When marshmallow talks..

teaser of my hip and happening couple

2011-06-28T14:07:00.001+08:00

Agaknya apakah yang terjadi kepada mereka? ternampak t-rex?

ok, untuk lebih pemahaman dan pembayang mari kita zoom sikit dekat wajah mereka yang sangat comel ini.. ekspresi yang mahal dan tak boleh jumpa pada mana mana pengantin..

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Gembiranyaa setelah selamat menjadi suami isteri..

disclaimer : pengantin-pengantin di luar sana. Jangan tiru aksi ini kerana anda bakal sakit kaki seminggu dan terjengket jengket atau mengganggu prestasi semasa berbulan madu.

ps: shikin and syariz, you guys are fun and cute.. thanks for being a sport! jangan marah.. kejap lagi i upload gambar-gambar yang ayu dan macho!

We are now on Facebook!

2011-02-21T14:23:00.003+08:00

Good news! my works can now be accessed on FB.. go checkout and be a fan today to get updated on recent works!

www.facebook.com/marshmallow.artsphotography

oh no!!!!

2011-02-21T11:44:00.002+08:00

sigh. relocating a new page :

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Marshmallow-Arts-Photography/127589043980355

Pls "like" if you love what you see..

FB Page has finally landed.

2011-02-19T08:43:00.007+08:00

Today, i created a profile banner for my FB page. Yay!! finally i have a page for my photography portfolio. Mr bf, sorry its not that you have not been inspiring enough for the past years. I know i should have had my own page to compile my photography portfolio.. ampun... i lembap!

Creating is one thing, but compiling 4-5 years of work is another thing. I will try and upload bits by bits.. The best thing about my page is, I will include the vendors details as well. So, its gonna be a good one stop landing page for b2bs (bride-to-bes).. its gonna give a good guide for me too as i'm planning for a wedding soon! arghh.. nothing much is moving.. don't remind me.

Anyways, here's the banner.. what d'ya think?

ouh btw, here's my page's URL. I need atleast 25 fans to have a better name for the URL. So, "Like" if you like what you see!

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Marshmallow-ArtsPhotography/103178263094646?sk=wall

46/365 | THIRSTY?

2011-02-04T20:37:00.001+08:00

46/365 | THIRSTY?, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

My first attempt on product shooting involving splash of water. Very experimental.. Perhaps an assistant would make the whole thing much easier..!

45/365 | WE'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER

2011-02-04T20:36:00.001+08:00

45/365 | WE'RE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I saw this dog wandering around the beach... I was afraid to go near by.. but obviously he was enjoying the water. i thought he was alone.. no he has company not far from him.. even dogs know how to be romantic!

44/365 | SENJA

2011-02-04T20:35:00.003+08:00

44/365 | SENJA, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Our weekend hideout brought us to Banting. This was shot at the fishermen's jetty, near Kelanang. I managed to get some fresh fish to bring home.

42/365 | O.K.U

2011-02-04T20:35:00.001+08:00

42/365 | O.K.U, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Saw this disabled monkey at the recreational park.. but never underestimate this fella'. He's faster than any others.. Minutes later i lost him. He swings from a tree to another. Don't ask how but he was super!

41/365 | LITTLE 'REMPITS'

2011-02-04T20:34:00.001+08:00

41/365 | LITTLE 'REMPITS', originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Kampung kids swaying left and right blocking our way.. couldn't complain much. It's THEIR territory. The real mat rempit in the making..

40/365 | YOU MAKE ME HIGH

2011-02-04T20:33:00.001+08:00

40/365 | YOU MAKE ME HIGH, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

39/365 | THE WAITING

2011-02-04T20:31:00.001+08:00

39|365f, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

We were strolling at the park and saw this lady sitting alone on a wooden bench.. this looks sad. perhaps waiting for someone.. or something better in her life. well all of us do..

38/365 | IT'S A GOOD DAY..

2011-02-04T20:30:00.001+08:00

38/365 | IT'S A GOOD DAY.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Phew.. it was ages! Life has been full of colors and chaos. Bitter and beautiful things take turns to fill my chapter of life.. And today is just too beautiful to waste. Lets go out and seize the day!

37/365 | TRIGGER ME..

2011-02-04T20:29:00.001+08:00

37/365 | TRIGGER ME.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

oh.. where do i start?
i've been in this position for too long.. its time to move on again.. anyone push me please..

36/365 | WISE MEN SAY..

2011-02-04T20:25:00.001+08:00

36/365 | WISE MEN SAY.., originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Life is not measured by the breath we take, but by the moments that take our breath away

35/365 | SOUND OF TRANQUILITY

2011-02-04T20:24:00.001+08:00

35/365 | SOUND OF TRANQUILITY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

It was raining a night before.. the sound of raindrops falling onto the leaves gave me a great excuse for sleep ins!

34/365 | HAPPY FEET

2011-02-04T20:23:00.001+08:00

34/365 | HAPPY FEET, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I had this photo dusty in my drive. I knew this project won't be as smooth as i expected. I was bonded with something and this is the kind of bond that makes me hate my life each day.. how i wish i could be as happy as these happy feet and run again.. Gimme back my life!

Anis + Faizal { Engagement }

2010-11-01T22:28:00.008+08:00

Its the first assignment after i resigned from the company. Damn I missed shooting and not worrying about waking up early on monday. Oh by the way, I'm back to to the stage.. Camera, lights.. Action!

Anis is a friend of an old client who is also referred by an older client :) She is also the cousin of my old client, haha. . Here i am saying, wherever i am on another assignment, there's always a bump into familiar faces. KL is not big anyway :)

I just love everything about the event, from the dress to the food. The dress is simple but gorgeous.. I just love how soothing the color is! To Anis and Faizal, congratulation for stepping into another phase.. You are 1 step away into becoming a man and wife..

YB Datuk Seri Mustapa Mohamed

Talented designer

2010-10-23T01:06:00.003+08:00

beautiful details

Another beautiful creation by Rizman Ruzaini ..
Beautiful bride : khadijah, bangi golf resort.

annoyingly sweet.

2010-10-19T18:18:00.007+08:00

I was not in a good mood the whole week. Work in the office sucks. I am on 2 jobs at the moment and it makes me a grumpy lady. But a girl needs to feed herself. One bad thing after another happened. The decision I made for coming back to office work did not turn out as expected. Being grumpy and stressful for a day is acceptable, but wen it occurs on daily basis you'll become insane! Mood swings turn me into an emo bitch! Yeah, i hate myself for being one. Nuff of office work, on the other hand I was cameraless for weeks. Weeks ago, the camera failed on me. Yeah, it sucks. Its even worse when you had to borrow one from your generous shutter buddies for an assignment. I'm not a huge fan of using other people's property when it comes to my assignment. Thanks to mac for loaning me one..

I have a wedding assignment in Penang that week but i'm not gonna blog it in this post but read on..

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I was at the airport with mr bf waiting for boarding. I wasn't in a mood to think about how my shooting will turn out later with a loaned camera. I usually don't talk that much when I'm in a bad mood. We sit at the departure hall. I remained silent, he talked like burung murai bombarded me with technical questions about camera. I answered one or two emotionless. I got pretty annoyed with it and grabbed the camera trying to divert my attention to the camera menu instead of answering mr bf's techy questions. He still talks and talks like no one's business. I picked the camera and peeped through the viewfinder, acting like i was busy testing the camera. He couldn't stop talking and i wasn't paying attention at all to what he said. "Ish mamat ni takleh stop bercakap ke?? arghh!!"

Suddenly he stopped talking .. "at last... reti pun dia ni stop membebel.. phew.." I sighed in relief and seconds later something blocked my viewfinder and disturbed my focusing.. "okkay, what's next?????!!! saja nak buat aku marah tau!" i was about to burst in anger.. but..

Wanna know what's blocking the view?????

keep guessing..

okay.. only if my face was captured at that time.. my jaw almost dropped, i was choking air and speechless at the same time. No words could ever describe how i felt at that time.

suddenly he broke the silent... and asked me a simple english word. I remained speechless for a moment trying to answer in a simplest word possible but failed to utter it. I did wish i learned sign language at that time...

I can only afford to smile and nod..

Like a romantic chic flick scene, surrounded by strangers at the airport he slip the ring into my finger.. my eyes teared in joy.. and guilt at the same time! guilt BIG time, i tell you!

The ring was one size bigger and I decided not to wear it on my finger but somewhere closer to my heart..

I get the trick why he was being supper annoying.
Thank you mr bf! You are uberly irritatingly sweet!!

A definitely a day to remember..

from Penang with joy..

