The Gift II

And this is the real gift for me. 3 weeks ago, it was dusk and drizzling. I just got home from work and stepped out of my car and this poor lil kitty running and curling around my legs. Poor kitty. She was cold and hungry.

It was semi dark and i thought she was cute so i picked her and stroke this lil fluffy until i realized her body was full with mytes and mange. Then i put her down and went inside. She followed me and kept meowing maybe asking for food and shelter. Out of sympathy, i fed her and let her eat at the porch. I did not have any cat food at the time so i mixed fish and some rice. She didn't want to eat it at first so i just left her outside.(maybe this ain't no ordinary kampung cat!) Half an hour later i peeped through the window and the plate was empty but she wasn't there. She must be really hungry.

The next morning before i went to work, i saw that happy tummy slept at the corner and when she saw me, she keeps meowing and curling around me. I guessed she might have been abandoned by her owner. This is no ordinary stray. I was already late to work but who cares, i need to feed this fluffy thing so i went to the grocery nearby and bought a cat food.

At that moment i realized this is where she wants to be and destined to meet her new guardian here at my place and i decided to treat her disease and adopt this poor lil kitty. Its Ramadhan and its the best time to make good deeds not only to human, but.. cats too!

Now its been 3 weeks having her with me. Feeding Iams is never a mistake, she's soft, healthy and the veterinar keeps her mange at bay. Mytes and mange is dissapearing. She's now one happy healthy persian you can never imagine was once an abandoned diseased kittty.

Presenting.. loly!

sahur bloggy - day 1

Its 5.32am and i am waiting for subuh. Today is my first sahur for this year.. It is so pieceful and calm at this hour.. I can hear nothing but the sound of my airond and my keypad while i'm typing this.

Had a stiff neck when i woke up yesterday. I wasn't expecting its gonna prolong to today. It got worsen when my mom woke me up this morning for sahur. Erkh i hope it gets better after swallowing 2 tablets of panadol.

The azan has just aired. And i always wonder why each time azan, my neighborhood dogs howl? and they keep silent again after azan ends like now.. whenever i think of it on normal days especially during maghrib, my hair stands and it gives me an eerie feeling.. but they say syaitan and evlils are chained during ramadhan, so my eerie perception changed. I guess the dogs are just distracted with the loud speakers.. They are trained that way to secure the house.. ahhhh... lets forget about it.

I'm gonna pray and sleep this stiff neck off. I'd like to wish all of the muslims out there "Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak" and thank you for all the smses and wishes!

ps: come to think of it.. why do they howl instead of bark?

the gift.

the gift., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

oops! no, not mine.
this cute lil baby girl was my Aqiqah client last saturday. More photos here

putrajaya at night

putrajaya at night, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

shot taken after the grand finale of the MIFC. I'm too shy to load my crappy fireworks photos, so this is the after effect of the night. Looking good with the blue laser light, while i was enjoying the night breeze.

I kinda love KL (minus the heavy traffic after that!)

menembak malam.

Rasa ganasla pulak title tu. And erm.. sounds like KL menjerit or Rempit type of movie. Ahahahahha.. anyway, thanks to lanun darat kepala bulat for this snapshot. Nice focus. edited by moi.

the angry tree

the angry tree, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

oh yeah, i was sad, pissed and angry when i shot this. It was supposed to be a night of soulful colorful fireworks. but bummer to me. i broke the tripod a minute after the event started. 2 of my other buddies were enjoying the shutter release and enjoy the view at the same time. it was meaningless to me. I just kept my camera aside and try to enjoy the scene. But it wasn't as satisfying as being able to capture it through the viewfinder.

I must visit putrajaya again. Atleast i still have until 2nd September. My friend tried to console me by letting me use his tripod. And it was too late. No more fireworks. What i've got was this static tree which i guess he'd be laughing his ass off looking at the whole scene. But i think atleast its a not-too-bad shot.

more stories on Malaysia International Fireworks Competition (MIFC) here.

he's back! he's back!!!!

