me and the chocolate brownie.

OH NOO!! I"M STUCK WITH THE WALNUT CHOCOLATE BROWNIE AGAIN. NOT ANOTHER BOX FOR ME!! I FINISHED 1 WHOLE BOX YESTERDAY AND NO MORE CHOCOLATE BROWNIES FOR ME. MOMMY SAYS NO!!! I'M NOT GOING TO EAT THIS! OUH! NYUM! NYUM!


I am currently : eating chocolate brownies.period.

Don't let him stop me.

i was looking at the brochure my colleague emailed me. Yes, we are planning for Taman Negara. We had a plain talk on our way back from penang and the without even realising it the conversation became a detailed itenerary plan. Guess it works that way, when you plan things too much it will not likely to happen. But don't be surprised a casual meeting over teh tarik at mamak stall can turn into a million dollar business proposal. And this is no juta-juta business proposal, just a girls' week-out-in-a-jungle plan (unless Josh Hartnett wants to tag along!). It's supposed to be my trip last year. But due to "certain" circumstances which i don't think i want to mention here, it didn't happen. But it is always going to be in my travelling journal list besides to climb Mt Kinabalu. Something that i know i have to do before i die. Unless Josh Hartnett doesn't want me to. eheheh! Everytime i encounter friends or people who's just got back from these 2 places i'll be cursing to myself.. damn! why i have not been there?? So, here i am.. it is going to happen now. The right time will never be the right time unless you push for it, and you will never find the right people unless you search for them. (Josh, you are free to tag along.. expenses on me!)

The package looks good but we're also eyeing for other deals as well. Then i remembered a "friend" who is also into this business. Shall i ask for his favor? Will it be a wise decision? So I decided to see him, brought a cup of chocolate brownie as a "pengeras."

The first few minutes of conversation went so smooth. He was talking and explaining about activities and stuffs and i was so into the conversation until 15 minutes passed. That strictly-friends look and that gestures of his suddenly changed and it made me realised this was a mistake and i shall just proceed with the brochure i read before. I know that look, i can still remember that warm gestures. And I'm not paying for something i might regret indulging to. I guess friends should remain friends.. and memories should remain in the grave. Guess the brownie really acted as a "pengeras" to him. God knows what we've gone through, it's for me to know and for him to find out..

.. back to my office and went through the brochure details again.. stay focus!period.


current mood: full of regrets.
currently listening to : 'mungkin' by anuar zain

Desperate Housewives vs Sex and The City.

How tempting this walnut chocolate brownie may look to you? imagine i ate almost 10 slices of it while watching Desperate Housewives without even realizing it! Okay, stop making me feel guilty about it. i don't know how it happened. But anyway, its either the brownies were too damn good i didn't realize i ate them or the movie was so engrossing that i didn't even think about anything else. i don't wanna know. Apart of having few (lets just put it few) slices of brownies, i don't think i enjoy this 2nd season of Desperate Housewives as much as i enjoyed the 1st season. Its getting really slow and predictable. And i freakin hate George. He irritates me with his unpleasant squared jaw-freeky-but-trying-to-act-innocent look! And i hate the fact that the cunning-perfectionist bree van de kamp finally falled and fooled by him! the proverb always say, don't be deceived by looks. or.. "jangan disangka air yang tenang tiada buaya".

I know i can watch Desperate Housewives and finish the series anytime. Because i bought the complete 2nd season in indonesia, but the urge is not there. The dvd is still safely stored in the rack under my bed. Maybe i don't want to break the thrill of watching the series on TV. (ahh its ridiculous. couldn't be! I know few of my friends downloaded from Limewire and impatiently watched it up to the final episode! You know who you are :))


Ouh.. maybe i'm just turned off by the Sex and The City dvd complete season i bought. Its not because i don't like the series. I am a die hard fan of it! i fancy Carrie Bradshaw and her fetish for shoes and labels. She can never go wrong with green skirt and shocking red top! No doubt about that! But alas, the dvds i bought are not up to dts 9 or even close to dvd standard! A dvd should be crystal clear, crisp sound and detailed subtitle (it should even emphasizes on sigh or erm.. moan sound). But how can an original copy spelled Charlotte York as "Salad Yog", i need to get laid as "i need to get late", penis as "peanut".. and Elizabeth Taylor as "Lesbian Teller"??!!!! what a total blooper!! Regardless the spelling mistakes.. i still opt for "Sex and The City" over "Desperate Housewives". Whats your pick?


