on top of the world.

I've got a new toy.. and i'm falling in love with it.. Going to crumpler tomorrow.. see whether i can afford it tomorrow.

stalk my stocks!

It is my 1st month of being apart of shutterstock.
And these are my first 2 downloads for 2 days.. :)
looking forward for more!
check out my galleries here.

Nnnaaaakkk jugakk!!

The next thing on my list.. I want! I want!
Whats so special about this bag?

more at crumpler.

Tough decision. Yes. Again.

Life is full with decisions. I was struck with something that needs me to put on my thinking cap. And it better be the wise one. Sometimes letting go is the best solution in order to give way for a better one to come. It may not be the best but atleast it is better that being in regret for the things I didn't do. And this particular decision i made yesterday is one of the many tough decisions i had to make this year. I am sad but yet looking forward to see whats next. Better ? I hope.

ramadhan itu indah.

r a m a d h a n tahun ni membawa seribu erti dalam hidup aku. Tapi aku percaya setiap keburukan itu ada kecantikan. Ia menjadikan aku lebih tabah, matang dan kuat untuk mengharungi segala keperitan hidup.

i see red, yellow green.

snapshot of mom's sepit udang. Stayed home the whole day, and watching mom's plants grow is a food for the soul. (and of course since i'm fasting again today) But don't ask me to plant flowers because i just don't have the "hand of the gardener". I hate to encounter the uninvited creatures when i start messing with soil. So, mom's the best person to do it.

Snapshot was captured wih macro lense using spot metering. I couldn't remember the exif..

The Bitter Truth.

What if out of your jolly mood, you accidentally came across a shocking news that could make you grasp for breath. Something that chocked your throat that makes you really angry, mad and want to go berserk! On the other side, you can't react on your beserkness due to external parties that related to the matter. And again you have to put on your happy mask (amir, i pinjam your happy mask for a mo; hope you don't mind) to protect the feelings of your loved ones, or your career or your future. The next day, when you face the person who cheated or hiding that bitter truth on you, you have to act like nothing happens to preserve the harmonious environment, again to protect the one you love. And this voice only screams in my heart and no one could listen to it no matter how hard i scream. Sometimes, confrontation is not the best solution. But does keeping things to yourself is good anyway? I hate to keep this vengeance. The grudges that lead to a great hatred. And this hatred could change myself into a very defensive person. I'm beginning to have this thick wall around myself and trust is the longest journey to reach from this great wall of myself.

... What would I do?? what would I DO???

The hectic week.

Finally! Finally! I finished my 1 week training. It is tiring to commute with that heavy big file everyday to KL. Don't mind about the physical tiresome.. but reading, attending lectures are mentally tiresome for someone who left uni life for years. Tuning back to student life is not that easy. Another 4 modules make me a certified SAP BWer. Ahahah.. dream high... where do i get another 25k?? Don't expect the co will pay for my other 4 modules.

I feel so good its finally friday.. its time to plan whats for the weekend. But i might have an assignemnt tomorrow.. will see. Or i might end up resting my back at home the whole day. Ahh... its a week before ramadhan comes and come to think of it.. i have another 4 days to pay my puasa back. Ya Allah, apa nak jadi ngan aku ni? So, i guess it left me with another fasting day tomorrow. And it gives me a strong reason to stay home. Mind and body need rest. So does my digestion system. Lets count the sheep now.. 1001.. 1002.. 1003... 100zzzzz....

a night of victory!!

I was tired, drained out, having backache and have not bowled for too long. I couldn't remember when was the last time i had my middle finger into that tight hole. (ahahah.. long enough). But sometimes its all about luck. I didn't go home empty handed. 2nd runner-up? Not bad for someonewho can't even balance herself on a bicycle.. i'm gonna have to give extra kudos to myself!! sorry, i feel like showing off this trophy. yippie!!! huarghh..this match stick can't bear this heavy eye-lids anymore.. i'm gonna head to bed with my trophy now.. nite nite people... :)

before i hit the sack.