I'm the happiest girl on earth today. My mac is back. With his new life. Brand new. plus a new keyboard top courtesy by mac malaysia which worth $500++ FOC! The guy at the shop was even curious why Mac Malaysia was being so generous to me. My white keyboard top had a lil scratch and dirts on it. (how do you expect it to be pure white all the time?) and thats the reason why they replaced my not-so-clean white top to a new one! The service is superb!

Lesson learnt and to share..

1) get something which offers superb after sale service,
2) if its gonna screw.. make sure it screws before the warranty expires (even a minute to expiry date),
3) keep and check your expiry card once in a while.

and that is why you should switch to Apple! Apple rocks my world!

My Best Friend's Wedding

lisabliss, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

looong hectic+enjoyable+melodramatic+fun+memorable weekend is the best to describe my last weekend. hectic? the awaited date of my best friend's wedding had finally ended. Yeeah it was my best friend's wedding!! enjoyable? how does it feel to be the bride's maid of honour cum photographer for the remarkable date! fun? definitely it was! thanks to my friend whose kind enough to cover the wedding when my task is more needed to be beside the bride. I owe you millions, dude. melodramatic? my dear dear Ms L, condolence to your bro-in-law whom just passed away about 2 weeks before her wedding day. You and your sis are one tough sisters! life goes on, ok? The whole invitees in the mosque who witnessed the solemnization were in a moment of silence after the father of the bride suddenly burst into tears during his thank speech after the event completes. Everyone was sobbing and hugging while giving condolence and supports to the family members especially the sister. May he's blessed in heaven. Amin.

Ms L and Mr F.. you are one couple made in heaven. They look so divine in white humble kurung and baju melayu. Masjid Sultan Abu Bakar was the location of the solemnization. The gloomy sky seemed to be the witness of tears of joy and sadness. I would say the wedding itself shows a symbol of family ties, love and bond of not only one family stronger but two families together. The moment of joy, happiness, tears, commitments, efforts, collaborations, share and care between family and friends. Thank god it went smoothly even though there was a moment of panicking when we made the tok kadi to wait. Everyone was antsy, anxious and stressed-out. But alhamdulillah, on the 18th August 2007, 5 Syaaban 1428, located in Masjid Abu Bakar, the blessed couple is successfully wedded.

My dear friend, i am sad to let you go.. but i am a thousand times happy to see you in a hand of a good man. May your life is blessed with happiness and beautiful kids soon.. i love you!



More stories on her reception at Rumah Limas Danga Bay soon.

oh no!

He had a minor stroke last night. And now he is depending on the life support machine. oh, i can't live without him. My life now is depending on him.

I managed to send him to the hospital today. It feels so sad seeing him being wrapped and according the doctor he has to be sent away for a further treatments. I can't imagine spending my day routine without him.

Yes, my mac needs a new battery. Fortunately my warranty is still valid and expiring in 4 days time. Hope MAC Malaysia is kind enough to give him a new life.

I am sad.

not that balai - tribute to uncle teh

it was a few weekends ago when a friend invited me to an art exhibition for notthatbalai located at tempinissatu. There are a few art performance, visual arts and musical collaboration by a few artists, but one particular section really caught my attention. An inspiring talk by Mr Teh on his inspiring stories of his journey of life. There's no such thing as an instant success. It might take half of your life or maybe whole of your black hair before it turns grey and smell victory. A speech that tells me that dreams can turn reality if you are really into it. And it takes a lot of effort, sacrifice, blood and sweat to live in your dream.

So, to uncle teh.. you inspired me..

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tortured

tortured, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I was going environmentalist. Shooting couldn't be better in my flip flops and capri pants. The jungle trekking area was shaded with large trees thant only allows spots of rays coming down true the giant trees.

It took me awhile to capture and appreciate this rotten leaves. But the ray that falls on the rotten edges looks dramatic.

A friend told me how come i always have things to shoot. I told him if you look hard enough, there is a lot of things around you we can appreciate and i am practising my eyes to see things in a different point of view.