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current mood : i'm a bloated lady who balun 10 chocolate brownies

new look.

i am bored with my old template. guess i have a lil bit of extra hours to change my blog layout. Chose few templates. load. get bored. change. load. change again. and finally stick to a simple black layout. hitam tetap menawan.


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current mood : creative

my hips don't lie.

I just came back from a very tiring trip. So no blogs for tonite.. just enjoy the clip while i catch my breath!

Oh my god i've been watching this clip over and over again... thats an art of a woman's hip! wish i could move my ass like that! she's one sex-say ladey!










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current thoughts : wondering whether she did bone implants.

A boozer in a train.

Someone friggin puked alcohol in the train just now. I heard a strong vomitting sound and followed by a thick liquid pouring out from someone's throat down on the floor.. and it friggin splashed! Geez.. She kept vomitting with nasty sound for another 5 stations and she didn't care about others and made that *uwek* sound like no one's business. (a scene that definitely kill my appetite for a week!) Other passengers were staring at her with discomfort look... imagine how we bear the smell of liquor and the disgusting scene for damn half an hour! She might probly boozed because she couldn't care less about the surrounding. As a lady, I was embarrased, sad and disgusted to see such a scene like that! If you don't love yourself.. atleast respect others!

I'm heading to bed and kill this disgusting scene with sweet dreams! Don't drink and drive..you might kill yourself.. don't drink and take public transport.. you might kill other passengers!

current mood : annoyed, disgusted.

"Detik Terakhir"

When i was in medan i bought a few indonesian DVDs and several complete season of popular series. Yeah its cheaper there. One of the movies was the one above. The synopsis of the back of the cover caught my attention. A tragic love story of problematic brat who suddenly indulged herself into drugs and lesbianism. Lesbian?? yeah..you heard it.

I've been keeping the cd for some time. Planned to watch with lisa. Imagine i haven't seen her for more than a week! Thats a long time as we always have our routine catchups averagely after a day. Yesterday she picked me up from the office and planned to stay over at my place to watch the dvd together.

I'm not here to review and reveal too much on the story.. but my expectation on the movie was too high. I was hoping more.. erm.. lesbian in action! ahahhaha.. well, if you wanna make a lesbian movie, do it like one! To me, they look more like bestfriends.. Why? because girls can hug and cuddle each other in public without giving a wrong sign unlike males. So, give us more than hugging and holding hands.. (don't get me wrong people, i wasn't expecting it to be like a lesbian porns.. but.. i guess the director should do more study and research on lesbian lovers) But this movie has a good message to send. A good catch on the drug addict and the effects of it. My teen nieces are interested in watching it.. but i'm not sure whether its the right genre for them.

Some of the movie shots.. that tattoo on her left thigh looks hot!

tired.hungry.

Just came back from a swim.. tired, hungry and i'm going to have capati kat usj. Friends were mentioning about the yummy tandoori. Guess i should try it tonite. In a mean time... enjoy the clip...

A guy who made my day.. (the sequel)

Note: This is the sequel of my blog dated 27th September 2005 titled "A guy who made my day.."


