happy color

happy color, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

let the color of emotion outshines,
i shall scream my lungs out and feel free,
i shall put my bare feet on the ground and let it swing by the rythm,
i shall smile from the heart again,
and color the world with my laughter,
thats when the rainbow starts to unhide its beauty from a stormy rain,
and the birds will start chirping and sing without fear,

i shall color my monotonous life with happiness,
..and make the world a better place to be..

omong kosong.

Health has not been on my side for the past few weeks. From a slight fever, to a bad cough that caused me sleepless nights. From the eye infection to stiff neck that made me walk like artoo detoo in star wars for few days. I guess the year of pig has not been a good year for most. I'm not the only one. Bunch of people from the office, friends and relatives have been complaining about their bad state of health. I guess the world is too tired with people like us.

Realize it or not, the calendar is moving towards the 3rd month of the year.. and i don't see much progress nor self development which i can be proud of. Lazy is the best word to describe my year of pig. My motivation at work has dropped tremendously this year. It sometimes makes me realise that IT is not where my heart want to be. I've been thinking a lot about doing my own artsy stuffs.. i don't imagine something BIG at the moment, but enough for me to do my errants every month, pay my car, credit card and loans, gas for me to move about.. i'll be content at the moment and the most important thing i can pursue my passion without guilt. My brain will freeze for any other thing than artsy fartsy stuffs. Now I realised that this is what i'm good at and this is what i should pursue back then. But i am not regretting the path i chose. What would we human do without the knowledge of IT?? So, I am now concentrating on my dream which I can put as "A Beemer running on a Kancil engine." very slow moving.. dream big with less effort. not good. And i need a push factor to force me in a good way to pursue what i want to do.

I have not been talking my heart out in text form for sometime. Blogging about things that does not make any sense to other people (sometimes it doesn't even making any sense to me!). Whereelse, I've been uploading lotsa those in photos and imagery form. That'd be one source of expressing my feelings too! But i do miss blogging about simple stuffs like "a guy with boxers vs briefs" or "my zits" or "the t-shirt that betrayed me", or "the cute guy i met in the train", the list goes on..

Now i am going to talk about simple thing. My life has already been burdened with complicated things so why not make this tiny lil story sound big and important. I broke my bed today. (Oh come on, its not what you think it was) but the bed seriously need a fix. I don't think mr calcium could fix my backbone if i still sleep on my broken bed. So, in a mean time, i'd rather put my mattress on the floor and make sure my backbone is on a straight posture every night. It does feel way way more comfortable than i thought! (no wonder the japanese practise it!). And yes, the very same broken bed caused me 2 days of mc due to stiff neck. Its too painful to even talk about it.

14 February, so called a V day. I don't quite celebrate it.. but anyway friends... thanks for the toughtful wishes.. roses and dinner. I don't know what would i do without my friends.. And to some friends who are still single like me.. put your worries behind.. its not that bad anyway! There's still so much love to give and receive. Make love not war.. (erm.. not make love simply to anyone!)

Ouh my blog entry this time does not have any theme or specific issue to talk about. This is what happened when i compress rojak pasembor, a steak, dim sum and tandoori into one big bowl! I hate it when i lost my rythm to express things. But i'll be back on track. I think this year is going to be the year of discovering my inner capabilities and share my creativity. It sounds small but it does give a Big impact to me.

the world needs someone like me.. and someone like you! and that makes the world go round. cheerio people!

Persetankan Post#2- Usang

My 2nd post to Persetankan with topic "Usang".
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ish! BABI betul!!!

when i was in bali.. babi seems to be quite famous everywhere..
not only for the food, but a salon? definitely makes me think twice to enter.
just sharing this rare scene..something we don't see everyday in malaysia.


wow.. babi sounds very special at this restaurant.


need a haircut anyone?


this shot i managed to shoot from the car on our way to ubud.

pabila bedok berbunyi..

pabila bedok berbunyi.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

we were driving around KL and within split seconds i took out my camera and shot this from the car. Eka was driving and me being a co driver i get more chance during the slow traffic. The sky was indeed beautiful that day.. The moment i shot this it was not even azan yet, but the moment i load this pic the azan suddenly aired at my neighborhood. ironic..

Persetankan Post - Usang

Its been a while since i submitted any of my photos
to Persetankan.
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heartless soul.

heartless soul., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

sometimes i wonder if the shadow has soul,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow has feelings,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow could think,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow could speak,
sometimes i wonder if the shadow could see,
what happens if the shadow decided to leave me?

-when emotion speaks..

A "vel" day out!

I woke up as early as 4am for this event. I've always wanted to attend such event thats been awaited not only the Hindus, but as well as the tourists and photojournalists around the world.

It was definitely a new experience to witness the procession of vel kavadi along the route.

I felt nervous, eerie and fascinated with the scene. But with total respect towards culture, i managed to face my fear and be apart of the crowd and took some shots of the festive scenes.

The devotee must have super massive strength to bear such pain.
But once he entered a trance, no pain, no blood and no scars will be left behind.

Besides constant praying, fasting, the devotees also sleeping on floors and
abstaining from any entertainment towards the journey of the their sacred festive season.

Even the child shave their heads to undertake their pilgrimage
with their parents along the route while performing the vel kavadi.
I managed to capture this shot of a baby's head being shaven off while passing by the route.
Kids just don't fancy a haircut!

The lady devotee was very much into her sacred moment while carrying a pot of milk on her head.
Regardless the noise, the massive crowd and flashes of photograper around her,
she was still in her own world of procession that brought her into trance.

click here for larger versions, and here to wiki more on thaipusam.