30 minutes contemplation.

sarong photo girl., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I have 1 hour before we go to Midvalley and buy a wedding gift for a colleague's wedding tomorrow. SO, let me kill my time to blog. Damn.. where do i start now. So much things to blog so lil time. Had nasi lemak so called rendang ayam this morning and i am still full. What can we get later for RM170 (money pool collected from my department). Someone suggested a baby stroller. LOL. Well, since this friend of ours already made a clear statement on getting preggy on her first night.. Baby stroller would be a cool thing to consider.

I am being a cool biatch and extra rebellious today . Wearing jeans.. or denim is a NO-NO here even if its during dress-down day like today. I just don't give a farting shit anymore. Sack me if they need to. I went down to the pantry with my "don't give a shit" look. Had my nasi lemak and did notice the one kind look as if you are wearing a red undies on top of your blue tight pants. (only superman is officially allowed to do that). As my strong and rebellious instinct forced me this morning, I DON'T CARE. After my happy moment with nasi lemak, we walked out the pantry and guess who i bumped into? Tan Sri ***! erk. fart. Within my 4 glorious years working in *** i have never seen him in flesh. (only in the company profile under the Board of director section) .. and all of the sudden there were other bosses i occasionally seen seems to pop out walking around in the office like what happen in a cheap movie scene (in which when the movie director says "ACTION", everyone seems to crowd the frame from GOD knows where). I still put that dont-give-a-shit look and just act like a visitor. lalalalal.

Life has not being really productive lately. Motivation and morale bar has turned critically red. Lots of insecurities and confusions going along my way. Finally the company is offering me to a permanent post. Unfortunately, its still not good enough for me. Of course, with a number of years working my ass off i deserved something more than that. Its time to move and dig for other opportunities elsewhere. I'm not going to sit and complain. I guess its time to achieve the satisfaction of working rather than working for the sake of earning. Without doubts, it is hard.. (way way harder than i thought) but everything's got to change. And the only person who could drive me to change is myself. I will be officially leaving this company in September. What will happen next? I am not sure myself. Maybe got married to a rich guy? (ahahaha.. dreaaam on!) Having my own studio with my own galleries on my own wall of fame is still my dream i need to pursue. Yes. It's time to leave.. For now lets go to Midvalley and find the wedding pressie, girls!!!!

the girl in Manjalara?

Dah jadi actress dah minah ni. I came back a lil early for buka puasa couple of days back. Took my remote control and switch channels randomly. This actress in "Manjalara" reminds me of someone. Hey, i used to shoot this girl for her portfolio sometime ago. And those photos you see came out from my camera. hehehe...

Congratulation, Farah!

sinful site.

I am fasting. But I can't help being in and drooling myself over this sinful site. Being a big big fan of potato and cheese, I guess I am becoming a big fetish of this mouth-watering site.

time flies and left me behind..

life's a pitch, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

remembering those happy moments.

.. and damn! it took me about a year to post this one.

and in less than a month, i gotta hand this lovely girl of mine to a guy who's responsible to take care of her for the rest of her life. (he better be!)
I am sad and HAPPY at the same time..

Boxer Owner Wanted!

- for making my jaw cramped due to laughing
- for teasing my brain
- for spoiling me with nice words and thoughts. You never knew how big my ass became now.

finally, i went diving!

this picture has nothing to do with what i did today. no, i did not go diving nor snorkeling. and this cute lil fish i captured was from the aquarium in amcorp mall. hehehe.. how pathetic.

i was on an island last two weekends. the first was in perhentian, and a week after was in pulau ketam. (would you consider pulau ketam an island? well as long as you need to take a boat/ferry i still consider one!) i am still suffering from island bug and decided to keep the island mood by posting this cute fishy. (as if i was diving.. sangat menyedihkan!) okkay, enough with my contemplation.

i am diverting my stressful thought for tonite and how i wish i could turn the clock backwards. I HATE MONDAYS!!! happy monday, people!

bebola

bebola, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

jalan jalan kat CM, ternampak those rattan takraw keychain ball. Imagine how small keychain like that can look this big in 50mm.

loner

loner, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Yes I'm a loner and why do you care?