I know i need to blog about this. I need to let this out before i start my day. An incident that made me smile the whole day sometime last year.. (refer blog) without any future expectations of bumping into him again, it finally happened again today. The same train stop, about the same hour, but different door for the sweet second time i bumped into the guy that made me smile again.. And the same type of adrenaline rush i used to feel a year ago rushing my vein again. No, this is no mistake.. he was the one. I still remember those shady eyes, the calm look on his face.. and that stare!! I tried to pretend not looking and give that no biggy expression..(i think that is my credit.. i think i did well) but god knows how i feel inside. I can feel the blood rushing up to my brain passing by my vein and definitely left a tint of blush on my cheek! Caught him glancing TWICE.. oh my god.. did i say.. TWICE? does my hair look ok? does my top match my skirt? does the color suit my skin? maybe he still remember this girl who used to glue her eyes on him stingily for few silent moment a year ago.. maybe he's just curious why is this stranger blushing.. maybe he doesn't care or maybe he loves to watch people. Argh! what ever reason he has, who cares.. that glance meant a lot to me.. I wished the train stucked, the door jammed or i wished i don't have to get down at sentral station.. that one stop felt like a split second.. a guy with shady eyes, will you punish me if i become your sweet stalker? Do i have to wait for another a year to bump into you again?

I've been watched...

I'm a bit laid-back today. I have ample time to blog but i don't feel like blogging about my medan trip now. Maybe i am a lil bit frustrated because this trip was not really going my way.

I had lunch with Miss Z. Didn't know what to eat but suddenly i have the crave for KFC. Tried the new KFC chicken chop, but it was not that good. The only seasonal or KFC new item that suits y appetite is KFC chicken bandito and cheezy wedges. Well, anyway.. for a starved woman, anything goes! I queued at the counter and bumped into my colleague.. being a very "concern kakak", she asked me with whom i am having lunch with.. "who's that guy?". She asked with a cynical smile.. ahahaha.. ni nak serkap jarang aku la ni.. ahahhaha. its hard being single in a company full of married women. Being "Extra concern" over the singlehood in the company. I gave her a cynical reply.. "I'm having lunch with a guy named Miss Z.." she smiled and walked away. I sighed in relief.

It was raining cats and dogs. We rushed back straight to the office. As i sat down my cubicle, the same kakak stopped by and continued the same conversation. Kept asking me about the guy she saw having lunch with me last week. Ahahahha.. i know its going to cause a lot of controvertial issues! Argh. who careslah.. i didn't do anything wrong.. we had lunch and friends do that right? She kept talking and giving me advices about marriage and stuffs. It was funny. I don't mind nor get offended by her.. its good to see the curiosity of not knowing the real situation and jump into conclusion look. I smiled.. smiled cynically.. but i took all her advice with an open heart.

Tired.

Hey bloggers.. It's been sometime since i last updated anything crappy here.. yeah.. besides those crappy photos! There's too much to write yet so little time. Just came back for MEDAN last night. Still tired.. jet lag!! (hehehe.. ngada tak??) Will blog more about it later. Banyak keje.. ish! tensionnye!!

pleut des cordes..

All I hear is rain drops,
Falling on the rooftops,
I love the smell of rain,
It washes away my pain..

When the blue sky turns grey,
And I will begin to pray,
Hoping the drop of pearl,
Shall enlighten my world..

Sungai Gabai Retreat..

A one hour drive to Hulu Langat district was worth a journey. We left the house early morning purposely to get a good spot for our tent. A 20 minutes of jungle trekking to get to the waterfall made me lose my breath. It has proper stairs to climb up, but its a bit steep. I guess i'm losing up my stamina. It was supposed to be easy for me. I was catching my breath up there but the moment we reached i totally forget that i struggled carrying up our tent and food.Well, it was okay. It was still a beautiful waterfall indeed. The view was nice.. a good spot to splash and enjoy the fall of water massaging your back. But people say it was even beautiful 10-15 years ago. I bet it was still a virgin back then.

We pitched our tent and i started my mission on playing with my black box.. this time, its gonna be a shutter priority. I was not fully satisfied with the whole result of my picture. The lighting was a bit poor as the area was shaded by trees. I'm practising and will definitely come again to practise more.

But one thing for sure.. we had so much fun even though i get few bruises and wounds due to the slippery ground. Yup, i fell couple of times. But i was just lucky that my camera didn't fall onto the ground. Enjoy the pics!

Things i'm obsessed with..