I had a training somewhere in KL today. And it goes on till friday. Have to admit it was a drained-brain session as i tried so hard to catch my trainers accent. He's an Indian bloke from India. Nice guy. Good presenter. And not forgetting with a bunch of Arabian trainees that sum up the class to approximately 12 people. But it feels like a 30-student class! The accent is one thing and there's something about them that i couldn't tolerate. Maybe the way they speak is too loud. I'm not too fancy with loud-speakers. Anyway, it was no biggy to me. Atleast they managed to wake me up a couple times from being stranded in my own dream. But now.. at this very moment.. the moment i'm typing this blog, i caught myself stumbled a few times from this great lethargy. Maybe i'm just too tired. Maybe i need to sleep now... zzzZZZzzZZZZz

A dedication to a friend

Life is full with unexpected things. I always hated surprises. I was not a risk-taker. Not a big fan of it. To agree or not, life is about risks. And experience has taught me why we need to play with risks. And life has taught me that we can't run away from doing things we hated to do. And it also taught me that not everything in this world would come my way. Don't expect an icing on a cake most of the time. Don't expect people will nod at your arguments most of the time, don't expect the sky to be bright and blue everyday.

Friend, i'm not here to tell you whether what you do is right or wrong. Neither am here to say why you should do this to that.. I make mistakes myself.. but don't let insanity takes control. Thats foolish. Friend.. it's ok to make mistakes. Sometimes mistakes are destined to be made. And as for human whose always on denial, have to remind ourselves that shit happens for a reason. Today you or me might cry, but who knows we will smile tomorrow.

Friend, if it happens to be a mistake.. IT'S OKAY. Give yourself a credit, be proud of yourself for the courage you put. Sorry if i was not being of help enough. I am not that strong myself now.


-THE END-



currently listening to : "yesterday" - the beatles
current mood : mellow

Linda & Johan Reception

Linda & Johan Reception

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island fever

Malas nak update blog.. went through old photos.
Found this.. a shot i took in Perhentian Kecil a year ago (or maybe 2 years ago).
Sent it to Persetankan for its latest topic "bebas".
I don't know whether it fits the topic..

ouh, this makes my feet itchy to feel the sand and run barefooted under the sunny sky.
Lisa, packup your stuffs and we're leaving....

L I A R

O my GOD, I feel so sick tonite. Sometimes life is u n f a i r. GOD give me the strength.

A leap ahead.

"it feels like a drop of dew on a young green leaf"
(Exif : 1/160-f3.5-S priority-35mm macro lense-spot metering-iso400)

My life involves a lot of decision makings lately. No this is not another love episode of blogging. But an episode that might involve a career change or additional to my career milestone. It feels so good when everything is going your way, It feels damn great to work on something you'd love to do. The satisfaction you gained is paid of after each sweat and effort you put on. Guess i have to roll up my sleeve higher now. Life is beautiful only if you perceive it that way. Opportunity is everywhere if you run for it and grab 'em. I don't care what talk other people might give. This negative perceptions can kill the motivations. Its like shooting a baby bird that just learned how to spread its wings and fly. How cruel is that? Its the reality of life. These people have nothing better things to say or do than seeing you fall and start scrutinizing your life. Human nature. I don't blame them anyway. I did that sometimes. Not anymore, but used to. No one is perfect. But now its time to shut my ears and pay attention on what my heart says. I don't give a shit anymore.

2006 brings a lot of change to my life. I start to ask myself. What drives me? I'm no longer a chick who carries cosmetic and clothes paperbags and shop for shoes and clothes everymonth. (It's not that i don't care about how i look now.. deep down inside i still love to groom..) but there are other things that deserve more attention. When age is adden up each year, that means more commitments, responsibility and sacrifices you have to consider.

Yes, I have started something now. And at the same time I still work at the same company. Life is tough, I never say it was a piece of cake. To get things started i have to consider and bump into so many hurdles and obstacles. Family, friends and major limitation - money! My family thought i have such an expensive hobby and think I'm just wasting my money all this while. But its not that i dumped the money into the drain. I have plans and dreams that can't stop thinking of; the moment i wake up every morning.. till the time shut my lids during bedtime. It doesn't do me any good until i give it a go. So, one day the small voice in my heart started to scream and other stopping factors started to dim. Who says i was brave enough? I am not a daredevil.. I have to admit I was scared to shit and I was weak but these mix feelings feel so great. It burns my spirit. I'm not comparing myself with others and i have no intention to challenge and compete with anyone, but the only person i dare is myself.

This undivided attention takes away the leisure time i used to enjoy. I have not been lazying around being a ms.couch-potato for a long time. (Erm, atleast I know Siti's getting married today but I don't give a damn how many horses will be escorting her. LOL.) Friends, friends and friends.. I don't have many close friends but i have quite a number that i can call buddies. To my close friends, you know who you are.. I'd like to apologize to you guys if you think i'm neglecting all of you. Deep in my heart, I'm not and you are still the pillars that hold me up still.