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A cat i shot captured in Pulau Ketam.

threesome

threesome, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

"A threesome is the term which describes a sexual act involving three people, also referred to as a ménage à trois. To clarify the roles, a threesome does not have to mean that all three people are engaging in sexual activity specifically with all people in the threesome, but can be one person as the focus of attention (two men focusing on one woman, two women focusing on one man, etc.), and the other two engaging in sex with the same one person, but not necessarily with each other. However, all people are together in the same location during the experience. Some people think that when two men are with one woman that the men must somehow be bisexual, but this is often not the case. Instead, they just jointly participate in the threesome, both focusing on the same one woman.

Threesomes are of course also possible between all-same-sex participants, ie. three men or three women. This in fact removes one of the complications described above, as all the participants are presumably of the same sexual orientation."

- wiki

errrr... errr..

this is where i belong.

this is where i belong., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

we decided to head to pulau ketam, port klang today for a different air.
i heard my friends talking about how pulau ketam could be a nice scene to capture.
so i went there...a half an hour journey from ktm subang, followed by another hour on ferry to pulau ketam was really worth a journey. pulau ketam is exactly as what i expected.

If you are into travel journalist type of photography, this is one of the must visit place. Especially for those who stays in town.. its suitable for a day trip.. and get back with bunch of native faces, abstract shots (my fave), a national geaographic style of photography photos to bring home.

heres a brief.. a wooden kampung houses with high wooden pillars floating above the sea. i'd say the major source of income there is fishing as 80% are fisherman. As i reached the shore of pulau ketam, the smell of fish swept by the hot warm breeze from the sea opens my eyes wide. I was so delightful to see how colorful the houses are painted. And some rustic walls faded with colorful paints really caught my eye.

i see kids, youth and folks mostly in bicycles as it is the major transportation on the island. Everything from shops, houses, school, police department, clinic and hose reel are elevated. The majority of the community is chinese. i can barely see indians and malays on the small island of crab.

Becareful and be extra vigilent when you walk on the small bridge around the village. Be alert with the bicycle bells because you might not want to get hit by one! You are dealing with pro cyclist! So bicycles, bicycles, bicycles are what you are going to see a lot.

did i mention its a good place for fashion photography too? well, off record we did some cam-whoring session. will post some of the cam-whoring session photos later..hehe..

.. to be continued..

ketam anyone??

island construction

island construction, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

whats worse than to see these giant transformers destroying the mother nature. i hate to see this but then i whispered to myself, this would be a nice scene to capture. the dramatic sky seemed to agree with me.

bummer.

langit tak sebiru semalam

langit tak sebiru semalam.. i'm back in kl. the air is thicker, heavier and fuller with particles and debris.
my mind started working again around the clock.
i see mr grumpy all over me.
everything not seemed to work. how i wish the weekend doesn't end.
I hate mondays most of the time.
and today feels exactly like the mundane monday.
i was late to work again. i was dragging my feet and nagging myself how i wish i don't have to go to work. i had a photography assignment outa town. for the first time i did not complain a single word about having to work during weekend. and surprisingly, i'm loving it.

and one thing for sure..., hari ini... langit tak sebiru semalam..

journey to unknown.

I look straight. I don't see the end.
Everything seems vague.
Is this a dream? or is this for real?

Dark.

I rub my eyes with hopes.
It's still dark.

I asked myself..
Shall I step forward?
..or step back?

my blood and sweat.

I have been complaining about how i wished i had more than 24 hours in aday, more than 7 days a week but getting my paycheque sooner... or more frequent! haha. I never knew camera is going play a major role in my life. I don't think i can live without my camera.. and my mac. Call me a geek! (i'm beginning to feel like one). Bola@api called me Budak Mac (with a "mek" klate pronunciation.. baaahhhh)

I've been working my ass off for 2 weeks to complete my very own portfolio. Well, its more on self-satisfaction sake. 2 years of involving myself, my blood and sweat, time consumed under sun and rain, make crappy shots but sometimes became an all-time-fave piece kinda shot, being critiqued especially by my sister on how bad and suck my photos turned, getting to know the alien jargons like WB, AF-S,AF-C,ISO and list goes on.. now, i'm compiling everything into a compact 20-page portfolio.