2010-10-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

After ais kacang, laksa penang, cucur udang, mi kuah, nasi minyak, rojak buah and list goes on, we headed across the bridge hoping it won’t rain for the outdoor portrait. The couple was in a good mood, accompanied by bunch of girls. Our first pit stop was the old buildings near standard chartered bank. Shima insisted to have her photos in front of the standard chartered bank, a special pose tribute to her boss. Boss, give her a break .. The couple needs their honeymoon, first.

To the lovely couple and lovely gals, enjoy the photos, am sure if we were there a bit earlier more crazy ideas would come out as Hussien was just about to warm his engine.

Achtung baby!

2010-06-08T12:26:00.005+08:00

The June issue of FACES magazine is finally out! I haven't got the chance to go to the mag store and get a copy myself. Here is what i get from the photographer. To Peter and crew, thanks for the fun session. You are the bapak ayam, you are the man! To the makeup crew, thanks for making me look prettier than any other days.. you guys are awesome.

And last but not least, to FACES magazine, thanks for featuring me and the rest of the gorgeous photographers.

Now, i want to go to the mag store and grab a copy!

I do..

2010-06-08T11:16:00.005+08:00

I was once said, "being a wedding photographer, how would i look myself in a wedding gown? It must be funny to finally be in it!"

i wouldn't imagine myself to be in it this soon until someone called me to actually feature me in a magazine with 9 other female wedding photographer. I was ok with that idea until he mentioned to me about the theme and concept. "Yes, fatini you have to be in a wedding gown with a camera in your hands". My jaw dropped for seconds. I was thrilled, nervous and excited at the same time. Well you don't encounter people coming to you saying hey, i'd like to feature you in a magazine as "top 10 female photographer in malaysia" everyday. This chance might come only once in a lifetime. At that time i realized i just have to say.. "I do"

It was short noticed, the photoshoot was held a week after. The best thing was i get the chance to choose the gown myself and the best person to bring over is my bff. We had a great time in the fitting room trying. I remembered trying almost all on the shelf that i can fit. Damn you need to be skinny to be a bride. I think i manage to fit only 8-10 out of 20 dresses. Damn you fats! Contemplating 2 dresses in mind. I need to shed off few pounds to fit in the first one, well who wants to look fat in her wedding gown right? Its really beautiful with multiple layers. You do feel like a bride but its not easy to walk in it. The second one is an elegant skinny flair dress which looks more comfortable on me. Very naive, innocent and humble. I think that is more me. Innocent? Not really, but humble yes. So i opted for the second one. Wedding gowns are from "That Special Occasion". Thanks to Kris and crew for the awesome dresses and entertaining my silly requests.

Here are some syok sendiri poses! The selection :

The next is the photoshoot and to have more fun!

33/365 | OUR JOURNEY

2010-06-07T13:10:00.000+08:00

33/365 | OUR JOURNEY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

We had a great time in banting. The outdoor session was awesome! The weather and the beach were beautiful, so is the couple.
More from this session :
blog.fatiniz.com/?p=853

32/365 | DIVINE

2010-06-06T13:10:00.000+08:00

32/365 | DIVINE, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

From my client's solemnization ceremony in banting.

31/365 | ONE MAN SHOW

2010-06-05T13:06:00.000+08:00

31/365 | ONE MAN SHOW, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

30/365 | TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE

2010-06-04T11:56:00.001+08:00

30/365 | TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

So maybe its true,
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one

But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one.....

~boys like girls.

29/365 | BAND OF BROTHERS

2010-06-03T10:35:00.002+08:00

29/365 | BAND OF BROTHERS, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

don't ask me about the last bird. somehow his head got shot by me! kapowww!! lol.

28/365 | SOCIALIZE

2010-06-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

28/365 | SOCIALIZE, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Been staying home for a week without outside contact. I guess i should go out and rub shoulders with friends too..

27/365 | TO THE UNKNOWN

2010-06-01T10:58:00.002+08:00

27/365 | TO THE UNKNOWN, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

saw this abandoned stairs in the woods . Looks eerie but a good subject to capture. I reckon it must be an abandoned see-saw.. Looks too creepy to be called a recreational park.

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This image was nominated for a Flickr Forest Group and to my surprise it was voted as top 3! Thanks to all who's voted :)

check this out :
http://www.flickr.com/groups/myfavoeriteforest/discuss/72157624011109581/

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26/365 | IN LOVE

2010-05-31T14:28:00.001+08:00

26/365 | IN LOVE, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Saturday i was hurt, sunday i recovered and monday i'm in love! shalala..

Divine Contract.

2010-05-30T11:27:00.015+08:00

After a so called ‘holiday’, today, i’m back to work :)

The world has to be fair to everyone else. When i get to enjoy my charamel machiato on weekdays in jeans and tshirt, the rest is facing desktop in a concrete bulding in formal wear. However, today is my turn to pull up my sleeve and work while everyone is still sle...eping in their pj on their comfy bed enjoying the public holiday. Its Wesak Day today. I didn’t realize until I saw a very clear traffic (which is a very very rare scene to see) on my way to my client’s place. How I wished everyday is like today.

It feels good to be back to shooting. Edana Melissa is my cousin’s friend. Thanks Aida for recommending me to her. This again proves that the world is not that big anyway. For the nth time, I get to meet someone I knew or somehow connected direct or indirectly to me. It was a pleasure working with you and reza. It is always fun to shoot jovial couples like them. Reza is a funny guy. I heard his friend uttered, no one will ever befriended reza if he is not funny due to his serious look. Well, I did not feel a stranger even though this is the first time we’ve met. Too bad I am not able to cover Edana’s reception tonight at Felda Villa. I’m sure it’s a gonna be a beautiful garden wedding. You’ll be in good hands. See you guys next week!

25/365 | BANQUET

2010-05-30T09:39:00.000+08:00

25/365 | BANQUET, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Fruit fiesta. Its time to party!

The musings

2010-05-29T12:26:00.002+08:00

Hello world! It feels ages since i wrote anything lengthy here. I have always loved blogging. I used to blog everyday, sometimes 2 to 3 posts per day That was then when i was working in the office. Not to say i was bone idle, sit and do nothing better than blogging but the urge of writing was spirited by the fact that you will still get your paycheck the next month if you feel a bit lazy that day to work. On a contrary, being my own boss gives me no time to cheat. No more updating ‘what movie i watch today’ or ‘who i bumped into today’ kinda posts.

Its been 3 years since i last worn the 3 piece suit and high heels and sit in an air-conditioned concrete building for 8 hours or more and worry about my blistered feet. Yes, I detached myself from the organization about 3 year plus ago to do photography fulltime. Being able to wear flip flops, jeans and tshirt is the best thing i’ve ever done in my life besides being able to work your passion as a career. Photography used to be my love affair until I decided to get married to it and pursue as my professional career. I never regret the decision I’ve made, instead I feel so blessed with the hidden talent I never knew I had. Thank god. Years go by so quickly. I have had 3 wonderful years of flexi hours, being able to workout in the morning till noon, shopping when there is not much people in a shopping mall, watching movies without having to stand in a long queue for tickets and do my editings on a comfy couch with a caramel machiato on my side accompanied by jazzy music all day long. But the grass is always greener on the other side no matter on which side of the earth you are standing. Why am I saying this? Have I lost passion in photography now? Definitely No. No way. Never. Am I joining the workforce again? Perhaps. Even though how much I hate to be in the rat race.

So what is the issue now? There is always 2 sides to every story. One day, I realized how tired I am. At some point I told myself, maybe I just need a time off from this commitment or probably go for a holiday. Don’t take any photoshoot assignments for a mo and just relax. Let the camera hibernate for a month or two. But did it really rest? Haha. No. But yes, I paused myself from taking any jobs for few months, but I did some personal project so called shoot-anything-crappy-everyday. This sounds funny but surprisingly this is a good therapy and it really feeds my soul. This project reminds me how i fell in love with photography the first time. The project still continues and I made a vow to myself that this will go on for 365 days. Looks like I am jumping into a more serious commitment? Haha. But this is a fun commitment. No one will penalize me, its just me and my wild imaginary ideas.

I hope i did answer the question from those people who emailed me asking why i did not post new photos lately. The temporary absence allow me to take a deep breath, inhale with deep thinking and exhale with new ideas and decide what I want to do next. I’m glad I have found the solution

23/365 | TERRITORIAL

2010-05-29T12:25:00.001+08:00

23/365 | TERRITORIAL, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

This bird got my eyes glued. He was busy eating his meal at the same time the gesture is showing a clear statement to the others not to come any nearer. This is MY territory. So buzz off!