Things i'm obsessed with :


1) it was one of my healthy mistake i did. Went in to one japanese kiosk in subang.. Being obsessed over mushrooms and potato, i felt like trying this crispy mushroom chip.. And it got me addicted to it.. been buying it everyday.. and i can't stop eating it! (atleast its a healthy junk food)



















2) I got infected by a camera bug. Simply snap anything within the reach of my lense. Planning to get a better lense and flash really soon.








3) Indonesian songs especially :

• Tak Bisakah - Peterpan
• Bintang di Surga - Peterpan
• Kupu-Kupu Malam - Peterpan
• Setengah Hati - Ada Band
• list goes on......

4) Cats.. home cat, tabby cat, persians.. any cats! Even though i don't own one due to circumstances.. but i have passions for felines.. meow...









































5) Starbucks KLCC - a mocha frappuccino just for me!














6) "Motivational" Books. I'ma get this book really soon. Don't be deceived by its title. Read it and it is sooo true. Gals.. you should give it a go! I was nodding and smiling when i flip through few principals.. Maybe i've been too nice that left me into frustations..Guys nowadays should be treated different way... ahah!

"It takes a very confident man to like a very confident woman, and sometimes that is misinterpreted as being a bitch. And I am called one quite frequently..."

“A bitch the way I like to define it is a ‘Babe in Total Control of herself.’ It makes perfect sense to me that a guy would like that.”

My boring seminar and the towers

I was on Microsoft seminar last week and it was held at the PETRONAS Twin Tower, Kuala Lumpur. I used to work on the 62nd floor out of 88 storeys in total. Its kinda creepy at first and i had problem in equalizing the pressure at first. And being on the 62nd floor gave me a freight as i can feel myself swaying when the wind is strong. The architecture of the building makes it that way as the foundation of the tower was made not rigid to allow stability. I had ample chance to shoot nice photos back then but i was not into photography that much in 2002. (in fact i didn't have good camera as well)

Now, i am no longer working in twin tower but i'd really love the chance to shoot the view from inside the tower. Since the training was held there, i took the chance but the result was not up to my satisfaction. The security system is very strict now and i was only allowed to go up to 29th floor. Bummer! These are the shots i managed to get from my classroom and some nite shots. The twin tower looks even more astonishing at night.. i'll shoot more later.. (click thumbnails for larger view)

Saturday Madness

I slept kinda early last nite. It made me woke up quite early for saturday morning. Hey, saturday's supposed to be a sleep in day. You're free to drag till noon! But being a morning person.. i can't sleep when the sun's already expose its ray.. well, a leapord can't change its spots! Played my mp3 out loud, brushed my teeth and i just let myself in my pyjamas till noon. I know i'm gonna get sweaty so why get bathe too soon? Ahah.. no one's gonna see.. i can just run and laze around naked! who cares??

Sit for a while on the bench by my panel window.. watched the ray of lights coming through the window.. Closed my eyes and think what to do today.. My life has been in a mess.. I need to do something about it. Need to defrag whatever needs to be defragmented. Maybe there's too much bad sector in it. Before it eats my brain, i might have to do something about it. Did some yoga, eases a bit and started with clearing my room, a basic weekly routine i do everyweek. Wardrobe, wardrobe, wardrobe.. laundry and dust out!

Then it followed by a filing. My credit card statements, handphone bill, loan statements, and other utility bills and slips.. all have to be filed and managed. To realize it or not, they contribute to this chaotic mind. I gotta be more organized. I know i used to be one before.. but i kinda lose it bit by bit now.. i have to start to tune back before it it's too late.

