When marshmallow talks..

Friday, December 08, 2006

sometimes i run..

sometimes i run,
run away and don't turn back,
i'm scared to see the darkness that haunts me behind my back,

sometimes i feel like i'm flying
fly towards the ray of light,
but i dare not run too fast and fly too high..
because the pain to bear when i fall to the ground,
is too great to bear.

Monday, December 04, 2006

pcfair or funfair?

I finally fulfilled my own wishlist. How pathetic is that? ehehhehe... Can't afford to wait for santa to grant my wish. My m a c is crawling slower than snails. And its killing me! And it makes me feel like whacking someone. I got dissapointed with my printings the other day. What went wrong? Was it my editings? Was it my monitor calibration? was it the printer? was it the photo format? or was it my m a c? Nah, i don't think its my m a c that caused the problem. But it bothered me a lot that day so i guess i need to treat myself and make ms marshmallow a lil happier. (increasing my happiness meter up) and since on the top of my wishlist, i still need to get it done sooner or later. so why not now?

So I decided to go PC fair on Sunday. The crowd was ridiculously big. I almost gave up with the price. I was so frustrated. My shoulder got really tired carrying the notebook, feet got blistered with the heels! I wish i was in sneekers and t-shirt! (i can't help it since i was from someone's engagement party). I finally came to the right place before i decided to go back and upgrade it later in Sunway Pyramid and the last shop i visited "Machines" offered $200 discount, so 1G cost me about $600. Quite a good deal i might say. He tried to persuade me to go for 2G. Hmm... 2G on m a c sounds really tempting. I don't have to bancuh kopi while waiting for applications to run. ahahhaha... but i don't have $1200 to spend on RAM. Its okay, 1G is fair enough. I'm giving my m a c an increase of IQ.

I also got myself a new bag for my laptop. I wanted Whickey and Cox by Crumpler which can fit in my camera and my m a c but i think its too bulky to carry around everyday to work plus its out of my budget constrain now... (will be on my next list next year). So, i got myself a mediocre shoulder sling bag by kensington to replace my pink mengkuang bag which the handle almost came off. Imagine carrying a laptop in a mengkuang bag?? So not appropriate! So i guess i did a wise purchase today. I am very careful with my spendings nowadays because my monthly salary is not enough to cater my hobby. *sigh* :( why did i indulge in this in the first place?? ohhhh... but anyway, i'm not regretting anything now. It makes me feel good and what more can i ask for??

So, the day it was. Tiring but content. Santa, i got my RAM, you can get the kids marshmallow and candies and make them happy!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

The Moon, the sky and me.

it was saturday night. And i'm not a party freak. So we decided to go out that night to have some decent dinner at hartamas. I ate like i haven't seen any food for a week. From potatos, lamb, cheese, pizza, telur ikan bakar portuguese style to a gelato icecream. Did i say, i had briyani for lunch today? So, i guess you can calculate the amount of cholesterol i consumed today. Its okay, I don't wanna know about it!

With such amount of food, chores that involved some physical activity since early morning , i have a solid reason to get really really tired and sleepy. Lisa was driving home and i was already banging my head to sleep a few times.

As I reached home, i glanced to the sky as i felt a drop of water falling on my forehead. I was in awe for a few seconds. It was a cool breezy night, and oh my god! the sky was not like any other day. It was cloudy with a very interesting hue of warm colors. The moon was hiding its face amongst the sourmilky cloud. My lethargy automatically fade away and my eyes were as fresh as a morning dew. And I was gazing at the beautiful painting on the sky without a blink and i decided to take my camera and tripod because this is too priceless to let go. The result i get was not as beautiful as seeing it live. I couldn't get a really sharp cloud as the cloud was moving due to the breeze. I took my camera, put on my tripod, set a slower shutter and took a deep breath before slowly pressing the button. I hold my breath, carefully release my finger and let the shutter closes slowly. And this is what i want to share with you.. voila'

Friday, December 01, 2006

Muzik Muzik.

I was there.. no, i was not assigned, and no i am not a fan of this show
and i rarely watch tv these days..
but for the sake of clicking, it was cool!

[more photos here]

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

a letter to santa ......

Dear Santa,

I hope you're reading this.. I wish you could jinggle all the way with your rudolf and drop by my neighborhood and grant me these.. I'll be the happiest person on earth!

I need to :
1) upgrade my MAC. CS2 is such a pain in a butt with only 512 ram. (i'd rather run half naked rather than working on a slow machine!! erm... okay, i'm over exagerating here!)
2) get any two~dot~eight lense. or atleast 50mm f1.8. But the 70-200 f2.8 VR turns me on BIG time! (its not too long, but its big enough.. sweet!)
3) SB800 (i need to flash!)
4) MB-D80 (extra grip is what i need.. oh yeah baby!)

If this numbers and codes are too jargon for you, just bring this list to the camera shop and put them in your big red sack! I love you, santa!

ps: by the way, you missed my address last year.. hope it won't happen again this year!

yours truly,
ms marshmallow

when you think someone is pregnant but..