24/365 | JOY

2010-05-29T12:20:00.000+08:00

24/365 | JOY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Its been a while since i last seen a joy like this. well atleast this makes my day :)

-taken from my client session yesterday morning

22/365 | I HATE WAITING

2010-05-27T10:32:00.002+08:00

22/365 | I HATE WAITING, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

And no one does!

21/365 | TIMID

2010-05-26T10:58:00.002+08:00

21/365 | TIMID, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

i'd call myself one too!

20/365 | VAIN

2010-05-26T10:56:00.002+08:00

20/365 | VAIN, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

..a natural poser..

19/365 | MONDAY MORNING

2010-05-24T09:36:00.002+08:00

19/365 | MONDAY MORNING, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Rise and shine! Freshen up and start your day with a smile. Have a good day everyone! (even though i'm bonked in bed with headache!)

18/365 | SELF CENTERED

2010-05-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

18/365 | SELF CENTERED, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

I couldn't think of any better caption for this. The moment i see this him, he was looking arrogantly straight at me. Very strong in character, bold and egoistic.

17/365 | STREET CAT II

2010-05-23T20:04:00.002+08:00

17/365 | STREET CAT II, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

i'm back!! i got my camera back.. i know it has to kitty subject again. being cameraless for a week made my creative brain freeze without idea. There's too much in mind. There's too much time spent on putting bits and pieces together. Yes, I am about to make a big decision but GOD knows.. in a mean time, here's a my 17th.

16/365 | BAD DREAMS

2010-05-07T16:03:00.002+08:00

16/365 | BAD DREAMS, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Last night i had a very bad dream. They say superstitiously its not good to share bad dreams with people. But today, i want to share my crazy dreams with you. Maybe it was the late night movie i watched before bed. Or maybe i was disturbed by the shocking news that people commit murders with no mercy these days. Sad to say, there is no single day on the news without any murder cases.

15/365 | REST-LESS

2010-05-06T13:13:00.002+08:00

15/365 | REST-LESS, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

It was a tiring day.. or lazy is a better word to describe my day. Had a nice 6km morning run. I'm not physically tired due the run, but my body demanded the rest. Tried to do some work today to kill my guilt but my brain stops functioning so i decided to lie down and read something fun. I guess i was just restless.. or rest-less??!! i let the hormones speak for today..

14/365 | ABANDONED

2010-05-04T20:23:00.002+08:00

14/365 | ABANDONED, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

abandoned stack of carbonated drinks hiding behind a huge trunk. i love the classy colors of the coke bottles and how they were stacked on top of each other by those rustic rotten zinc.

13/365 | RETAIL THERAPY

2010-05-02T09:59:00.000+08:00

13/365 | RETAIL THERAPY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Sometimes it puts a hole in your pocket to earn temporary dose of happiness. Yes, it was the day i had my retail therapy. Now i can stretch my legs ogling at the handbag and worry next month.

12/365 | OFF DAY

2010-05-01T09:33:00.001+08:00

12/365 | OFF DAY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Even a famous sup ayam kampung restaurant needs a holiday. We are close today. Happy Labour Day!!

11/365 | MEMORABILIA

2010-04-30T13:11:00.002+08:00

11/365 | MEMORABILIA, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

reminiscing old memories with an old toy. polaroid rawks!

10/365 | GOING NANAS

2010-04-29T11:54:00.003+08:00

10/365 | GOING NANAS, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

known as a good mood food. Satisfy sugar cravings for its natural sweetness. A great source of post-exercise snack. It gives you the energy you need. So, have you have your dose of bananas today?

tips: To ripen a banana faster, it should be put in a brown paper bag with an apple or tomato overnight.

9/365 | ENVY

2010-04-28T11:42:00.003+08:00

9/365 | ENVY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

ok, looks like everyone is getting themselves into full frame. one after another. when is my turn?? don't leave me alone!! I hate you full frame buddies!!!

8/365 | STREET CAT

2010-04-27T10:29:00.002+08:00

8/365 | STREET CAT, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

There's a lot of cats around my neighborhood. I love to make cat counts during my morning jog. Some belongs to neighbors and most just strays. But surprisingly enough, the stray looks like other local strays but with longer hair.. talking about persion who escapes late night mating with strays.. they do produce good breeds too!

7/365 | LAUNDRY DAY

2010-04-26T13:21:00.002+08:00

7/365 | LAUNDRY DAY, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

Mom was away for few days to the hometown. Erm, apparently she'll be back today. I think its critical for me to do the laundry today before someone lectures about the 2010 laundry act. lol.

Its laundry time!!

6/365 | EVER.AFTER

2010-04-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

6/365 | EVER.AFTER, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

An outdoor wedding assignment over the weekend.
Location : Taman Botani, Putrajaya

5/365 | INNOCENCE

2010-04-24T12:57:00.000+08:00

5/365 | INNOCENCE, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

A random kid photo during my job assignment.. Kids are just naturally beautiful no matter how they are. Do you buy this? well i guess i do..

4/365 | GO HOME

2010-04-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

4/365 | GO HOME, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

It is Friday. The most awaited day by most people especially to those who works in the office.

Some look forward to it to party, some goes home to the family and start planning for weekends.. It means nothing to me. Its just like any other day. Am i gonna look forward to friday soon? will it change? depends.

3/365 | TRAPPED

2010-04-22T12:19:00.001+08:00

3/365 | TRAPPED, originally uploaded by marshma11ow.

This squirrel must be scared outa shit but pretending cool. one hairy monster was watching (my cat, lolly) and i was just ready with my camera silently waiting for the right moment to snap. He looked in style planning his strategy. The front door was shut and there's no way out unless he passed us through and jump to the backdoor. This is one hella brave one. He jumped and run as fast as he can to the back door even lolly neither i could catch him. bravo!

2/365 | EMPTY.VAGUE

2010-04-21T08:28:00.003+08:00

Yes, the mood is still unstable. Things are still messy in my head. Everything seems unclear at the moment. Life is empty and no promise if tomorrow would be better.

This my 2nd crappy shot for the project.

1/365 | WALKING AWAY

2010-04-20T10:03:00.008+08:00

i have always wanted to join the project365. A pool joined by flickr group members who are committed enough to post one photo a day to the pool. I have already registered in 2008 if i'm not mistaken but i wasn't discipline enough to shoot and upload everyday without fail. Hence, the project was a failure for me. This guy has inspired me again to rejoin the group. You can check his 365 journey here.

I have not uploaded images as much as i used to in flickr. Had my own sets of viewer before.. (yeah during the glorious years. lol) but that was back then. My flickr page is dull and lifeless now.

When your hobby becomes your fulltime job, you lost that sense of simplicity of life where simple big deal shots don't matter anymore. This is the lackness that i'm trying to gain back.. i want to shoot something that might not look important and make it important, in other word, start appreciating them again and start shooting crappy things again! i miss that a lot.

Lolly (my pussy) is not the greatest subject to shoot. She's lazy, not coorperating, dull and boring. I knew i couldn't get any decent shot of her. The moment i put her in frame, she walks away and left me out of focus. here's my first crappy shot of the day.. lets pray i will shoot something better tomorrow.

becoming a foodie?

2010-02-18T01:29:00.005+08:00

I love to eat. But I don't have time to cook. I'm always keen in doing a simple cooking with beautiful garnish.

This is something I'm looking forward to do. Food photography. It looks easy, but its so damn tricky. To make food looks tempting is not as easy as pressing the shutter. But i took the challenge this time. Thanks to Attick Multimedia for giving me the opportunity.

We planned to hold it in a studio at first, but apparently we had to change location as my client told me the food needs to be cook and prepared. The photoshoot took place at my client's resident finally.

Again, i have expected the long hour and the tricky part. Photographing food is very technical. You have to consider the ambiance, considering for natural or artificial lighting and everything is manual. I know there's a lot more to learn.. I'm a newbie in this area but I'm loving it. This is something i want to do again and again. Not forgetting, we get to eat the food too! :)

Tresspassers will be prosecuted.

2010-02-16T17:01:00.007+08:00

Male cats love coming over and check on lolly. I always chase them before they got the chance to pass by the gate! LOL. Stray cats don't dare to enter when i'm around. I don't like seeing them coming and loitering on our grass and leave some smelly 'gift' on it.

I hope this is not a sign of a possessive parent to be. No i'm not. I love freedom. As much as i don't like to be controlled by my parents, I hope i can be a good parents someday without over controlling my kids.

ok i guess i have to try to be a bit lenient to lolly. She needs friends too. Talking about parenthood, well i'm not a master of it. Not yet, atleast.

