, i got it! priceless. I know i am going to have fun in Bali.. will be right back with bali blogs soon!

Happy New Year people!- 1428 Hijrah!

work in progress.

spidey, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Please do not disturb. I am surfing the web.

Internet has been taking massive amount of my time, my sweat, my posture and my attention these days. I have so much things in mind that involves my eyes and focus dedicated to the screen. I hope i won't be wearing glasses or putting anything strange on my cornea in any near future. I love my eyes because it's my most valuable asset. I love my backbone because it allows me to do things i love doing.

So i guess i gotta treat them well, and not to be too hard on them.

-pic spidey in action was shot during my weekend outing to sungai congkak. more photos can be viewed here.