I was trying to create something that really portrays me. A simple white color book that does not really picturise me as a photographer.. but an art book that shows a journey of a lady in pursuing her dreams.. and to conclude it short; my photography assignments i have done within 2 years. I hate to admit one.. i'd rather say an avid who loves capturing moments. does it sound redundant? yeah, because i am redundantly in love with it.

Digging old stuffs and choose to compile into a 20-page book ain't easy. It took me almost a week! hence the feeling of putting more good photos (which some i do post here and here) into 1 page have to be put a side. Minimal is always good . Less is more. So don't be greedy.

But the overall feeling is good. I feel so rewarded. I am quite satisfied with the outcome (well atleast for my very first publication). Of course there's some flaws here and there..but as my friend always say, its the tradition of one's very first publication.. there is going to be tiny mistakes that will haunt you each time you flipped it. I was there almost all the time during the process of compilation. Until i realised one page was actually switched! It was a minor defect anyway (and i guess, only truly perfectionist would notice it).. i can see the guilt on 'compiler-guy's face when i pointed out THE mistake. Well, since its a very unnoticeable mistake, its not quite fair for him to redo it. So some things i gotta tolerate and just close-one-eye. Hmm.. in life we gotta tone down everything.. being too perfectionist is not good for people around you. My friends told me how picky i am.. especially in relationships. Okkkay.. lets not talk about relationship now. But come to think of it..am i thaaat picky??

Anyways, i would like to thank those dear friends around me who made "A taste of Marshmallow" which also conclude my life in the making a success. I may sound boastful but this is MY blog and i'm free to feel good atleast for the effort i've made. Feel free to leave the site if you can't take the amount of my boastfulness in this entry. hehe.. But somehow this is just 15% of the whole personal project i am working on. With motivation, guts, 200% more effort, bigger clock perhaps, sacrificing those beauty treatments, willingly to torture my spine.. i still have to pursue the remaining portion. I don't care if its gonna turn out a failure but the journey does really counts. The people i came across make me realised who true friends are and goooood things won't come easy. To you-know-who-you-are(s).. thank you.

to some who wonder, i will try to post a bit of a preview in my next bloggy.

#5|E|X|P|L|O|R|E

it was ranked #5 on explore! somehow the mystery works best..

my life in the making.

hello friends.. i'm back in kl. and maybe i won't be blogging that much these days.. I am currently concentrating on my personal project called "metamorphosis". I've been sketching up ideas and collaborating resources to be put into a portfolio. I won't say much because action does screams louder than a cheap talk. I will try to nail the milestone periodically. i hope the experimental works. well we wouldn't know unless we make an effort to try. so, wish me luck!

in the making..

kampungku.

Life has not been so good as expected.. well, nothing is certain anyways. and i did have a hunch that something will not go on my way. but i was calm, so calm that i started to worry on how calm i deal on things. but why should i panic? well, i guess i should panic a lil bit. and that makes me technically jobless now..

yes, i am technically unemployed. i guess its time to move and expand my capabilities.. maybe something i never thought i am capable of.

* * * * *

on the contrary, i am sort of enjoying my time here in pantai timur. tried not to think about whats happening in kl and whats going to happen when i come back to the hustle bustle town of kl.

etok, nasi kerabu, ayam bakar and green flags with white circles are everywhere. ouh, its been years since i last step to this serene hometown. the smell is still the same, kampung children cycling along the narrow path that only allows only 1 car at one time.. ayam, itik running around blindly as our car enters the pathway. i can still visualize and hear kids giggling and running on the stairs we used to play masak-masak with cousins. The sawah bendang is not as green as before.. but still green enough compared to grasses at the playground near my house in kl. i wonder whether there is still fish like we used to catch when we were running in skirts barefooted years ago.



so, kampung is basically... fun! i had a good feast.. the fruits are sweeter, fresher.. and the meat is tenderer.. and juicier.. the people is friendlier.. am i over exagerating it? No.

* * * * *

now, i have food to take care of. see you in kl!

FYI

balik kampungggg!!!!!!

"..she's pweeety.."