Milk, anyone?

2010-02-16T15:51:00.003+08:00

I was testing the lastolite kit i borrowed from a friend. I must say i LOVE this item. I HEART it! Its definitely gonna be on my next item in the list. Surprisingly enough, whats into lolly? She's been kind enough to sit motionless without scratching her butt (thats what she always do!) for more than 5 mins! Thats a great achievement. Good job lolly!

Fresh Milk. Good for kitty, good for you.

need a haircut, anyone?

2010-02-13T14:58:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh.. Have not been writing as frequent as i wished to! First of all, Happy 2010, Happy Birthday to me.. Happy Thaipusam, Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines Day!

I will try to write as much as i can this year.. sigh. I know again another weak vow. I hate to use the word 'busy' again, but most of the thing that contributed to that word resides here.

Some of you might know that i do have a cat. This lil comot darling of mine is getting less and less attention from the boss these days. If she can talk she'd have yelled and shouted how desperately she needs a shower.

Okay, after procrastinating more than a month, i gave my cat a shower and a new haircut. The bushy tail really needs a trim as she loves wagging especially to my face. Okay, not so hygiene there. Here it comes, an inhouse expert who hardly takes care of her own locks.

My kitty and her new look.

Coffeetable book anyone?

2010-02-12T15:15:00.001+08:00

I've always wanted to create a coffeetable book for myself, as in for my own keep. I want to document my travelogue and my personal masterpieces in a book. Again being a great and successful procrastinator makes its just a word year after year.

This time, i get the chance to test how the photos look in a form of a book. I was on an assignment and required to document an event for Malakoff in a coffeetable book form. I was skeptic at first. The template i downloaded wasn't convincing enough because i don't get to see the outcome like how i see in photoshop. Well we will never know until we try. Everything is done online, from the payment method to the process of uploading the photos. They can even deliver it to you at your doorstep, of course with an additional charges. But i decided to selfpick. Not being a cheapskate, but i'd love to meet the person i'm dealing with and look for some other samples too.

I was quite surprised with the outcome! It turned out so profesionally. Even though the people incharged of assigning me this job didn't give any feedbacks or comments as i wished (i even asked) for, but i think i know i did a good job. The printing company contacted me via email and ask me if they can use the cover page i did for Malakoff for their official website in the ideas section. It was delightful for me. Thanks to mom's backyard and her brilliant plant.

Sometimes, we just need to think outside of the box and create something a lil bit more creative regardless with a very limited resources.

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i need sugar!

2010-02-08T17:41:00.001+08:00

I was stressed out with work and its hard keeping people around you happy. Overloading datelines and dealing with client's requests sometimes drives me nuts! It drains me out totally. But i know at the end of the day, seeing the smile upon their face is the biggest reward could possibly be.

Hang on clients.. your albums will be ready soon! In a mean time, a shot of this boost my energy and keep me sane to think creatively. Thanks Mr Haagy!

the morning sweat.

2010-02-02T11:22:00.001+08:00

My nike ipod sensor is running low in batt.. again. I wonder why the lifespan is too short considering i'm not a heavy runner as i used to. Me testing the new sportypal on my iphone..

Thaipusam 2010

2010-01-30T18:02:00.001+08:00

The first time i shot Thaipusam was about 3 years ago. At that time, i told myself its not gonna be anymore of it. The fact of the massive crowd and the bad traffic makes me think twice about going.

This year, i just knew i need to do it again. My shutterbug buddies did think of going but most did not keen enough when it comes to rise early and fighting for a parking. Fine, I decided a night before to do it no matter what even if i had to go alone. I think i need to get my adrenaline rush and fall in love with photography again. Being tied with wedding shoots and back to back shooting assignments makes me like a machine. I need to get my groove back before i become a trigger happy shooter. LOL.

Was accompanied by a non-photog friend who don't mind experiencing the culture. Its not something that easy to capture a good scene whilst having to fight for air. I was squeezing myself among thousands of devotees, photographers and tourists around the world who were there to witness the ritual offerings to lord murugan.

I did not regret doing this, again.

ayu (in english it means "beauty")

2009-10-21T14:23:00.003+08:00

My August client, Ayu & Aziz. I wasn’t able to handle this client as i have another shooting in Penang on the same day. Thanks to Nadia for the brilliant pictures.

photos by nadia, edit by me :)

the undefeatable.

2009-10-18T23:42:00.003+08:00

I was editing these photos from our photoshoot outing today till my small nephew sat and pop out a question.. "su buat apa ni" The character looks interesting enough to this 8 year old boy.. and yes, he's a big fan of swords, guns and villains! then i started a story to this young afif..

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"the investigation of the murder case of the fighting clan. Featuring ralphie russo, the pretender (an undercover cop with disguised as a brutal mafia), rea mancini as the cat-eyes unbeatable mysterious mafia (scared no death) and beautiful cunning monica de'marco from the forensic department with no limit IQ!"

(bukan nama sebenar!)
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sigh.. I am just the photographer.. ahh.. i wished i'm a film director.. stop dreaming and get back to work!! hahah..

too much of mafia wars?

to my photographer buddies and mr organizer.. u r da man!

kiddo!

2009-10-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

budak ini kuat makan, ok!

(translation) this girl is a big eater!

wanna have a stroll with me?

2009-10-14T02:20:00.005+08:00

It was cloudy. It did drizzle. We crossed our fingers and still hit the location hoping it was just false alarm. My assistant told us the weather forecast he googled this morning says it won't rain in kl. But it did drizzle a drop or two. As time reaches 6pm, the sun started to shine a lil and thats the best time to capture my wedding couple, imam and dayah.. the mood was set, the view was undeniably breathtaking and hey, the most important thing is we had a great time!

checkout a better view here.

get addicted baby!

2009-10-13T09:48:00.005+08:00

i tell you no joke.. this thing is really addictive! it keeps me running and wanna run more.. looking for a better way to keep fit? get addicted, cos' its wayy better than weed!

for more info about this thang, click here.

when rojak meets cendol...

2009-10-13T09:30:00.003+08:00

10 October 2009 – Located at Pinggiran Batu Cave, here’s a joyful celebration of Imam and Dayah. Its my first wedding client since Ramadhan.. stamina was a bit out due to rendangs, ketupats and what not.. i was still in a syawal mood. Missed one open house but my duty comes first! the bride and groom’s aura was good. food was scrumptious.. it feels good to be shooting again.. i repeat, the rojak and cendol were simply awesome!

stay tuned for their outdoor photoshoot!

Selamat Hari Raya!

2009-10-12T11:28:00.011+08:00

That day.. we finally manage to do the procrastinated photoshoot due to my back injuries. Oh yeah we were supposed to do it during ramadhan for hari raya portrait. Thanks kak jua for being so understanding. At last.. we finally made it!

By the way, hope its not too late to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya!

Location : Taman Botani, Putrajaya

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Pulau Pinang here i come!

2009-10-01T11:13:00.001+08:00

This was so much fun! Fazlin & Adzim.. checkout their interesting story here. And more photos of this couple's solemnization here.

just because..

2009-09-30T12:57:00.002+08:00

just because i work at home, doesn't mean i'm having leisure time..
just because i'm doing my own business, doesn't mean i have lots of cash..
just because i'm quiet, doesn't mean i'm being ignorant..
just because i talk little, doesn't mean i'm anti social..
just because i don't clarify, doesn't mean i'm guilty or wronged..
just because i choose to silent, doesn't mean i have no feelings..
just because i don't fight back, doesn't mean you or your friends can judge me as you wish..
just because i choose to be doubtful, doesn't mean i don't trust you.

work my ass.

2009-08-17T21:48:00.005+08:00

I was advised to do more hillwork in my running regime although he knows i curse without fail when it comes to one. For a more good looking legs and buttocks.. thats the trick! So, i took the challenge. The first time when i did the hillwork at Bukit Kiara Park.. I was like.. what the...???!! Damn i think the stretch is longer and steeper than the famous double hill nearby Lake Garden. My heartbeat was jumping hard it al felt like bursting. I ended up walking all the way up.

I wasn't feeling well today. I had temperature this morning as i went to the clinic this morning the doc said i had fever. I really wanted to push my body and see if my body can fight the virus naturally.. by running. Some says its stupid and you should not run during fever.. but i'm gonna have to try anyway, well if i couldn't run, i'll walk.