Realized i have not been watching too much tvs nowadays.. i missed american next top model a few series and i have to start making reminders on must watchs. Hmm.. speaking of must-watch, Desperate Housewives new season starts mid apr. Not gonna miss it! Well, tidying room and organizing things are tiring as i have to sort, plan and think.. well, i'm done with it.. had my breakfast. Mom prepared delicious nasi goreng. I usually eat heavy breakfast but kinda eat less for dinner. I don't know if it works well for you guys but bunch of people around me don't take dinner at all. Its all about tummy. Maybe i'm just lucky to have a high metabolisme rate.. but i know i should gain more.. just have to watch out my cholesterol. With a plate of nasi goreng and a glass of milk i brought it up outstairs and plan to watch tv all day long. I gotta catch up on whats on tv! I'm hardly seen new advertisement on tv. Too much time spent on the internet makes me a boring geek. I turned to 11, there's not much on travel and adventure, turned mtv, songs nowadays don't interest me that much. Maybe i'm old enough to enjoy this new era's song. Bummer! Pressed 70, and yeah.. its "whose line is it ". Thats the right show at the right time. I need a spontaneous joke. Something that could make me laugh out loud like no one's business. And this show never failed to tickle my brain. The show's over.. i want to see more.. changed one chanel to another.. guess i just lost my groove. Nothing interests me. I'm no more a couch potato. Guess there's more better things to do.

I need to go out. Decided to take shower and head somewhere nice enjoying a cuppa. Probably klcc. and probably a movie if there's anything interesting later. If you happen to be reading this and have nothing to do, feel free to buzz me.. say.. starbucks? gotta get my shower and get ready now. chow!

Bobot.. the moody cat!!

Presenting Bobot... managed to snap few shots of him during my bro's gathering party. I know he looks very lazy and moody. And he's not very friendly. But being a persian, he is fully aware of how beautiful he is. Persians are quiet, although not shy, tend to be undemonstrative. Mmmmmwahh!! grrrammmmm....

Sharbat Gula by Steve McCurry

I am a bit laid-back in the office. Laid-back makes me lazy! And i hate it when i'm doing nothing in the office. It makes me look so unworthy! But anyway, tried to read some articles online.. a photo hopping i might say.. I just love gazing at pictures that i can make an emotion connection, until i came across this picture again. It never fails to mesmerize me everytime i look at this portrait of an Afghan Girl named "Sharbat Gula". I'm pretty much sure that you've came across this dramatic portrait in a National Geographic magazine sometime ago. Let me just briefly share with you guys, this Afghan Girl was found and captured on the National Geographic cover in 1985, yet at that time no one knows who she was.. She's no AMerican's next top model or the winner of a Playboy Cover Magazine..But her mysterious expression brings an impact to an esteemed journalist and an avid photographer all around the world and that makes her the most famous faces. Later, after 17 years, National Geographic marked down its success in meeting again this haunting green eyed woman. She was 30 with 3 daughters when they met her after years of searching this so-called Afghan Girl. Click this link for her stories.

To me her captivating eyes are much much.. way way..... more beautiful than the so-called divine Mona Lisa smile. (sorry to say about the fake-fagot smile-alike! Still wonder why it took da vinci 10 damn years to complete the painting.. hey i've been to louvre and saw it live.. maybe i'm just plain unartistic. but it's just a mediocre painting. I hope i don't offend anyone by my statement.. who knows if Da Vinci's great great great grand daughter is reading this!)

I'm not going to talk about Mona Lisa's life exeperience nor Sharbat Gula's here.. but her eyes show what she has gone through her life. Steve, you were spot on and managed to capture the right expression at the right moment. Very authentic and very original.. Kudos Steve McCurry..The look of mixed feeling that can only expressed by this photo of Sharbat Gula's..

I was tagged!

Gosh! I've been tagged! This is for you amir.. i don't think i'm tagging anyone..

Tag of 4

4 Jobs
1. Conteng computer
2. Kutip Hutang
3. Partime Blogging
4. Pembancuh kopi yg berjaya di Starbucks

4 Movies I love
1. Seniman Bujang Lapuk (all time fave!)
2. The Incredibles (i watch this family 5 times!)
3. The Sweetest Thing (i'm still a girl, love chick flick!)
4. Pretty Woman (quite an oldy, huh?)