"..she's pweeety..", originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

i wonder what's popping in her mind..
she was looking at the bride in awe without a blink.

maybe.. "when i grow up.. i want to be as pweeety as the princess.."

the day i was abandoned..

i was abandoned. i feel unworthy.
i'm no longer useful.but i am strong yet rusty.
i am R E D.

".. when emotion speaks.."
disclaimer : image is an art and only for art sake.
well, okay it does mean something maybe

come closer, don't be a stranger!

i feast my hungry eyes with r e d, g r e e n, y e l l o w, o r a n g e and the color of earth.
i swallow fresh, clean air as the soft cooling breeze touches my skin.

they are waiving and smiling at me,
welcome my presence with warm and friendly gestures.
i feel connected.. i feel blessed.

..come closer and don't be a stranger!

divine beauty

divine beauty, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

the most tiring weekend this year.. but its all worth! Its been an honor to capture the beatiful day of my niece's. I'm too tired to blog about it tonite. More of beautiful her and her other half in my next blog.. i'm off to my sack! my whole body aches!!

my name is...

meet sabrina.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Lil Sabrina at Eagle Ranch Port Dickson.

And she's a shy lil horsey.. but she managed to give me a few nice pose. I guess she wanna make friends. i was scared to approach her in the beginning. but she looks so harmless. and how can i resist the smile?

i was never a fan of horsey, but this one puts a smile on my face.

Isn't she cute?

Photograph•her

Photograph•her, originally uploaded by ekster.

I never knew street photography would be this fun. I spent my weekend photographing kl scenes and rustic places along the stretch of Petaling Street with my neighbor. Regardless the hot sunny day, get honked by the passers and strange look by the people.. we didn't give a damn at all.

This definitely gonna have a repeat.

..here's a portrait shot by my neighbor. he's such a talent.

..only if...

the creativity juice is spilling. i feel like doing something fun and extraordinary again. i have not been shooting oudoor that much. that means its been sometime since i went for any vacation. The vacation bug is pestering me. I can't think of anything better now than going for a vacation. I miss my walking around with my extra heavy pair of lenses. Speaking of my glass of love, i'm so dying to get a new lense. Wait till money is comfortably in hand. (i wonder when would that be)

to those friends who just came back from a vacation or even better who are still on a vacation, I ENVY YOU BIG TIME! to those who just purchased a camera, be it nikon, or canon, or any dSLRs camera.. welcome to the club! you never know what you've been indulging in to. (holla me if you have any ideas on shooting.), to those who thinks there's an opening of employment in their company.. (hopefully in creative field.. i'm kinda tired of doing IT.. ) please do holla me too.. my employment contract is expiring very very soon. And it will leave me jobless.. help... help...

lil monsters need a house.

kenapa dalam mac saya ada banyak semut?

to feel "girlie" again.

its a shopping weekend! its been sometime since i shoppped on girlie stuffs. after a love struck on a new hobby, i've been diverting my feminine instincts on camera gadgets. a male friend of mine told me its not good for my health. heheheh.. so i decided to take his advice and spent a whole day by myself eyeing for stuffs that makes me a whole lotta woman again.

A new pair of jeans by zara, some new office attire to fill in my wardrobe, lingeries by la senza, bling bling accesories and half a day at the salon definitely made my pocket burst! gedebush.. but heck, i deserved to be pampered and enjoy my own sweat and blood. my feet sores due to satisfying my picky appetite on things. but i'm quite satisfied with my purchase.

its time to sleep and dream now.

oh by the way, i still need a new nice pair of wedges and a trendy casual handbag. and a nice pair of shades.. and .. and.. ZzzzZzzzZZz..

these boots.

"this boots are made for walking,
and thats just what they'll do,
one of these days these boots
are gonna walk all over you"

..the boots that made me a 2nd runner up for my company's dinner event for "THE BEST DRESS CONTEST", one of the night highlights. Something unexpected as i was supposed to be the photographer for the highlight event instead one of the nominees. It feels weird getting on stage as a one of the winner not a photographer. And the feeling is great because i didn't spend fortune for it. :) an effortless victory is always good.