So we went to the same hill again. The moment i reached Bukit Kiara Park, it started to rain. bummer. We decided to wait for a bit hoping the rain would stop. I can see other joggers with umbrella walking and some decided to wait in the car.. The rain didn't totally stop, it drizzled so we decided to just give it a go. half way up, the rain started to pour again.. harder. We kept on running. There were no other runners just some folks walking with umbrella giving us strange look. They must have thought we are 2 insane people running under the rain on a hill.. not a good idea? hell it actually feels great! i watched my step carefully.. the path was slippery but i keep myself in focus and keep my breathing right. We finished a nice 5km and hey.. we are so going again tomorrow!

my bums sore!

heroic cat.

2009-08-17T21:41:00.002+08:00

i was thrilled to find out there's a cat sleeping erm.. taking a nap on a tyre underneath a car in front of kedai mamak i had my cheese naan after my run in ttdi. Presenting.. the heroic cat a.k.a kucing berani mati!!!

midnight drift.

2009-08-15T01:45:00.001+08:00

Life is too mundane. I need a lil drama in life.. not too much.

2009-08-03T12:44:00.001+08:00

Life has been SUPER MEGA busy. I miss blogging, i miss running, i miss swimming while other people is busy working in the office.

My Running journal!

2009-06-30T15:42:00.004+08:00

I made it in may and i made it in june!

An evenin with lil lazy doped kitty!

2009-06-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

lolly.. the only thing you know is eat, sleep, eat and sleep. She's totally doped when i shot this. No matter how i tried to turn her body around and pull her whiskers she still sleeps like no one's business! Ouh lazy cat!!

My first 10k!! - SUNDOWN MARATHON!

2009-06-03T13:32:00.008+08:00

We drove to Singapore in Kash's mpv with her kids and maid. Its been too long for me to remember the last time i went to singapore using the land route. We departed at 8.30pm and estimated to reach singapore at 12++. I slept almost the whole journey but i can still listen to all the conversation in the car. Tido2 ayam la kot. Kash was fresh enough to drive the whole journey. Lucky the co-pilot was awake too to talk and accompany her. We reached at her resident in Clementi Avenue around 1.30am. We could've been arrived earlier but documents and passport verification at the immigration took longer than usual. Security is pretty strict as compared to the last time i came here. Kash and Rais were kind enough to allow us to stay at her crib. They have nice spacious double storey apartment. Well designed yet simple.

The next morning we had a nice 5km run around the neighborhood. There's a nice canal walk underneath a bridge for joggers. Tested my new running tights.. it felt good so far. We went home for breakfast, freshen up and getting ready for the day.. Window shopping at peninsula plaza.. ogling and drool over some lenses and camera stuffs, rashid went to Feder Sports to eye some sports stuffs. Good price.. Too bad we did not plan to come to singapore to shop but i guess i'll definitely come back to get some cool sport stuffs here. Shoes are definitely cheaper here. Not all models are available in KL. From Peninsula Plaza we commute to Novena Square to see whats there at Velocity. Its a mall of sports and adventure equipments i might say..

We came back around 4pm and rest for a bit while watching some dvd before tonight's marathon. We were a bit tired and got carried away till we realised it was already 7pm! 1 and a half hour to race. Things got a lil messy and hay wired. We left the house at 7.30pm. we literally running to the mrt station. 1 hour to go.. Rashid bought a wrong ticket. We were supposed to alight at Pasiris station and take a shuttle bus to Changi point. Instead he bought to Tanah Merah. We alight at Tanah Merah station and decided to turn back and buy a ticket to Pasiris till we saw 2 girls in sundown marathon vest. We decided to ask them for confirmation and they were actually bought wrong tickets too. Four of us decided to share one cab and get to changi point. Its already 8pm. Half an hour to go , we argued with the cabby on routes as he wasn't sure where to drop us. Neither do we. I was nervous, antsy at the same time. Took out my powerbar and grab a bite. Haven't been eating and drinking sufficiently since last night. I better leave them arguing as i'm in no position to direct them on directions. We finally reached the starting point with the help of runners.. the ultra marathoners started the race earlier.. so we followed their trails. 8.25pm.. 5 mins before the race.. i need to pee badly. Hahah.. damn. Jumped over the fence, rushed to the toilet and ahhhh.. From the toilet i heard the emcee counting down the race.. in 8,7,6,5.. I ran out and jumped over the fence.. 4,3,2... reached the starting point just on time for the race.. we walked in grace.. the crowd was massive..... 1... breeep! the race starts and i began to feel the rush of adrenaline.. excited at the same time.. I was glad i peed.

I kept my pace slow.. consistently running. The weather was good. The night was breezy but the large crowd made me grasping for air. I increased my speed, overtook some runners just to get some space to breathe. It felt good all through 5km. Some runners began to walk.. but i keep on running. My throat felt so dry. where's the god damn water station? I thought it was supposed to be at 5km point? 2 km passed by.. the water station was actually at the 7th km. I was so thirsty. After i quenched my thirst i kept on running for the next 3km.. The path was a bit narrow and it was a bit bottle neck at some point. 1 hour passed and i have 1km to go.. keep my breathing slow.. gosh, the closer it gets to the finishing point the longer it seems to end. Rashid gave me words of motivation.. "just a lil bit more.. come on you can do it!" My knee started to weakened but i kept on running.. 500m, 400m, 300m.. i get slower.. mental siot! 200m.. the crowd was cheering to the finishing line.. 100m... my knee wobble. That was the longest 100m for me.. i pushed it and I MADE IT! i made it in 1hr 8mins.. the feeling was good. i bet it even hundred times better if doing the full marathon.. but i deserve to feel good even though its just a 10km run. I managed to run all through 10km without stopping. And to finish.. That matters! I finished my first 10km race. I just started running a month ago and regardless my knee injuries i had years back.. and not forgetting i stopped running since secondary school and never ran eversince.. I'm proud of myself for being able to do this.. i do. But 1 thing i missed was to capture the scene. I did not bring my dslr and not even any recording devices. I don't have any memories of me running to bring back. Just these two tired shots as we got home and rest our bum..

oh by the way, for the record.. had minor chafing on my ass.. next time i should consider undies or vaseline under my tights.

Sundown Marathon here i come!!

2009-05-29T20:34:00.001+08:00

approximately 24 hours to go..

Adidas Warehouse Sales!

2009-05-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

As early as 9.30am we were already qeueing outside atria mall in PJ. I don’t remember the last time i went to any warehouse sales. I’ve never been to adidas warehouse sales or any sports warehouse sales. I used to opt for perfume, lingery or branded item sales but this time around i really need some sports activity attire.. erm in a mark down price tags!

Crowd was massive and growing each minutes. Aren’t they supposed to be at work at this hour??? I bet hundreds of lame excuses comes out this morning to their bosses.. and maybe MCs too. As the mall’s shutter opens at 10am, men and women embushed and chase themselves to the warehouse area. Gosh! buruk betul perangai.. we just walked in grace tanakla tunjuk gelojoh sangat!

We were released into the sales area batch by batch. The security was quite strict. I saw some familiar faces among adidas sales people. Hey i used to photoshoot them before for an adidas event! Ok, back to the sales.. items were piled based on sizes. Well, they will all be messed and jumbled up in less than an hour! Since we were among the first batch to come in, the items were still in order. In less than 30mins my XL plastic was full with tops, bags, caps and tights. Thats the way.. grab first, decide later!

I’ve got myself a nice techfit running tights and 3 vests for running, a nice stella mccartney blouse collection, arm pouch for my ipod, sling bag, cap and a hat. Everything for RM220.Thats after unloading 3/4 of the things i grabbed earlier. I intended to buy only the things i need. It was a good purchase!! The techfit tight itself costs more than RM200 at normal price. Me happy bunny! Adidas warehouse sale was really worth our energy and time!

Can't wait to test my tights at the singapore sundown marathon!!

A nice 8km run.

2009-05-26T15:38:00.003+08:00

I was supposed to shoot our PM launching the FELDA rally this morning. That means i had to wake up super early to make sure i reached Dewan Felda before Najib arrives. Unfortunately the shooting was canceled at a very last minute. Bummer no pocket money for me.. but yay! i can sleep in again today. However, regardless no early morning shoot, the weather this morning is too good to waste. 7.30am i was getting ready to have my morning run. Since i only manage to push for less that 3km yesterday (my body felt so weak yesterday, the sweat taste weird and my ankle still hurt), i decided to run more today..

The moment i reached my run spot, lots of cars filling the parking area. The space was almost full, but most are apeks and nyonyas enjoying the morning breeze walking. Most of 'em were familiar faces. Greeted each other and exchanging smiles among new faces. I didn't see any solo runners besides myself. I am used to running alone. What i need is my ipod and good music.. Most friends are working at that hour.. But i don't mind, seriously. Running is my self-therapy.. I don't have enough stamina to run and talk at the same time anyway. I'll be a passive listener when i am running with a talkative runner! lol.