My left hand is being very itchy this month. Money flows like water. August is the month spending. Some called me a spendthrift but these are the things that was on my 2006 wishlist. I did not put high expectation on accomplishing all at one go. But Alhamdulillah things are going pretty good. If you wonder whats this time.. I'm partially MAC and partially PC now. My sis got her Vios last saturday and I got my dream Mac.. I know its not a fair comparison. But the price of these hobbies can be traded with a down payment of a car. (thats what my sis always say. Ahahahha) Well, human are just different with preferences and characteristics. Surprisingly, I don't have even a pinch of envy towards her. Next budget Insyaallah will be a wheel. GOD knows when!??? Ayoyo.. Datuk K, why don't you pick me?? ahahahah...

What else to blog.. I have thousands in mind. This happens when you keep everything into a small can. What do you get? a rojak of stories in one blog. By the way, besides goal, dreams and career.. I am now partially metaled. Heheheh.. hell no i have not affiliated myself to any black metal associations (NEVER will).. I am now the lady in an iron teeth. (another item in my wishlist.) I hate to look myself at the mirror now and i hate to smile as the first thing you will see is this bracket of metals covering my smile. I keep telling myself that this is not permanent.. only 2 years of suffer of being another Malaysian Top Nerdy and the suffer of controlling my lusty appetite to eat. Diets changed, eating habits changed and other limitations that involved mouth. What can it possibly be? (ahahha..don't even think about it!)

Oh.. it feels good to blog again. I'm running for lunch now. Will be back with my 2nd assignment posting.. Sekapur Sirih, Sekacip Pinang with Linda and Johan soon.. stay tuned..

My 1st project

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someone i miss..

Happy Birthday Traci! I miss you girl... I have nothing to give you for your birthday.. but something to make u smile.... Still remember our crazy photo session? Don't worry i will not post the bloopers ones here. But those pics never failed to make me smile. And this long sandwich Nick had at Flamin J? I bet he won't forget it! I can still remember his face struuggling to finish it up within an hour.. He must be outa his mind?? I just want you to know even how far you are to me but you're always near to my heart.. happy birthday again sista!!!

Yong & Rizal Solemnization

Yong Rafida & Rizal solemnization was successfully held. As this was my first bridal assignment, the nerves i had was nothing less than the bridal itself...

It was one tiring day but it was worth doing. I'd like to thank Yong for giving me an opportunity and trust to capture an important milestone of your life..

I am proud and touched to see the strength of the family ties, the spirit of the neighborhood hand in hand to make the event a success. Nothing more joyful than a pure malay wedding culture with the noise of makciks jokes and laughter, cucu and grandpas teasing each other.. the smell of kawah cookings done in a most humble occasion.

presenting a kampung spirit in an urban area... have a sneak peep here.
More pics will be uploaded soon.

the best regret..

A visit to mid valley led me into something. I was accompanying a friend to a camera shop for an external flash for her camera. But it turned out into something that i couldn't pull back. And this is the most pleasant regret i've ever indulge myself to. Don't understand? Yes, regret for spending some massive amount of bucks on something that i've always wanted to have but been restricting myself from having one for the time being (as i have some other priority things to be entertain first!). But this regret pays back as tested it during my very first assignement on bridal photography and i don't want to return it back if i have the chance to do that. Presenting my 2 new toys.. my 35mm macro lense and my new 40-150 telephoto (i know its not that WOW! for a profesional photographer.. but one step at a time would be the best method right?) isn't it gorgeous? i hope its not a sin to have it now.. so macbook shall be put aside for the time being. Did i mention about my first assignment? yeah.. i'll blog about it later.. but for now forgive me for showing off my new toy.. *wink*wink*

Powerman Series - Putrajaya (30th July 2006)

Last Sunday.. i had to be at Putrajaya as early as 7am to be apart of the event. No, i don't run and bike. But i was there to photograph the hunky beefcake duatheletes marking their best time for this duathlon series 2006. I shan't say more.. enjoy the pics. ( I should've uploaded this earlier but time is always jealous of moi).

it was a super cool wheather

the main sponsor..

stretch.. stretch.. haiyak..

look who's posing..

3..2...1... (crickets sound) eh.. where have they gone?

aiyoo uncle... looking sex-say..

panning... (jadi tak?)
powerbar anyone?

its getting hotter and this is what we need.

awe'..still smiling..
dino in action.. before the incident.

but ryan managed to lead and mark his time first.

the pose of victory. wanna do it again mr. mendoza?

i'm not sure what his name is.. paul.. ?

our hero, awe.

ah thiam.. *cough*cough* (i know....)

me & ah thiam (i din't know he's TALLLLLL)

i wish!