4 places I've lived
1. Jalan Gurney, KL (it was like 20 years ago!)
2. Bandar Baru Uda, JB
3. Subang Jaya (current)
4. Tronoh (hey, its not that bad anyway.. a malaysian version of toronto)

4 TV shows I love to watch
1. Desperate Housewives
2. Sex and the City
3. American's Next Top Model
4. Friends

4 places I've been on vacation
1. Jakarta
2. France
3. Switzerland
4. Rome

4 blogs I visit daily
1. My blog
2. Persetankan
3. SelambaKodok
4. GiladBenari

4 favorite foods
1. Buttered Prawn
2. Spaghetti Marinara in Cream Sauce
3. Fried Mushrooms (the wilder the better)
4. Fish Manhattan Seafood Platter (damn, feels like having it today!)

4 places I'd rather be
1. Lying on white sandy beach, Pulau Perhentian
2. Walking by Oxford Street
3. Maldives
4. Anywhere in the world with Prince Charming

4 albums I can't live without
1. (hmm..i think i can live without 'em)
2.
3.
4.

4 vehicles I've owned
1. daripada buat malu, baik skip je..
2.
3.
4.

one hell of a day!

I know there something not right with me these few days. I thought it was just stress but i decided to pay a doc a visit. She acted cool but i know there's something wrong.. i have to come back again next week for further checkup. She gave me a pile of pills and i hate tablets! i hate medications! hope i'll be disciplined enough to complete it.. (anyone willing to be my PA for a week? hehehhe) I said to myself, i'm going to be okay. YES i will. when you're worry too much, you tend to think about it and you tend to lack your rest and sleep and of course that effects your health.. i'm going to be okay. i have to start thinking about my health rather than my stupid problems. Oh yeah, i need exercises and an activity partner. Holla me if you think of something good to do and need an activity partner..(something positive and healthy, please..) i'll be up for it!

The office made me me sick. I've been counting seconds for that day to end. The clock was ticking reeeaallly slow. And it was too cold. I was wrapping myself with my shawl the whole day. A colleague insisted i pack my stuffs and go back but being stubborn i'd rather stay for another few hours than wasting my MC. 5.30 pm sharp i got my arse off the office and force my weakself to the train. As usual the crowd was enormous. I decided not to fight for it.. i might collapse if i do so. And it left me and few passive people outside and the door was already struggling to close. I decided to take a train from Stesen Kuala Lumpur and that required me to cross to the opposite platform. And the trick is to face less crowd an win me a free seat. I waited for half an hour untill the announcement saying there's a force majeur accuring at the subang and batu 3 area. Damn! But atlast, I managed to get myself to Stesen Kuala Lumpur and had to wait another hour for a train to Pelabuhan Klang. I was cursing all the way. I tried to bare myself from fainting. I almost did. My body started to shiver and i tried to sit still, took a deep breath and moved my fingers to circulate my blood. Drop of cold sweat started to soak me. Another announcement came out from the speaker saying that the cause of the train to delay was due to heavy rain, a hurricane that caused many trees to be up uprooted. Geez! that bad? the condition in KL was ok. No rain, the wind was normal.. I wonder the earth is being unhealthy as i am now. So many mishaps happening these few days. One after another..

After an hour, the train finally reached and the number of people was as twice as mush as at the KL Sentral. I knew it was not a good idea to cross platform. I didn't get a seat anyway. No matter what, i knew i had to take that train. I didn't waiting for nothing. I have to say, it was extremely packed. People started to scream with anger pushing each other selfishly. I was pushed inside and i was praying hard i won't collapse or throw up being sandwiched by people with different kind of aroma scents.. God knows how bad the condition was. I need not to hold on anything. It was too pack to even fall down if there were an emergency brakes. It was the hell of 45 minutes and i was glad i managed to hold myself. My body started to ache, my knee felt so weak i couldn't walk and the crowd at the subang station was even worse than KL Sentral and Stesen Kuala Lumpur. Its even worse than a rock concert. I wish i could just snap the picture and prove it to you people.. I've never seen such a seen at the train station before. But heck! who cares. I reached Subang and i can't wait to go back and lie myself on my comfy crib.