I ran slowly at a constant speed.. as time passed by, people became lesser and lesser. Maybe went back to continue their routine life. A group of veteran men went back to their wives, the young one went to their offices.. all with different lifestyle and routines.

On the other hand, i myself continued my run. Knowing that i have nothing to look forward to at home and to go back this soon and waste the beautiful morning.. I'd rather stay a lil longer and continue running. After a while, i didn't see anymore joggers except for lawn mower,lake maintenance people and some fishing addicts. The same indonesian lady i see everyday sweeping dried leaves.. and the same middle-aged male foreign worker trimming trees and shrubs. Wow, it takes stamina too to maintain the lake area.

I enjoyed the view of the scenic lake, the smell of fresh grasses being mowed, the sound of bird chirping, the same lil buddy crossing in front of me at the very same spot - the baby alligator that freaked me out the first time we bumped into each other. Now, i'll be like.. "hey lil buddy!". The smell of fallen frangipani along the path of the track was strong.. even stronger at night. I never dared to walk there at night again after creepy rumors from one of the runners some time back. "Tempat ni keras sikit.. dulu ada org penah kena bunuh kat sini.." (this place is haunted. someone was murdered here before). The story got my neck hair stood still and hell it was eerie! During day time, i'm okay with it. Like now.. i'm enjoying every moment of it. My ankle is fine today.. no more blisters on my right toes.. the injinji socks helped a lot except for the one on the left. It was torn and one of my toe keeps rubbing against the inner shoes. I am going to buy one toe socks.. but injinji seems to be overprice! $50 for a pair! I'll get one from sox world for less than $20.

I am reaching 8km and decided to complete that loop and go back. I guess its a good achievement for me. From 3km - 5km - 6km - 8km. All within less than a month. I am pretty happy that i am able to gradually increase my distance. Not drastically! I don't think i can increase my speed for now. What matters to me is endurance and to be able to maintain a constant speed. Good enough.

My running top is soaking wet. Its time to go back, freshen up and recharge.

new look!

2009-05-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

white or black.. I am still me..

(i actually screwed my old template! darn!)

Pacesetters' Putrajaya Night Run

2009-05-24T12:23:00.004+08:00

I would call it a fun run or mingle run. We reached putrajaya almost 8.30pm and most runners had already registered. Some were warming up. Some were already dripping sweat. Wah.. didn't look like a fun run to me. They are serious runners and familiar faces among pacesetters members. There were kids too, so it shouldn't be that hard. Frankly, I was a bit nervous. Haha! Its not that its my first time running. I've been doing 6km everyday alone or with a friend but this would be my first run with a bib! Whats the difference? Whats the big deal? I can't tell.. really. Maybe its just my first time before i prepare myself with more serious run events in the future!

The registration fee was quite cheap, so what the heck! For a $5 registration fee and you get a goodie bag worths over $50, why not?! The food and refreshments was good too. Lots of kuihs. A friend asked if i want to do 5km or 10km. I'd go for 5km fun run with the kids... hahaha.. chicken out, huh? I asked him couple times.. "You tak seganke buat 5km?" Yeah for an ironman and for someone who has done full marathons.. 5km would be just a warm up. But he didn't mind at all. Actually i wanted to proceed with 10km but i don't trust my ankle. It was slightly injured during my evening run the day before, so i didn't want to push it too hard. I can hear clicking sound on my right ankle each time i thump my feet.

goodie bag!

The run began at 8.30 and I ran and ran slowly.. passed by few runners. There was a group of runners who didn't stop talking from the beginning of the run till i don't remember when. They were cracking jokes and laughing all the way. Wow, they must have lots of stamina to do that! That makes the run more fun! The night was clear and calm even though we thought it was going to rain in Putrajaya. It rained in KL all the way.

Regardless my aching feet, i tried to run all through 5km. No walk. I was holding my pee at the same time. I wanted to pee badly. I made it. Reached the finishing in 33mins and ambushed the loo to answer some nature calls. Not a good timing but i wasn't aiming high. I'm a slow runner. I know that. But i enjoyed every bit of it.

A friend refreshed my mind by quoting my phrase months back before i started running. I used to say this to him.."I can never run 1km.. not even 100m without grasping for air!". I smirked. He said.. "Look now, you can run 5km non-stop!" I laughed.. and i'm proud of myself.. i want to run more. I'll do 10km next time. I think its doable for me.

a great morning starts with a great workout.

2009-05-14T16:35:00.002+08:00

Its been ages since i did run+swim. I haven't been swimming for weeks now. Since i own the nike ipod, i got addicted to running and keeping records of my mileage. I've been running for almost everyday eversince. Not too distance, just an easy 5km per day to keep my skin pink and to release some toxin. The clock was 8.15am when i woke up this morning. On every other day, 8am is considered quite late to start a morning run. I was a bit frustrated i didn't wake up earlier. I looked out the window hoping the sun won't show up yet, i heard birds chirping and the color of the sky looked grey and calm after the rain. It was a nice breezy morning. Brushed my teeth and put on my running attire and quickly head out to the lake before it gets hot.

There were few cars parking at the lake. Some went to fish and some veterans just enjoy the morning walk. Spoke to one indian yogiman (i call him that because he always does yoga after his massive runs. Man he can actually run, fast.) He asked me in his indian dialects.. "you.. run marathon?" i just gave him a smile. what? me a marathoner?? am a noob la. I said "no la, i just run for fun.. to relax". He replied "Oh same! good.. good.." That was the longest conversation we had so far. We used to rub shoulders couple times during our run but never spoke to each other. Just rasing eyebrows, waiving hands and smile. He left and i began my routine.

Started with a 1.2km of brisk walking. Passed by some pakciks and apeks. All veterans.. no youngsters. Those younger peeps are busy in their formal attires in the office by this hour. I was thinking, i hope i will still run when i turn gold. Leading healthy life with soulmate and friends. Thinking bubbles leads to another, and brought me to my second km. I did a slow 2km (to be exact 2.4km) run non-stop which equivalent to 2 loops of the lake. Proceed with walking on the 4th loop while catching up my breath. sigh. i wish i could go more running non-stop. Sweat was dripping non stop, heart was jumping. I continued my final loop(the 5th one) running again..slow and easy. Total workout this morning approaching 6km. I stopped at a nice spot under a big tree for yoga. Its a good routine to warm down and to reduce musce sore especially on the hamstrings and shins. Sweat started to drop more and even more. My running top was soaking wet. My throat felt very dry. I don't remember having a drop of fluid before running. After few routines of tunggang tertonggeng + squating i head to my car and had a large bottle of water at a single go. Dahaga beb!

Saw my swimming suit at the car seat behind. It'd be a good idea to swim as well. Just to relax my calf and to have a nice dip in. I detoured to the public pool and the bloke at the guard house approached me, "I didn't see you for some time.. where have you been?". I smiled and just reply.."outstationla" malas nak citer panjang. Wah everyone seemed to start making conversations with me today.. sometimes dissapearing makes heart go fonder.. in a way.. it is.

Changed my suit and jumped into the pool. The water was a bit chilly. But my body was already being warmed up with a 6km run before so it should be fine. Someone told me it feels good to swim after running. I argued at that time. Don't you feel tired after running that the only thing you can think of is your bed?? But after trying it, I have to agree with that. It actually felt great. I had a slow and relaxing breaststrokes. After 500m of swimming, people (again veterans) started to fill the pool. I feel content today. The feeling is great. I feel fresh. It was a nice morning of relaxing workouts.

The shower facilities at the pool is superb. The moment i turned the shower i can feel the high pressure of water rubbing my back. It feels like standing under a waterfall. The shower head is large enough to cover the whole body without effort of moving back and front. Seriously i don't mind paying $2 everyday to shower in a nice volume of water like this as compared to my home bathroom. Macam kedekut air je.

I love today. I head home smiling feeling so positive and forget about all the problems i have at home. The amount of endorphin today is sufficient enough to keep me happy the whole day. Shall i run again this evening? hmm...

What's up with lolly?