Have you ever came across a scene whereby you are unsure whether the lady is pregnant or she's just plain BIG. And it made you observe and think for few uncomfortable minutes?

I was commuting back from work and it was no surprise that the train cramped with people. I managed to get in and stand for the next few stops before someone infront of me disembarked. i was not feeling that well yesterday. I was actually full equiped with lotsa things in my hands, with my mac on my left hand (in that so not appropriate bag mengkuang as proclaimed by someone! It felt so heavy! the button and the handle almost came off!), and my big handbag on my shoulder(with everything from lipstick to my external drive!). Not forgetting that thick STAR newspaper on my other hand (i wish they remove some crappy news and make it less thick!) I had no room to hold the pole! Getting a seat is a rare occasion and exactly what i am looking forward to each time. I released a loong sigh after getting the seat!

I was reading the newspaper to kill that long torturing moment. And after one stop few people disembarked and gave room for this one lady to stand in front of me. At a glance she looked big. Not too big but can be considered plum. I peeped as i flipped the sheets. It was like 6 more stops to go (another 20-25 mins before i reach my stop). I might faint, fell or stumble in that long duration. Ohh, i hate the feeling of guilt. People sitting around me didn't give a damn. On my right sleeping like no ones' business swaying her head to the rythm, and the one on my left was talking on HIS cell with his girlfriend.. (i'm not trying to bang my own roots, but there are lack of local gentlemen around nowadays!) Ouh!! It feels bad to bear that guilt but of course i was not that fit enough to stand with stuffs and gears in my hands (i look like a spend-thrift shopaholic shopping for christmas!).

It came back to my contemplation bubble, if i offer her a seat and for the fact that she's not pregnant, would it be an offend because indirectly she might think i'm trying to convey that she looks fat. But the fact is, none intended. And second thought, hell no, not giving this seat for free to someone who doesn't deserve it! (my selfish heart said that!) I let that contemplation be with analysis and ponder for quite a mo. (hey, thats cheating! Actually I was giving myself more time to sit and giving this not so gentleman a chance to prove my perception was wrong). But i was actually right.. about almost everything. Yes, local men are not gentle enough and yes, she's pregnant. I guess about 3-4 months. So my kindself decided to be the lifesaver of the bay, and this warrior princess is trying to seize her day.. I stood up and offer the pregnant indian lady my seat. The story ain't stop here.. let me have my breakfast and I will continue this blog later...

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I'm back.. Kak Rofi's(the tea-lady) mee goreng is da bomb! Okay, back to my train story.. I was tired, not feeling well, drained, drowsy and equipped with bags and stuffs. But i felt good to offer my seat to that pregnant lady. She smiled sincerely and was struggling to squeeze herself towards the seat before one skinny pengkid grabbed the seat without any sense of guilt on her face. That just boils my temperature up! HELLLLOOOO i am not going to let this sweat and tears drop for nothing. This sacrifice is meant to a more deserving someone. I ain't gonna let it happen.. with a firm gesture i point her shoulder and politely said "This seat is for this pregnant lady.." I felt like a gentleman rescuing a beautiful lady and it became a scene for a few seconds. (sometimes its essential for a girl to have a male sense in herself and it works vice versa too!) The lady who slept like no one's business suddenly woke up, and the guy who talks on the phone with her gf hung up. I hope i gave a right perception to them and i hope they will be a lil more sensitive with the surrounding. Well, what more can i ask than having this satisfaction of looking at the sincere, relief smile on the pregnant lady's face, a blush and guilt on the selfish people's face sitting beside me and to give a good lesson to that pengkid lady!

..life feels great if you make the world a better place to be.

shot was taken on my way back from work. I ain't feel tired anymore.
That sourmilk sky turned my sour day into a smile.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

My first model photoshoot.

I had my first model portfolio photoshoot. Everyone has been misunderstood when i said this to my friends. No I was not being shot but I photographed those models for their portfolios. Event held at Times Square Hotel. I was a little nervous in the very beginning. They might be as nervous as I am. So, i took a deep breath.. relax and act very profesional. The first few shots were so stiff and i tried building up the chemistry and treat them like my close buddy. Come on! This is what I've been wanting to do all my life. I can do better than that!! I'm imagining myself being Janice Dickinson choreographing models on the set. But of course I was not as loud as her! After a while it get so hot in here.. don't ask what happened! (hehheheh.. no we didn't burn the hotel... yet!) Check out my very first model photoshoot HERE.

ps: traci, you gotta see them. This is what you've been wanting me to do and this is what i want to do! Wish you were here!

Monday, November 20, 2006

Behind the scene.

I have not been watching drama series, movies, sitcoms for ages. And I'm not here to promote this new sitcom.. but just want to share the photos i shot during the making of the sitcom. Making anything on tv be it dramas or 30 sec advertisement is not as easy as watching it while eating kuaci. One simple scene takes hours to get it right on screen. Now i know. But one thing about this sitcom, i i love the studio set a lot!! It was awesome. And you'll know where the hello kitty guitar on my fotopages came from.(for those who wonder)