My dad was already there wating for me and he said there's no electricity at home. The uprooted trees caused few places to black out. Damn.. another mishaps! Some of the houses roofs were blew off and caused chaos. And my nephew witnessed the stone pours (hujan batu) and snow. Cars were crushed by fallen trees and it was like a seen of a movie twister! Gosh!

Reached home and threw myself on my bed. It was black only lit by the dimmed candles. With no electricity, the house was so quiet. I hate it when i don't hear the sound of fan spinning. It was hot. I was in my office attire. Couldn't find a slight energy to change and freshen up. My condition worsen. My mom woke me up for dinner and it was still dark . I felt really hungry, my tummy started to play an unsynch orchestra. I dragged my feet to the kitchen. Tried to munch and swallow the food but i couldn't even feel my throat. It couldn't even swallow my own saliva The path is too narrow, i lost my voice and i felt a great pain. I was too hungry but yet i couldn't swallow anything. Threw my meal into the bin without even touching anything. I tried to gargle salt water and god knows how painful my throat felt. Mom suggested i go to the clinic. I refused at first ( because i already did early morning even though that was for a different cause) but she insisted, and i think i might need an MC for tomorrow.. i went to the clinic again. The doc said i have major fever. The temperature reached 40. And he gave me an MC for tomorrow. Just what i needed! I smiled in pain.. As for tonite, we have to migrate to my bro's house and reside overnight. what a day.. what a day!

nasi goreng kampung for breakfast & nasi kerabu for lunch??

I had heavy breakfast this morning, nasi goreng kampung with sambal ayam (a drumstick), and yet i feel hungry as if i didn't eat anything since morning..ish.. whats wrong with me ni? Had nasi kerabu for lunch.. but i ate for the sake of eating.. where have all my BIG appetites gone? Nafsu tgk food ada, but the urge of eating and finishing the food is not there..To some, yeah its good so that they could control their weight without having to starve. But not for moi.. Having this shows some sign of unhealthy or mind disturbance. (Tapi best gak tgk tummy flat kejap..) I miss the old me! God knows how much i love to eat and how much i enjoyed the food ate.

Maybe i do have some mind disturbance.. feeling a lil bit shaky inside for reasons i don't know why. Okay, forget about the mind disturbance. But what exactly controls the appetite? i thought appetite should come whenever you feel hungry.. it should work that way, kan? I hope my appetite will be back on track.. And at the same time, i need to do lots of work out and exercises to get my stamina back. I might be following a colleague to Gunung Angsi with the budak budak gunung.. And if it happens, its gonna be my first serious mountain hiking.. Please give me my stamina back...

hey, i'm back writing again!

i need a break..

Bag's packed.. i'm ready to go. I won't be online for some time.. not that long. Toldcha i need a vacation. Not that far (i wish it was further) but i need a wind of change. Just to divert what's been disturbing me for a while..

ps: i'm gonna have trouble with the money. I feel like a kindergarten student learning how to count numbers. Its just so strange dealing with BIG money yet small in value.. but anyway.. we're millionaires! heheeh.. see y'all later!

The mural of earth

I was doing the normal routine.. going to work and the first view i will come across every morning is the heavy traffic on the highway, bumper to bumper.. but i was a lil bit early than any other day..i knew i didn't have enough rest lately. So many things have been messing up my mind. Slept quite late, but i had to wake up early that morning because i hitched my dad's car and he had an early meeting in KL. He dropped me off the train. I was babbling to myself due to lethargy and lack of rest.. The moment i stepped out the vehicle, my black eye shined and i was petrified by the horizon.. sublime! Is it like this everyday or it was just today? I sigh in regrets for not noticing this beautiful live mural eversince. From now on, this beautiful carpet of mural will be the first thing i will gaze in the morning.With my eye still glued on the sky, i groped my sling back and took out my second eye and voila'. What i see is what you get!
(click on picture for larger version)

The sky was teasing me..

The sky looks beautiful today.. be it during the hot sunny day or during the sunset!

A jump to remember..

Don't think i need to elaborate more.. just enjoy the pics!


click for the ultimate jump goddess!