2009-05-14T11:47:00.005+08:00

Its been a while since i updated anything about lolly. She was sick a week ago. I blogged about her here. It had been hard for us taking care a sick cat. I shall rephrase that. Not just a normal cat but a super fussy kitty. She refused to cooperate during medication time. And she even refused to eat. It takes two person to feed or give her the medicines. It ain't an easy task to do. Mom had to hold her still and i, cum the in house non-certified veterinar had to feed her the medicine. Don't ask how but we did everything we could to just thrust the pills and food into her throat. It may look violent but i had to do what i had to do. i was a bit worried that she had not been eating anything for 3 days. The doctor recommended me the "Hills Science Diet Plan" canned food. It is tasty, suitable for indoor long fur kitty and super fussy ones. And one small can (1 day consumption) costs $7.50! Damn thats expensive. But anything for her now. As long as she's eating i don't mind spending more on her meal than mine! She needs the nutrients for fast recovery and not to mention she is so damn light now. If its not the fur she'll be one anorexic kitty! Regardless that expensive treats i got her, she still refuses to eat. Again, I had to thrust 'em down to her throat then she began to swallow bit by bit. Toldcha its tasty, lolly!!!
That was then when i had an extra hand. The process got harder when mom had to travel to hometown for a week. That means, nursing totally depends on me alone! Ouh I forgot to mention about the wound. Feeding medication was one thing, dressings on the open wound was another disaster. The first day, the bandage managed to stay for a day as she was still weak to move too much due to the anasthetic. She looked funny yet pitiful with the bandage wrapping half of her face. The doc gave me a handful of medications, ointment and creams for the wounds. That means I have to handle her dressings on my own. The doc suggested me to leash her neck with Elizabethan Collar to avoid her scratching the wounds. I tried before when she was neutered years back but this breed is naughty and they are intelligent cats. In less than an hour she managed to escape herself from the E Collar better than the way David Copperfield escape himself from a glass tube. The 2nd day, i attempted on putting on dressings on her wound with mom's help. It looked like we strangle her but again we were having trouble putting on the bandage around her neck. It looked messy and the bandage didn't actually cover the wound properly and i know she wasn't feeling comfortable with it. In less than an hour, she managed to escape herself from it. I gave up. Called up the same doctor and we decided to let the profesional do it. So i send her to the clinic everyday to do her dressing for approx $10 a day per dressing. This is ridiculous! After 4 days, she began to rebel and refuses any dressings. So why bother paying $10 for a bandage that only last less than half an hour. I stop sending her to the vet anymore, plus i don't really like the doc myself. Mom is still back in hometown. I have to figure a way how to feed her medicine. She refuses to eat dry food. So, instead of paying $10 for her dressings, i spend on good canned nutritional food. The meds? I mash them into powder and mix it with her food. It may look like i'm drugging her but thats just the only way left. Bought a bottle of gamat drink and feed her using a syringe. Sounds like a serious nursing, huh? I really want to get her fully recovered soon.

Its been a week and the wound is drying. The wound radius gets smaller and she begins to eat like normal. It feels good to being able to see her eating again. But i still qurantine her at the backyard. She's still dirty, messy and stinky but i can't bathe her now till the wound really dries up and recovered. Obviously i don't want her to mix with other cats and get into another fight no more. Backyard is the best place for her now. She can sleep, and play behind pots and bushes, eat and drink by the fountain. She hated it but its better than a cage.

She'll get used to it.

Ouh did i mention that the doc shaved half of her face and it made her look like a freak cat! No more whiskers. I heard cats lose their sense of directions when the whiskers get removed. So backyard it is! You ain't going anywhere untill i see whiskers growing!

running fever.

2009-05-09T02:15:00.003+08:00

So i did my run this evening. The watch shows 6 but the sky was still striking bright as if it was 3. I decided to wait a lil more hoping it'll be less sunny. The whole effect of global warming wears me out easily. I hate running in hot sunny day. I just can't. My body can't tolerate with it.

Started my 1st loop at 6.30. Still too bright. I was looking down with my cap on half way through the loop. It was more like a brisk walk just to get my body warmed up. 1 week of not running, my hamstrings surely need a good stretch before i start being a nagging bitch again complaining on muscle sores.

I started to run on my 2nd loop. Had a good pace.. breathing was good. No coughing nor sneezing. Same goes on my 3rd loop. 3/4 of the 3rd loop still doing fine and steady. Going to loop 4, i started coughing. Breathing became harder. Me heart was jumping and felt like bursting. I slowed down, but still maintain running. A friend passed by and said i looked so pale. My lips looked as white as my skin. Not a good sign. I almost faint for not having enough oxygen in my blood. We sat down for a bit. It wasn't a good idea to stop and sit. It felt even worse so I decided to continue walking. I took a deep long breath and walk the rest of the loop and made another to complete my 5km for the day.

I set the target and i met it. I didn't expect too much today but to be able to run approx 3k and 2k of walking is good enough for me. for a sick person. for a sick stubborn one. like me.

later at night i feel a bit better. perhaps because of the run. No muscle sore, so far.

New addiction. I need it!

2009-05-08T16:12:00.003+08:00

I haven't been running for a week. I miss running. I miss the pain on my shins while thumping on my soles. I miss complaining how tiring it is doing the loops. I miss catching my breath and slowing down my heart rate while running. Sometimes your heart is pumping and jumping so hard it feels like bursting and that point of time you slow down and take baby steps and tune back the rythm. Some people say running is a torture. Why? because running is tiring and makes you sweat like a pig. True. I couldn't agree more. Then why run? The feeling of post-running effect is satisfying. To feel every drop of your sweat on your forehead and the pain you bring back after running is indescribable. Then comes a new you. You'll feel better and you want to do it again. Running is my new addiction. Blame to whoever has dragged me into this.

Breathing is hard since my flu doesn't seem to go away. Its been a week now. There's too much going on this week. Being sick does not mean i have to be in bed all day long. I am going to run this evening. Or if i can't run, i'll walk. Just to get rid off some toxic in my brain.

poor lolly!

2009-05-05T16:00:00.003+08:00

Something weird happened to lolly. I wasn't at home to spend enough time to play with her for the past few days. Sis and brother in law just moved to a new house. We were busy shifting stuffs, packing and unpacking. I gave lolly less attention lately. She started to sleep outside and came back next morning.

One morning, i sensed a weird smell on her and she looked wet. Ahh, it must be the nights out she spent these few days.. I thought she really needed a bath but i was pretty hectic with my work. I didn't pay much attention to it. I shoo'd her away as she loves sitting on my desk while i'm doing my work. Lolly, u stinky pussy cat.. go away. She left with a sad look. I was busy back then and promised to bathe her once my work is done. Later in the evening, i carried her and decided to bathe her and i got really startled seeing a big round patch of blood on her left cheek. I held her and a large patch of fur came off. Damn! That explains the weird smell. I took dettol to clean her but the thick dried blood was hard to be removed. I wiped with a cotton and another patch of fur came out. I was freaked out! and i didn't dare to check further. I took her cage and and decided to bring her to the vet. Poor lolly. I am sorry darling i ignored you. I am sorry i shoo'd you away when you were trying to tell me that you were sick. Oh poor baby! The wound was huge and it already late. The vet was closing and the veterinar suggested i left her overnight.

The next day, she undergone a minor surgery. The doctor couldn't explain the cause. Maybe it was a catfight. Maybe it was an infection. But it didn't happen in a day or two. How didn't i notice any lump nor scratches on her?? Well, she acted weird lately by choosing a place like inside the toilet or behind the shaded bush to sleep. And she usually show up each time i call her name, but recently she seemed to ignore my call. Cats start acting like this when something is wrong with them. But didn't i get enough sign to discover her unwell conditon? i was too busy. damn!

The medical fee cost me $250!! anything for you lolly. The doc removed the rotten patch from her cheek and there's no skin for stitching so it was left as an open wound. The doc gave a set of medication for her for 10 days. And the best thing is i have to do her dressing on the wound everyday. Gosh! Looking at the wound itself enough to almost make me pass out at the vet. To attend to it everyday.. Oh god pls give me enough strength. I feel so helpless looking at lolly's weak condition. Not to mention the fresh red wound that looks so painful! She was still under anasthetic with a big gauze covering partial of her face. She looks motionless being held up by the doc's helper who looked like a butcher to me! Aww! She looks pretty bad.

My dear lolly, pls be strong.. seeing you like this makes my knee so weak. You appear in my nightmares every night. I am sorry i cared you less these past few weeks..

More on lolly's condition will be updated.

knocked out!

2009-05-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

I am cruel. What happened to me? I'm be coming ignorant each day. I don't remember when was the last time i watered it *sigh*

Work has not been as productive as last year. I don't know where and how it went wrong. I need to get back in track. However, no one has complained about my reputation yet. Clients still love my work. I delivered the same quality sometimes better than what they expected. But I seem to take more time to accomplish each task. Am I becoming more fussy? If its for better i really don't mind. I'm just afraid of losing competency and efficiency. As I said, I need to get back on track and manage my time well.

Health has not been on my side. Its been a week now but the fever doesn't seem to get better. I finished the antibiotics but the cough is still strong with green phlegm. erkh! i hate being sick (who doesn't). Having days without physical activities makes me hate looking at this pale zombie like in a mirror. I miss running, swimming or yoga. But those make my breathing harder for the time being. A friend got me a nike ipod and i was so excited to give it a try. I went jogging with it for the first time at damansara perdana. Managed to do only less than 5km and i was already grasping for air. Sweat tastes weird. The exhaustion was too great for just a 5km run. What happened to me? What happened to my stamina? The area was a bit polluted with dust and debris from constructions. Not a good place to run. Approximately 5km and we decided to head to the pool to cool off. I did some swim just to relax and enjoy the sunset. My head feels lighter, the view was awesome but the silent virus in my body started to strike. Thats how the fever turned worse. Maybe swimming is a no-no now. The influenza virus is everywhere..

I was bonked in bed for days. The next day, i slept for 12 hours. The drugs from my flu pill and cough syrup were the cause. Come to think of it, atleast i had decent sleep. The last time i had a good decent rest? I don't remember. But this time.. Too decent perhaps? Hope i will get better really soon. I miss thumping on my new shoes.

my new gadget!

2009-04-30T16:47:00.002+08:00

nike ipod. a cool gadget that records a distance and pace of walk or run. How does it work? A receiver plugged into my ipod and an accelerometer attached to or embedded in my shoe. Walla! Synced to your itunes and it will automatically display my running record on my nike widget. Cool isn't it? wuhuuu!! yippie!!! I am super excited today!! Can't wait to record my first run!

no title.

2009-04-17T09:51:00.000+08:00

If you are about to update life.. its gonna be a never ending story. Especially when the internet is not helping. Streamyx line is pretty bad lately. Been singing TM a cursing song over and over again. And the worse thing is the customer service helpline never answer my call! darn! I can't check my email, can't reply my client's, can't upload any pics to my blog. Being unproductive is best to describe my mundane day.

Phew, have not been writing for decades besides uploading client's works and portfolios to my work blog. I miss those 'i have zits and it effect my mood' or 'i saw a gay holding hands in a mall' kinda blog... you can say, a no biggy tales to shout about. Oh erm, writing needs a quality moment between your body, brain and emotion. And that is a lot for me to dedicate now. I miss those moment where i can sit half a day on my chair in front of my mac blogging about life. Its not that i don't have anything to write, but i reckon the more things happening in your life, the lesser time you have to blog about it.

I am pretty much occupying my time with activities that benefits me more in terms of my body and health department. And in order to do that, it takes a lot of sacrifice, time management and not forgetting letting go some things i loved doing.. like blog for no reasons.. and eat like no ones business. Well, ok i still eat and its still the best thing to do but i choose what i eat. Remember, you are what you eat!

I always hated running. But now, i can say running is addictive and it can become an obsession. I don't want it to reach to that extent. I don't have anyone to prove but i love how my body reacts to running. I have only one goal.. to live healthy. Running turns you into a positive mind. I still do my yoga at home and swim once in a while.. and i'd love to climb back. Next thing to do.. is to recce for a kick boxing class! Gosh i have lots of things in mind which i'd love to do.. but i only have 24hours a day and 7 days a week and i still hardly have time to clip my nails!

i'm off for a run peeps! if we happen to rub shoulders at tasik subang near sjmc, do HI me!

..retail therapy?

2009-02-26T17:48:00.004+08:00

I'm bored.

Went out with mom to get some groceries. I was at the cosmetic department eyeing for a compact powder. Have not been a complete lady these past months. Have not been taking care of my skin, hair and beauty for ages. Have not put makeup for some time. Only lipstick just to hint people that i'm still a lady. hehehe. Have stopped buying girly magz for years (the only time i manage to read girly magz is when waiting at the dental clinic for my appointment). How bad is that?

Mom had to go back early so i decided to send mom home and allow myself to wander around at the mall longer. I need... a therapy. a retail therapy. I told myself.. just go get yourself a compact powder and go home. period.

After half an hour, manage to get myself a compact powder. I was supposed to go back but end up detour myself to 'crocs'. I don't need a shoe at the mo. But does that rule apply to girls? Do they only buy shoes when they need one? women and shoes. They can never have enough.

I am not a HUGE fan of crocs but i'd go for its comfyness. 7 is my size. I tried one with size 7. Heck its a bit lose for me, so i asked size 6. Damn its too tight. They don't carry half sizes. So thats the end of the story with me and crocs.

But shoe story didn't just end there. I ended getting myself a pair green adidas ballet collection. Green is not really my color, but pink is out of stock. But somehow it feels comfortable and i vote for comfyness!!

Yuna EP!!

2009-02-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

A package made me smile this morning. I just got back from a swim and saw something jolting out from the damp mailbox (it rained last night). My Yuna EP i ordered from her myspace arrives earlier than i thought.

I have to say i love all 5 songs in it.. 'Backpacking around europe' is one of my favourite. Get one, listen to it full blast, listen to her voice and you'll love it! Gosh i can listen to it over and over again..

i'm a happy bunny!

check her out here.

tribute to the stars and the sun.

2009-02-03T09:27:00.003+08:00

i looked out the window and gazed upon the dark sky. The stars were countless last night.

i glanced to the window and watched the ray of light coming through the window. The sun feels warmer than any other morning..

To the stars and the sun, thanks for being there with me.

the moment i get hyperkinesia.

2009-02-02T00:28:00.005+08:00

ok, i feel like jumping on a trampoline and scream my heart out and just being silly for a mo. I think my eyeballs just cramped due to sitting more than 10 hours staring at the screen. At this point of time, put a donkey with a shocking-pink lipgloss and a fuchsia wig, she still looks gorgeous to me. Alright, don''t you deserve a good rest on a lazy couch with a remote control on your hand and a bucket of ice cream on the other on sunday? Erkh, i don't remember the last time i had that kinda sunday. Image showing me getting hyperkinesia. lol.

I was supposed to shoot a friend for her sport portfolio today.. her in a tight cycling attire and on her expensive bike. I was supposed to shoot her long time back, indeed. Things get really messy on my schedule that i had to push it from time to time. I sold my 18-200VR some time back to get the 17-55 f2.8 nikkor before it was stolen end of last year. damn. I used that lens (18-200 to cover most of my casual sports event. Not good enough to freeze every drop of sweats, but a good focal range to cover athletes in action without having to get too close with the subject. I need to get one tele soon. 70-200VR f2.8 might be a bit over my budget for now but a shutterbug buddy recommended a nikkor 80-200f2.8 which is quite decent for its price. There goes another sinful item on my wish list. Shashinki is selling for RM3750. where can i get a 2nd hand? sigh.

i need to be on my imaginary trampoline now.

The day i become 31!

2009-02-01T13:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks for making me feel so young and forget about my first digit. The cupcake isn't as sweet as the sweet gesture! thank you.

the beginning of a healthy life, no?

2009-01-25T13:26:00.003+08:00

start a day in a healthy way. that's what the sayings say. Its my birthday and it feels good to start my 31 with a 3km muscle working.

so i did jogging today. A friend wants to see if i can run and says there's a potential in me regardless how hard i tried to convince everyone that i hate running. We went to a shoe shop to eye some running shoes few days back. (Sounds like a very serious runner, huh?) Just to check the type of feet i have and what type of shoes are suitable. The last running shoes i had was a bad reebok i bought during warehouse sale centuries ago that i had to curse every time after i used it. Not to mention blisters! The moment i entered the shop, the shop owner said i definitely have the potential to become a runner looking at my build. Ahh.. don't give a damn thing about it.. but.. really? He put me on one shoe and actually asked me to run and test the shoes outside the shop and i can even tour the shopping mall with it. I was like.. "what..?!! you gotta be kidding me!" and guess what? i did.. except for the run thingy. Managed to have one round of tour and enjoying the comfort of the soles.

Back to jogging. I was actually brisk walking.. and run for a bit.. on and off. I don't remember when was the last time time i had jogged. No idea. Altogether, managed to push my muscles to work for 3km. I don't dare to go further and push until i get a proper shoes. No, i haven't bought any shoes yet. No budget just yet. Borrowed sis' nike and i don't think it was even my size. Lebam. Plus, have to be careful with the knee injuries occured some time back. I definitely need more stamina, but how come swimming don't give thaaat sore. Maybe because i enjoy breast stroking more than thumping my feet.

My shins and thighs are soring! But atleast the muscle is working babeh!